Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 75

It felt like being entombed in my own mind for years. Lonely , at first I had fought hard to get out. But all my attempts had been in vein. I cast every spell , every curse, everything I had ever learned when finding out about the dark magic that lingered just near the surface. But nothing and at all my attempts she had laughed and mocked me. But the truth was, I knew Yianna now better than anyone, I had seen memories of her childhood. Everything. And let me tell you that was one messed-up girl. She claimed it was her sister that wanted attention , starved of it and, in her own, twisted way, wanted her father’s approval, even though he was dead.

But the fact of the matter was , it was her that sought it more than anyone. She wanted to become this powerful being to prove her worth. When she was asleep and vulnerable , it was amazing what her sub-conscious thoughts turned to. Even her killing him was a way for her to prove she was worthy of his love. A bit of a sideways way to do it , that now he couldn’t be there to say whether he was proud or not. Yianna I could only describe as having two personalities, the calm collected rational person , that she mainly showed when pretending to be me.

Then t was like a switch tripped in her head and on the outcome of it flipping, this psycho arrived. That was bat s**t crazy. But him , Devon. He had given me more strength then I had felt my entire life to fight. So I did something I never said I would do. I tapped into the darkest part of my magic to fight back. Weaken her. All to get to my sexy handsome mate. For him to now, he barely looked at me.Not since that day when he bent down to me to see if I was alright and to confirm to the others we were actually mates. Well, he had hardly been anywhere close to me , looked or talked to me.

He was definitely avoiding me , and I had no clue why. Not when I had fought so hard to get to him. My life before we were on the run with my brother and me, it had been me having fun. Living life for its best. I was somewhat an adrenaline junky , a thrill seeker. I had been care free and a free spirit. But one thing I had always craved besides having a good time. Was finding my mate to do it all with. The old me would have laughed at settling down in one place. I wanted to explore and see the world. But after years of confinement , all I wanted now was my mate and a family of my own. Funny how things change.

But I now see what I was doing all those years ago for what it was , and it was a distraction from facing the past. I had grown up with a mum who was a witch of dark magic , she saw the future. That was where I got those gifts from. As well as my father, who was a shapeshifter. Rion only took after our father , and I envied that of him. Our parents were not exactly on the good side of the spectrum. It is a wonder that me and Rion turned out on the right side. Not that they did that, mum tried her hardest to get me to accept the dark magic that lingered in my body. But I never would. I saw how it made her.

She was an evil woman , taking lives was not an issue for her, neither was doing evil things for evil people. Me and Rion saw way more than we should have. I had used my care free spirit as a way to ignore the past and the things within me. When I had heard Yianna hashing out her evil plan in our minds, I had remembered the spell with her. I want the dark magic out of me. I just wanted to be a shapeshifter with my brother , and when the time was right I would do it. But with Yianna around, I wasn’t risking her getting it when I removed it. I have seen what she did to her own family to get their magic.

The alpha walks into the room and informs us that Anthea and Enzo will be longer than expected , that maybe we should resume this come morning. I watched as Devon jumped out of his chair and made a quick exit from the room. I scowled at his retreating back. Getting up, having enough of this avoidance of his , I followed him out of the house and out onto the back lawn. The door slammed shut behind me and I saw his muscular shoulders tense. His steps faltered as he was walking towards the trees. ” Please stop ” I said, and even from here I could feel his conflict. He didn’t want to. ” Please, Devon, we need to talk. ” I insisted , I heard him sigh and his feet finally stopped in their tracks.

He didn’t say a word though. ” Devon, what is wrong ? “I asked the only question I could think of. How do you approach someone who is your mate , but is tricked into mating you? As well as with having his mind messed with? He slowly turned around and faced me and I saw anger on his face. It took me back a little bit. ” What is wrong with me ? Really , that is what you wish to talk about ? “he says calmly. I slowly nodded my head, needing to know , but not entirely sure I wanted to know.

He scoffed , his hand coming up and running along the back of his neck as he looked down. ” What is wrong? ” he laughed. ” Well , I have this burning hatred inside of me. My best friend, the person I have grown up with, distrusts me. He is not just my best friend, he is my brother and every time he looks at me I know what he is thinking. I know that because I know him so well. I have seen that look he has given to others. All because someone else , an evil conniving b***h was able to get in my head , take away my own actions. I do not blame him. I would be wary too. But it pisses me off that he feels the need to be wary of me ” he snapped.

I went to open my mouth to speak but he looked up at me. ” I hate the fact I feel violated , I have always known exactly how I would react when I found my mate. Thrilled beyond belief, I am no saint Vi. I have had fun while waiting. But I knew when the day came , she would be my queen. I knew how I would want our first mating to be , the way we would connect for the first time. Then I wake up from this brain fog to see I have my mark and you have yours , and all those first memories of us are gone ruined and f*****g tarnished ” he shouted.

I went to walk forward but he stepped back and held his hand up. ” I know it is unfair to you , but you were her . Well, she was you and when I look at you all I feel right now is anger ” he said, and it cracked my heart like a whip. ” What ? ” I said out of pure shock. Anger started swamping me too. ” How can you look at me and think that ? You feel violated that woman took over my body for years and locked me away. I was practically dead , but alive. Now you look at me like I am the evil one to blame “, I snapped back at him.

He growled , his jaw tightened , his hands went on his h*p and he looked away from me. ” I know it’s not you , but she looked like you. I was still too brain foggy to actually see her before. I have no one to shift this f*****g anger on to. I search your mind and your emotions and I feel something evil wafting off of you and it just makes me think she’s still in there somewhere. What if I attach myself to you again and it’s still f*****g her tricking us? I’m pissed off because I want my mate and can’t have her . “

I shook my head, not believing this. ” Devon , I am part dark witch. That is what you sense , but I am not evil nor dark. I don’t use my magic. She is no longer in me like she is no longer controlling you. If you feel this way for me, then she has won. I may as well have not fought her to get to you. She may have taken our initial firsts , but why would you let her take anymore happiness from us ? “I pleaded with him.

” Look, I know all of this is irrational , I just ” his words cut off and his eyes snapped up. So I looked to see where he was looking. Anthea and Enzo stood there watching us with concern. Except Anthea looked different. But that isn’t my concern right now. My main concern was my mate. His face hardened and he looked back at me. ” I just can’t do this us , me falling for you or connecting to you as my mate , not until I know she is dead. Just as he won’t trust me fully until she is , I can’t trust my bond with you. When she takes her last breath , and if this bond between me and you is still intact, then I will beg at your feet to take me as your mate , and start our lives together. But I am sorry, I can not , not yet. Back at the castle I felt the spell break , but who knows if it was just more trickery , her letting us all off the hook so easily. Just don’t sit right , I don’t even trust my own mind and thoughts enough right now . To know what is and isn’t real “. He looks back to me and now all his anger was gone , he just looked f*****g tortured. He didn’t say anything else , he turned and shifted into his wolf and ran through the tree line away from me.

Turning my back to Anthea and Enzo , I walked off so they wouldn’t see the tears fall.