Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 143

There was a lot of flushed faces as we all sat down for dinner, Devon had been right , a few of the mated couples had disappeared for a little rekindling, The previous luna , tried to look sternly at us all. But , you couldn’t miss the amused little smile she was trying to hide. ” Anthea, how are you feeling hunny ? ” she asked trying to cover up her grin. Anthea looked up from her food that she had been scarthing down and smiled , her whole face lit up. ” I feel really good actually. I have had this sudden burts of energy. Like the little terrors are boosting me up ” she smiled fondly. Her mother in law smiled fondly. ” Yep , I remenber that. I hate to be the bearer of bad news. But it runs out near the end. So, make the most of it now while it is happening ” she laughed a little getting lost in her memory.

I can’t believe I hadn’t told him myself yet about our news, but I hadn’t actually had the time. Or the right moment to do it. Looking up , I caught the glance of the previous luna , she smiled sweetly at me. It was uncanny on how she was able to just read what you was thinking , or maybe she was just good at reading body language. Which ever it was , she just always seemed to know. Before she caught Devons attention , she turned and looked back at Anthea. ” Your carrying two as well sweetie , so we need to make sure we look after you. And you look after yourself, make sure you make my son do things for you aswell “

It hit me liek a ton of brick , I had actually forgotten about my situation for a minute. I almost choked on my food , casuing Devon to look at me with concern. ” I’m fine ” I coughed. ” Just went down the wrong hole is all ” I told a white lie. A few that already new of my situation his there knwoing smiles. It was obvious I had not yet told Devon , or he would be talking about it himself.

He would have strutted out here like a peacock , I was jus grateful no one else had spilled the beans yet. I needed to tell him myself. And hopefully he can then help me come to terms with he fact we were going to become parents so soon. I think what I was struggling with the most. The reason why I wanted to wait was , I didn’t know how I would be as a mum. My mum was always so cold an distant. She only ever acted some sort of nice if she needed me to do something for her. I had darkness inside of me , but I had alwasy tried to be good. But what if one day it consumed me , and it took over.

I didn’t want to pass that onto my children , or turn my children bad. It was not a walk in the park to battle this every single day , and my children hopefully would battle it too. I don’t know how I would feel if they chose to give in , how I would act. Could I parent a child who had evil intentions , love them even ? I felt a hand brush against mine under the table , looking up I saw Devon looking at me with conern. Giving him a small smile , to assure him I was Ok. I then carried on eating and joined in on the conversation happening around the table.

I think everyone was eager for alone time though , and this was more for the previous Luna who had been worried and threating about us. Who had missed her family around her. Because as soon as people had finished eating , they made their excuses to leave. I was pleased when I saw Penny eagerly leave with Ryken , and super proud of her. She was coming out of her shell lovley and Ryken was definetly the one to nurture her tortured soul. She took his hand shyly , and then walked out of the room.

We made our excuses soon after. The rest of the night and for two days after we spent it just being in each others company. There was lots of pleasure , lots and lots of pleasure. And sleeping and eating , and in all of that time I didn’t feel the moment was right to tell him. Deep down , I knew the reason why. But I didn’t want to voice it. It was wrong of me , to keep something so big away from him , that effects the both of us.

I just wante dto live in our bubble , just us a mated couple without the thought of anyone after us. Or an impending war. We hadn’t had the chance to actually bond properly yet. But it all came crashing down on the third morning , the bubble imploded. We woke up to an exsessive banging on the cabin door. Jumping out of bed we both ran to the door flinging it open , to see a tearful Anthea stood there. And a very distraught Enzo behind her , he was looking hoplessly at her.

” What’s wrong , what’s happening ? “Devon said. ” I’m sorry , she needed to come. I have been trying to console her for the last day. But it isn’t me she is needing ” Enzo said , he looked down like the thought killed him. ” You’ve been hiding away ” Anthea cried hysterically at me. Devon looked confused as hell , and so was I . Before I could get my brain to catch up. She dropped the bomb. ” My babies are craving yours , and they feel sad. Like deep sorrow sadness and i’m feeling every little ounce of it. They don’t like that they haven’t been near you. I worked it out , I feel so connected to you because of your baby . It hit me in a dream , they kept pushing images of your belly at me ” she cried hysterically at me.

She was so distraught , she didn’t notice my anxious frozen frame. I didn’t dare look at him. And when the silence dragged on , it gave time for Anthea to calm down and notice the mood that had descended around us. She looked between me and Devon and what she saw muct not be good. Because she became horrified. Her hand flew to her mouth. ” You haven’t told him ? “she gasped. ” No , she hasn’t ” Devon said , his voice full of anger.

” Anthea , come on we need to go ” Enzo tried to encourage her. But she looked back at him in horror. ” No , I’m sorry Violet , I’m so sorry. You’ve been here for days . I just though . . . ” she was so upset. Coming out of my shock , I shook my head sadly. ” It’s OK Anthea , it isn’t your fault. It is mine ” stepping forward. I embraced her in a hug , and she held onto me for a long time. Needing my closeness, I wasn’t sure what was going off. Why her babies needed to be near us , as much as they did. But we will figure it out I wasn’t sure. Right now , I just gave her what she needed and that was closeness. I may have held her for longer than needed too , keeping me away from the impending situation I knew I was about to have to face.

” I’m so sorry ” Anthea whispered into my ear eventually. ” It’s OK ” I whispered back , pulling away she looked a lot more setteled. Even if she did still look guilty. ” Can you , ermmm , just not lock yourself away for this long again please. I think we need to figure this out. I have felt like I was slolwy going crazy these last fews days , I was Ok the first day. So maybe just check in ” she asked awkwardly. ” I’ll come by later ” I promised her and she smiled grateful.

After that they left. Leaving me to face the music. Closing the door, I placed my forehead against it. Clsoing my eyes , I took some deep breaths. Trying to get my heart and my head to link up. So that I could explain myself properly to him. He remained quiet , waiting me out. He was not going to speak first and make the first move here , it was all on me. It was not how I pictured me announcing to him that I was carrying his pups. But it was me that kept it from him , when in the last few days I had every chance to tell him. The fact that others have known for days now and he hasn’t has to hurt.

Slowly turning around , I looked up into his eyes and saw the hurt there. It broke my heart , I had put that there. He was so handsome and beautiful. Our mating started with him keeping his disatnce away from me out of fear , and now I have held this from him out of fear too. ” Devon ” I breathed.