Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 45

I found myself unable to sleep. Although this place is so far beautiful and it’s breath taking. But I felt something dark and sinister in it. Like they were covering the real thing up with all this beauty. A mask , plus it was weird being so far from the pack. I couldn’t feel them , or if I wished. I couldn’t just start digging into their thoughts. All I heard was Devon and I was choosing not to hear him right now and Peter. Who must be sound asleep because it was a lank line from him. Sitting up in bed , I rest my back against the headboard. Anthea stirs but doesn’t wake. Looking down, I smiled at her peaceful face. Then I looked out the window from where I sat on the bed at the moon that was low tonight. It lit up the room with its glow.

Just under it you could see all the trees in the distance high up on the mountains on the island. Peaceful , but not for me. I know it had only literally been hours of being here. And so far, thanks to Sianna and Anthea, me and my wolf had both had a pleasurable time. But I just know that this wouldn’t be a place I would ever feel restful in. Maybe it was because of what was happening. The unknown and not the actual island itself. Maybe I was being unfair to it.

But I had also never seen myself living away from the pack. What if Anthea wants to stay here once she has her magic back. Would that be a deal-breaker choice between me and Rion ? Looking back at the moon, I can’t help but mentally question the godless and the fates. What had I done so wrong ? I have trained to be a good alpha all my life. Yea, I had been a d**k to Anthea, but that was’t the real me. When I pictured my mate growing up I always knew I would treat her like a queen. Fear and shock had made me act that way.

Why was I being punished this way ? Why did I deserve that my mate could potentially not choose me and be left brown and not whole ? I get that Sianna shouldn’t have come back so soon in this lifetime. So was I destined to have another mate ? f**k all the unknown was hurting my head. Slowly standing up out of bed , I went downstairs. And when I went down I was shocked to see Abigail sitting at the table. A cup between her fingers. ” Abi, why are you awake ? ” I asked her. She looked up at me shocked. ” s**t sorry I didn’t hear you come down ” she said to me, smiling.

” Which must mean your distracted , fifth rule of training “, I reminded her. She grins and stands up, heading into the kitchen. ” Never be too distracted. That your unaware , unaware means your vulnerable. Do you want some warm milk? I would offer coco but there aren’t any ” she says over her shoulder as she opens the fridge. One of them must have gone to the supply shed they were talking about. Because when I went behind her and looked in, there was food in there. ” Sure ” I say and k**s the back of her head and then go sit back down on the table and wait for her.

When she slid me my cup I saw hers back full too. ” Warm milk and the second cup , mum’s famous trick to try get us to sleep as kids. When we can’t sleep , so what’s keeping you awake tonight ?” she looks at me with a knowing look. ” The same as you, no doubt , its weird not being back home. And the fact I can’t just go hug my mate for comfort in bed is a little bit of a hindrance ” she huffs. ” Abi, you’re too young to be sharing beds with boys “, I tell her but she rolls her eyes. ” I know that , but he is the one that could bring me comfort right now and hes so close and we can’t. I have always wanted to travel but this place , its just unsettling me. Or maybe I’m crazy and it’s just the fact I am not cut out for traveling ” she shrugs.

Shaking my head at her ” Nope I feel it too here “, I told her and she seemed to relax over the fact it wasn’t just her. ” Peter and me found this cute little spot on the beach. It had this big rock on the sand and our wolves lay there for hours soaking up the sun. It was beautiful , so why now when the sun is down I don’t feel that peace. I felt earlier “. She looked at me like I knew the answers, but I didn’t. I couldn’t explain it either. ” Maybe we are just home sick saps ” I joked with her.

She laughed and took a drink. ” Or maybe it is because what could unfold here would hurt us both ” she said, putting words to the matter far wiser than someone her age should. ” If this all goes wrong for you, I will have to watch my older brother go through a world of hurt. My protector , the person who has looked out for me my whole life in a different way than a parent could. You’re the one I always ran to if I got hurt , if I had a nightmare, if a boy kicked me in the pack or pulled my hair. But who will be that person for you, Enzo ? You have never turned to anyone , you take on the problems of everyone and seek no one for back up. Maybe sometimes Devon. But even Devon, I don’t think you tell the whole truth to” she floors me. With one speech. My baby sister is not so much a baby anymore. I can only imagine the feeling I was having now was what a parent felt when their children move out and start to lead their own lives.

I looked down at the table and tapped my cup with my finger. ” Ironic really , that I recently had opened up to someone. Anthea , that week in the cave was the most free I had felt my whole life. If only I had not been such a d**k and grabbed it with both hands and not been so caught up in what others would think ” I told her. She doesn’t answer me back , so I look up. She was staring at me with tears in her eyes. ” Abi ?” she looked away and wiped her eyes. ” Sorry , I just, that just makes this all the more sadder. And you have never opened up to me like that ever. I love Anthea like a sister too already. Around the fire tonight , what Rion and that other girl said. I don’t think this is going to be as easy as we thought, is it ? “she asks me.

” No Abi, I don’t think it is , but don’t you worry about me OK. How about I come, lie with you for a while. Just while you fall asleep. Like back when you were a kid and you had a nightmare ? ” I know I was ending this conversation , but who could blame me for not wanting to think of a worse outcome? Anthea loved me , I know she did. And I had to believe that it would stay that way. ” Yea ” she nodded. ” Yea, that would be nice, my big brother my savior again, eh ? “she laughed.

Taking her cup from her, I put both in the sink. Then followed her up to her room. Laying down , she laid with me and placed her head on my chest, just like she did as a kid. She laughed a little. ” Same strong heartbeat that lulled me to sleep back then ” she mused. I chuckled. ” I think dad used to get jealous if you didn’t cry for him in the night. ” She hummed ” Possibly, but daddy knows I love him too ” she yawned. It took maybe five minutes for me to hear her soft snores.

When I knew she was out , I snook out of her room and found Peter in the hallway. He looked at me when I came out , with a look of gratitude. Her being upset must not be sitting well with him. ” If she can not sleep tomorrow night , you should lay with her just while she falls asleep. There is no crime of a friend doing that for a friend. No one will judge you or look at you badly for it, your her mate. Mates are whatever our mates need of us “, I tell him and he nods. I think this was a tough situation to be in , one that humans would not understand, but they would not understand the bond. And they would not understand there are no sinister thoughts or actions here.

I tap his shoulder as I pass and go back to our room. Anthea was sat up awake. The look on her face told me she had heard everything. ” Lets get some sleep baby “, I told her. I didn’t want her to feel guilt over this. Climbing back into bed, she hugged me tightly. She didn’t let go all night. I had to have hope that this here was enough.