Rejected, My Jaded Love
Episode 51

I am stunned and sit there open-mouthed looking at Asher. I cannot believe he just said that. He really is serious about me. He isn’t trying to play me. But can I trust that I will be it for him? I can’t answer yes, because, in reality, he has been here less than 10 minutes. He has not had time to show me any real changes or show me that it will only be me. This feels very similar to the kind of pressure that Eric keeps giving me. I need to get out of here. I just need to leave and have some time to myself to think some of this through. I can’t be sitting here right now. I am not ready to make this kind of decision and I am getting angry with him now for putting me on the spot.

“I don’t even know you, Asher. I cannot accept that right now. I have only spoken to you for the first time today. We don’t know even know each other we only know “of” each other. Like how you are suddenly willing to accept me now that I am in an attractive package, but you DIDN’T want me when I was plus-sized. Remember that? How you knew I was your mate 6 weeks ago, but you made NO move to try to meet, or get to know me, spend any time with me, and take another girl here when I smelled your scent on Friday and you literally ran away from me to go and get Ashley and bring her here. So, yea whatever, you might not have kissed her, but you didn’t stop her from kissing you and have probably been sleeping with her or a bunch of girls like her this whole six weeks. You brought HER with you when you KNEW I was your mate. Tell me, am I wrong Asher?” I could not stop my voice from rising up to where I know the people around us heard me, but I couldn’t stop myself from continuing, “So then YOU decide that I am the one, conveniently after you see me in my bathing suit, and are ready to enter into a relationship with me. Well Great! Awesome! Wonderful! You haven’t put one thought towards me other than to avoid me for 6 freaking weeks, all because I was plus-sized, well there are a whole lot of worse things than fat that I could be: Like a liar, a cheater, an a*****e, a slut, a murderer, the list goes on. So, what now? Am I just supposed to fall into your arms and let you sleep with me? Is that your plan, love me and leave me, well that isn’t happening either Asher, you disgust me, and I don’t want you coming around me any time soon. I find it amazing that you tell me as soon as you get here that I am not supposed to tell someone else I love them, and I am NOT supposed to let anyone else touch me when you have gone out of your way to do the opposite when you were the one who knew we were mates for the whole 6 weeks. Ashley had her hands all over you, but I can’t let someone hug or touch me. That is rich coming from YOU. We belong together”, I laugh, “what a f*****g joke”. I am breathing way too hard, and I know that I am about to burst into tears. I am so glad I backed my bike in when I got here because I have GOT to go, right now. I stand quickly and run to the door. I don’t even stop to put my helmet on and fire my bike up. I hold my helmet between my thighs and start pulling off. I get a mile down the street and stop long enough to put it on. I need some space and I need some time alone. I am freaking out and I hear my phone start pinging with texts, and then start ringing. I can’t stop. And I don’t want to talk to him. Maybe he can keep it in his pants for a month and I can see about speaking to him then, because right now. I just feel like he is making the same fool out of me as Eric did, and it really doesn’t feel good.

I sit there stunned. No one had ever spoken to me like that. Girls fall all over me, I don’t even have to try, and they were all ok with that. What the hell?

She RAN from me. I realize what she said, she knew, she knew that I have known that she was my mate for 6 weeks and that I left and didn’t come back. She knew I was not going to originally accept her. Only Mason and Braxton knew that I had a problem with her being fat, but they didn’t know that she was my mate. So how the hell did she figure it out? She knew I was her mate and that I took off for the SUV when I was coming here, and still knowing that she was my mate that I still brought Ashley here. I am not going to be able to talk my way out of this.

I look around the table and the anger I see on everyone’s face is enough for me to want to leave. I didn’t realize that she was aware of any of this, I was hoping that I would just get a pass on the fact that she didn’t know.

I hear low growling coming from everyone at the table.

“If anything happens to her, while she is driving upset, I WILL kill you. I should never have allowed Bree to tell you where we were. If she does get hurt, it will be because of my decision, because I wanted her to be happy, and she should be happy with her mate, but you fixed that didn’t you? You killed it with your bare hands. Her heart is broken now, and you did it”. The man sitting next to me says. It is the same one that she was hugging and telling him that she loved when I got here. He was visibly upset and looked at Mason and said, “We need to go look for her, she is way too upset to be driving her bike right now, please ask the waitress to put our order in a to-go box and bring them back to the house, I have to go look for her. I can’t stay here”. He gives me a hard look and gets up from his chair.

The man that was in the chair that was on the other side of Jade nods in agreement “One hair on her head, and you are a dead man. You are a complete a*s and not worthy of the Alpha Title”. He hands his black card to Mason and tells him, “Put all of our food orders on it” looks at Asher and says, “but not his”, and walks away with the first guy.

I see Dixon, that Travis guy and Braxton get up and look at me with disgust on their faces and call out “We are coming with you to look for her too” and walk away from the table.

“What have you done Asher? You did all of this to Jade, she has suffered at your hands too many times, I have never seen her this upset, even when those assholes at Howling Wolf did all that crap to her and she was rejected, she wasn’t that hurt” my cousin Nicole says to me.

“You had better pray they find her man. If she gets hurt, I don’t know if I can stay at Stone Moon and be your Beta. You have reached a new low. You were thinking with your p***s for months and apparently won’t stop until you have run our pack into the ground. You are almost 20 Asher, for the Goddess’s sake. I am ashamed that you did this, you really thought that she was going to fall into your arms, didn’t you? That was your plan, right? Swoop in, looking handsome, ask her to accept you? She told you to stop, but you kept pushing her. She was physically hurt yesterday, she was assaulted, and then you emotionally hurt her with Ashley. You had a choice and you made it. She asked you to stop, but you are the big, bad, Alpha, you know better than all of us, right? Mason says to me. He looks for our waitress and tells her to pack our 10 things to go, and motions to me and says, “He isn’t with us”. I am stunned, I don’t know what to say to him.

“I don’t know what to say to you Asher, wait yes I do. I had so much hope that you had actually changed, that you were going to do right by Jade. Especially after all that dad relayed to me last night. I honestly thought you had a shot, she asked you to stop, to give it time, but you probably can’t since we both know you like to have a new girl on your d**k each week. Can’t give her time to decide for herself? You just wanted to push. Don’t look shocked, I knew, I am not blind Asher, and I am certainly not deaf. I hear the girls at school talking. You get around. Tempe isn’t that far away Asher, you hit up girls everywhere you go. Yes, it is easy for you, it doesn’t mean you should always do it like that. You show up here, hadn’t even tried to talk to her EVER before, and you think the smooth move is to ask her to be your Luna? I know what you are doing, you don’t want to put in the work to get her, to prove to her that she means something to you. We were talking in our room about it last night and Jade said something that just made me sad. She mentioned that she had waited for her mate. That is a gift, but she is VERY aware that you DIDN’T wait for her. She said why did she wait all this time, for her first time ever with you, she could literally have an STD. I don’t know if she will ever accept you now. Dixon and I were excited to get her for a sister-in-love, but I think that you have ruined that for us. Just like you ruined her first-ever vacation, she had nothing her whole life and was stinking happy to be here, and you s**t on that too. I don’t know if we can pull her out of what you have done. You are a selfish and greedy man. I just hope that the guys find her first because if Eric and his goons do, she will never be the same again as most of those jerks want her. It will result in war, and all because you can’t apparently keep “little Asher” in your pants and be patient.