Reject Me Again, My Alpha
Chapter 9

I was cold and wet , covered in dirt and god knows what else. But all I did for five minutes was stand frozen on my spot. I was in the alpha’s house , in Enzo’s bathroom. This was overwhelming. Enzo coming to my aid that way out there , was stupid. I have dealt with girls like her my whole life. They get their kicks by bullying people they know don’t stand a chance. Another five minutes and it would have been over , now Bianca would hold more of a grudge. Enzo had most likely just made things worse for me.

Looking around it was so fancy , nothing like our house. If this was just Enzo’s bedroom bathroom , what was the master one like? It was bigger than my room. It felt intimidating , just looking at it. The wealth here was definitely shown. Looking at the shower , I bit my l*p and looked down at my ruined clothes and the drying dirt on my skin. I really did need to get washed.

I had just come into the main village to try and find Enzo. I had wanted to apologise for our last encounter. In the woods , I had been so overwhelmed by his scent and this deep need I had never felt before , my mind had gone blank. I’d felt the push of his thing against my entrance and I had felt a sudden rush of being over joyed, it wasn’t until he flung himself off of me my senses started coming back to me. How the hell could I have felt overjoyed? I had put it down to the fact my wolf had near on been doing summersaults in my subconscious over the fact we were about to mate.

That was when I had bumped into Bianca. I hadn’t been paying attention. I had been going over what I would say in my mind when I found him. Most of all, trying to remove the jealousy I felt when I got to the part where I told him , I think him taking a bond mate would be a good idea , and that I also thought it would work, breaking our bond. If only I could stop the bitterness that rose up in me when I thought about it.

If Enzo thought he was struggling with the bond alone , he was wrong. It felt as if my whole body and soul were constantly pining for him. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. He was in my dreams all of the time. So , I hadn’t seen her coming to me. So, when I had suddenly gone flying into the mud. I was in complete shock. Taken off guard. I hadn’t done anything to protect myself .

Sighing, I stripped off the muddy clothes and stepped into the huge shower cubicle. I looked at all the knobs and buttons and became confused for about five minutes , not sure how to turn the damn thing on. I ended up blasting myself with freezing water and then scolding water , before I fully figured out how to get the temperature right, what was wrong with just on and off and a temperature gauge these days. Maybe it was just because I was too sheltered and my house didn’t have such fancy things. But once I got it right , I fully understood. Standing under the waterfall shower, it felt like heaven. The mud washed itself away down the drain and I felt my tense muscles relaxing under the heat.

Whilst I was there , my mind began to wonder. The dreams I was having kept getting more and more complicated. Last night the big black wolf was chasing me again. But this time , he’d caught me. I’d been fearful in my dreams it was about to kill me off. But then , it just stood over me. It’s big nose sniffing and scenting me. I felt a buzz of something running through me , much like I had felt when Enzo had me pinned in the wood the other day. But then another wolf had appeared at its side. Both looked down on me and this wolf looked like Enzo’s. They watched and waited like they had been expecting me to do something.

A banging on the door pulled me out of my daydream and I gasped. ” Anthea are you almost done ?” Enzo’s voice shouted over the sound of the running water. s**t , how long had I been lost in the dream ? I hadn’t even washed my hair yet or my body. ” Five minutes ” I shouted and quickly picked up whatever soap he had and covered my body in it. Another bad move , now all I smelt was him and it was sending me wild. My n*****s hardened and between my legs became twichy. I closed my eyes and fell back against the tiles , these new desires I was having consumed me.

Like on instinct, my hand came up to my breasts and brushed over the hardened n*****s. The feeling I got made me gasp. My mouth opened as pleasure shot through me. So I did it again and again. The twitching between my legs became more intense and I bit my l*p as I slowly moved a hand down there too. I had never done such things to myself , never felt the need to. But now it was like I couldn’t stop , I didn’t know what I was doing. But I parted my legs a little and just brushed my fingers over the top of my private parts, same as I did with my n*****s, and the feeling that shot through me almost made my knees give out.

His smell all around me became more vibrant and I got lost in it as I kept stroking between my legs. I found a spot that felt the best, so I kept my movements in that and my n*****s. I found if I pinched them a little it felt marvellous . I kept it up until the most unusual feeling crashed through me , it made my legs shake and my breath became weird, it felt like all the nerves in my body vibrated. My insides tensed and I threw my head back in a silent scream. As what I think was an o****m ripped through my body.

A low menacing growl invaded my foggy brain and ripped me away from the cloud I was floating in. Opening my eyes , I saw Enzo standing outside of the shower stall , looking at me through the steamy glass. His eyes were flashing yellow and he stood tensed. ” Are you trying to force me to mate with you. ?” He said between clenched teeth. I shook my head violently no. ” Liar , your a temptress , you know I’d smell your desire. You knew I’d hear your sounds of pleasure and you know how hard my wolf is pushing me. You said you agreed with us not being mates , so why the f**k are you tempting me ?” He said lowly between his clenched teeth.

I shook my head again ” I . . I’m not trying to do that. Your. . it was your soap , I mean your scent. I was washing and it surrounded me and I’ve never done anything like that before ” I admitted , my cheeks felt like they were on fire as embarrassment washed through me. He tipped his head , his eyes narrowing. ” You’ve never pleased yourself ?” He asked. I shook my head no. I saw his jaw ticking , his hands came up to the glass and balled into fists. And it seemed he was staring into my soul. And it also seemed like he was warring with himself. Like he was having an internal debate.

” One time ” he growls out eventually. I looked at him confused. What one time ? What did he mean? He must have seen it in my expression. Because he rolls his eyes ” I will show you the true meaning of pleasure one time , but we will not f**k. We will not seal the bond “, he tells me. He tells me like it was a done deal and that I did not have a choice. But who was I kidding? When I watched him strip off his clothes , I did not say no. When he stepped into the shower with me fully naked. I did not say no. My wolf was jumping away inside of me and I had no willpower to fight the bond that was riding me hard either.

And somewhere deep down inside of me , I was fed up of being undesired and unwanted. Cast aside and disliked. If even a man like Enzo wanted me for a second , it would be more than I ever imagined anyone ever wanting me. So maybe I was being selfish here too. Taking something from him that I knew would blow my mind and ruin me forever. This is something everyone my age has been experiencing for a few years now. Why could I not feel the same as they do ? I was terrified , self-conscious and embarrassed. But what rode over all of that was curiosity.

He stepped up into my space and my head and my direct eye sight was only met by his chest , so I had to bend my neck back and look up. His hand slowly came up and tangled in the back of my hair. He snarled down at me. ” Do not let us f**k , both of us have to be on the same page here. If I go to f**k you , scream and shout and punch me. And I’ll fight the urge to. Do you hear me ?” He says and I nodded again , as well as I could, with his hand in my hair. ” I have never had to practice so much self control in my life ” he says right before his lips land on me in a punishing k**s, but I was learning. I think , I mean I was trying to , so I could keep up with him.

He didn’t waste much time though. He did. Exactly what he told me he would do , show me real pleasure. And he showed me by licking me down there. I had been mortified when I had seen his intention. But from that first swipe of his tongue , I hadn’t cared a damn bit. Then, when his fingers had bettered me , at first it felt a little painful , but soon. It felt like heaven. And if I thought the o****m I had given myself was life-changing , this one rocked me to my core. Then he had demanded me to my knees and he had done something I at first had been shocked about. But after it had felt kind of naughty. He’d made me kneel between his legs and he had pulled on his p***s , until shits of semen had splattered all over my face. He smirked down at me ” If only we could mate , I wouldn’t let the shower wash it away and I’d rub it into your skin. Everyone would scent me on you and know your mine “. Then his face had suddenly hardened, he’d stepped back and he’d looked pissed again.

” Today is an example of why we can’t Anthea. Me sticking up for you today will have caused talk among the pack. My reasoning today would have been a justifiable reason to step in , but the pack do not respect you and you don’t fight back or stand a chance. We can not Anthea , we can not do this again ” he says and steps out ripping a towel off of the rail and storms out of the bathroom. All before I had even got up off of my knees.