Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 54

Rion had suggested we let our wolves out for a run. In all honesty, I wasn’t keen on the idea. I didn’t want Sianna and his wolf to get carried away and we ended up mating. But in all honesty, Sianna was on her best behavior around him. A few little playful nips here and there and they cuddled up when they stopped to rest. But besides that , nothing of great worry. I felt their connection when they were this way too. It was odd. I felt the same strong feelings as I had when around Enzo, but there seemed to be no mad passion.

I really needed to talk with him though , and learn more. In my wolf, that was hard to do. ” Sianna “, I called out to her.

S – ” Yes ?”

A – ” Why does your mating not feel the same as my mating with Enzo ? “

S- ” This is how I have always known our mating to be comfortable , calm and dependable “

That didn’t sound like any matings I had heard of, but then again, I guess we all couldn’t be the same. Their mating seemed to be cute and sweet, whereas mine and Enzo’s were raw , exciting and, most of all, hot. As well as feeling protected and safe.

S – ” I have been enjoying your kind of mating “, she taunts

I feel embarrassed that she heard that. I wasn’t mocking their mating, just curious.

A- ” Do you find it unfair that I get to be intimate with my mate, but yet , I am trying to prevent you with yours ? “

She was quiet for the longest time, and I thought maybe I had offended her or something. Which was not my intention at all.

S – ” I chose to leave my mate Anthea , with no knowledge of what really happened to me. I love Rion , I really did. But something always felt missing. I even suspected him of being the one to be messing with me for a while. I will admit that, I know you have your doubts about him too, and so does Enzo. But I drew b***d without him knowing , checked it and found it clean. I read his mind while he slept , nothing. Maybe our bond was lacking due to me. I had my mind too busy with other matters. At that time, I found him and his sister in the barn. I was not ready for a mate. I believed I had a greater purpose to serve. But I did not look at him as a hindrance , or turn my nose up at the gift of a mate. But I was always so preoccupied. He did not take my main focus like I know happens in other matches. I blamed it on my magic , on who I was. I guess I feel guilty , I doubted him and then I wasn’t the mate he deserved. If he had been my first love, maybe it would have been different , but my first love was the need to protect “.

I felt sorry for them , for her and for him. Sianna had just wiped out where my mind was leading me to also. Secretly, deep down I had been hoping he was behind all of this. Easy choice it would have been then. Her admission just made this harder. Do I give them their second chance , by sacrificing my own chance of happiness?

S – ” No Anthea, your mate is Enzo. Stop putting your happiness in second place to everyone else’s , I did. And look where that got us. I know you think this is such a hard decision . But it’s only because you made it one. I chose you as my human counterpart. You didn’t choose me nor have I ever asked you to mate with Rion. I have been keeping quiet for you to make your own choices. And as you saw , I was all for Enzo and his wolf being our mate in the beginning. “

I could hardly breathe , had I really been doing that this whole time. I mean, of course, I had. I thought this was what we needed to do. To come up with a solution to it together. I mean we are one , are we not ?

S- ” Of course we are , but this is my second life , you are not my original body. I took the place of what would have been your wolf and the wolf that would have had the same mate as you in Enzo. I hijacked you because you were my perfect match , the person I saw that would keep me humble this time around. I have already asked you for so much. As much of a gift my magic , it will also be a burden Anthea. Don’t give up your mate as well as the quiet life you always wanted “,

She hadn’t talked to me like this before, hadn’t opened up to me this way. Had she been so quiet all of this time to make me make my own choices.

S – ” Let me lie here with him for a while and then I will reject him Anthea. I have been quiet because I have been too cowardly to do what I should have done before I left. Maybe then the fates would have blessed him with a new mate. One that would have been the one he deserved. And yes, I did it, so you will learn to make your own choices. And I had hoped you would think of yourself before others too. But you are so kind hearted , I should have known you wouldn’t want to hurt anyone. “

I was at a loss for words , unable to answer her back, so I just distanced myself. Tried to leave them to their own privacy. Sianna licked at his face and at his fur. She rubbed herself up against him. And he groomed her back. They lay that way for the longest time. I knew I was late for a meeting with Enzo and Shira. But if Sianna was going to do what she said she would , then she made my choice for me. Enzo and I could mate. Then not showing up was the least I could do. Enzo would understand when I told him what had happened.

We lay there until morning and the sun was rising. When the time came, it was almost like Rion and his wolf expected it. He sat up tall , and looked down on us. The stance looked like he was saying he was ready. Sianna slowly sat us up so that we were mimicking his stance.

S – Rion ? Do you hear me ?

My heart rate picked up , I didn’t know she could speak with him. She hadn’t done it in all of this time.

R – Sianna, you have finally spoken to me. I have been waiting for my love. Why have you had our connection blocked? I thought maybe in Antheas’ body this was lost , our link.

S- No my love , we have not. I have missed you so , and I am so sorry for what I have put you through. Leaving to fight them alone was a stupid mistake.

Even now, she still sticks to the story. That she went after the warlocks alone. She still protected our secret , she still wouldn’t tell him what had really happened. She claimed that she had cleared his name , so why not bring him in on all of this. I did not doubt her when she said she had looked at him as a suspect. But had love blinded her from looking too deeply ?

R – What happened, Sianna ? What happened when you went after the warlocks ?

S – Let’s not talk about that Rion , we have other things we need to talk about. We have had our chance at being mates. I know I wasn’t the best mate you could have had. I know I neglected our love and I know how happy you must have felt when you sensed me in Anthea. But, my love, we had our time. We can not be so selfish as to ask them to give up their chance . This is Antheas’ life, not mine.

R – Sianna, what is it you are saying ? We did not have full time. We had hardly just begun our happiness , we did not have babies. The fates placed you in Anthea to give us that chance.

S- That was my fault, Rion , I take responsibility for that. I was always looking for the next person to save. Anthea is the last person I chose to save , from a life of shame and despair , loneliness and sadness. By choosing her, I have saved her and I finally feel fulfilled in my mission. I am hers now, I am hers and she is mine and I couldn’t make her live an unhappy life without the mate that was chosen for her.

R – Sianna please , I need you.

S- Rion , my love and my life . I reject you as my mate. I reject our bond and our love. I reject you, Rion. I wish for the mates to bless you with another, as the mates have blessed me with another. Enzo and his wolf will be our mates. Rion, I reject you.

I saw the wolf crumble , his shifted form crumble before us until Rion the man knelt there. His face was horrified and broken. ” Sianna , please don’t do this, we could be selfish. We lived our lives saving others. We deserve this ” he pleaded. But Sianna didn’t. She repeated her words and I saw the second he felt the bond snap , inside myself I felt a sharp pain and Sianna howled loudly in our heads.

Rion fell forward onto his hands and knees and he sobbed . To watch a grown , strong man sob , it was heart breaking.

Sianna turned us and bolted. She ran us until we were far away and when we stopped she howled at the sky. While she howled her misery I felt something. There was pain, yes , but behind the pain. I still felt him, still felt the small buzz of a bond I had felt for RIon since I first saw him. ” Sianna , it didn’t work ” I rushed out. She kept on howling , so I shouted her name,

” It didn’t work. I still feel him “, I tell her when she finally stops.

S- ” How ? I feel the pain “

A – ” I don’t know. I still feel him. Do you still feel your bond ? Look past the physical pain to the bond “

She was silent for a while , then she sighs.

S- ” I still feel it. It should have worked, Anthea. Unless . . . . “