Seeking Within: Now
The Awakening

The Pathetic Hermetic

took an anesthetic

to numb his poor feelings for fun.

But while he was impaired,

the universe declared

his pathetic life

was now, indeed done:

I went to awaken

visibly shaken,

Now just a fly on a window.

Trapped inside

with nowhere to hide,

I wanna leave but I just can’t go.

Suddenly swatted by a hand

I quickly make my demands,

but instead become a seed in a silo.

Falling free one day,

I hope and I pray;

wanting to bloom, but I just can’t grow.

Now lost on the cold cement below.

As I lie there on the land,

wanting to expand,

but instead experience solitude firsthand.

The next thing I know

I’m a star in the cosmo

I wanna shine, but I just can’t glow.

Then all at once I implode

I’m just a spec in a black hole,

drifting on but I just can’t go.

Now trapped with this never-ending psycho.

Like a bad song on the radio,

I wanna rhyme, but I just can’t flow.

Then awake to find

my body and my mind

trapped inside my ego.

I’m just a thought inside my head.

I’d be better off dead,

keep asking why, but I just don’t know.

Now just a thought that won’t seem to go.

In the darkness it reminds,

that I’m not the mastermind

of all my dreams that are blind,

to all the things that bind,

to a universe combined,

with love and life entwined,

in a dance of Gods design.

I finally come back to see,

I’m just a distant memory,

in the emptiness of space and time,

I shift my paradigm,

hoping for another chance sometime.

Having nothing of my own.

Having reaped what I’ve sewn.

Having come to atone.

Achieving a new milestone.

I wanna live but I just can’t though...

Now just a name on a forgotten headstone.