Shackled (The Lord Series) by Carlos
285. Olivia - Reunion V

Don't be a fool, Olivia. Just because he knows the truth, it doesn't mean our love survived. There's so much pain between us. "You still belong to me, Olly. Can you feel how you tremble against me?"

"I'm cold," I reply.

His fingers slip beneath my shirt. "We both know that's not true. You belong to me. You've always been mine. And I'm yours."

I never had you.

Wanting to change the subject, I ask, "How did you find Mose and me?"

Something shifts in Tyson's eyes. "Sean and Leo told us."

My eyebrows shut up. "They did?"

"They needed some convincing." Oh, he tortured them. Good. I hope he made them suffer. "They revealed to us the location of the facility and told us Mose was there. We didn't know you were with him. We were on our way to save Mose when we encountered a few cars belonging to the Dukes. Good thing Alekos, Reyes, and Stefan came with us, or else we would be in serious trouble." I don't know who they are, but I don't interrupt Tyson. "We started shooting each other. I think you heard that; that's why you were hiding behind the cacti. That was stupid because you could have been seriously hurt. Actually, you should have never left the farm. What were you thinking?"

I lick my lips. "I had no choice. Rueben didn't want me there. Jason took me to the facility and it just so happened that Mose was also there."

His eyes flash red. "Rueben told me everything he told you before he kicked you out. It's not your fault your father is a sick bastard. But what does Jason have to do with this?"

"Jason won't stop until I...until he breaks me. He took me to the facility because...."

"Because that's where I was broken with the help of the drugs and took your virginity."

My shoulders tense. "Yes."

"Olivia, where's our son? Leo claimed Spencer is dead, but I don't believe it."

Blood rushes to my ears. My eyes fill with tears.

Spencer.

Thinking of his name is so painful, so I chose to call him my little boy with turquoise eyes.

"Can we talk about this when we get home?" I dare to ask.

Tyson has me rest my head on his shoulder. "I don't want to pressure you. When you feel ready."

I don't think I'll ever be ready to talk about Spencer, but Tyson deserves to know the truth. I promised myself that I'd answer any question he has if he ever asks me about Spencer. When they found me in the forest, and I realized how much Tyson hated me, I decided never to tell him about Spencer. It was Ansel who convinced me to let Tyson see the videos about our first time together and of me being pregnant with Spencer.

Ansel opens the driver's door. "Rueben is going with Reyes and his blood-brothers to the facility."

"I doubt they will find anything useful there. The doctors and nurses are dead, and Azael is gone. The experiments are safe," I say.

Ansel looks confused. "From the looks of it, you and Mose were together in the facility." I nod. "How did you get out?"

I don't want to talk about it. I just want to get some rest and take that warm bath Tyson promised me. "The experiments had planned an escape. Mose...he fought with Azael. I blew up his brains." I twitch my nose. "I'm sure the blood stains on my shirt are from Azael. I'm not even talking about Mose." I look out the window. Diva is sniffing Mose. She can tell something is different about him. "Can we go home?"

"Give me a moment as I tell Rueben and the others what you told me," says Ansel.

I nod and close my eyes.

"Sleep," Tyson whispers.

I don't want to sleep, but I'm so tired I fall asleep in seconds.

The sensation of being carried wakes me up. I look around scared, but I relax when I see that I'm in Tyson's office.

Tyson puts me on his sofa bed.

"Go back to sleep," he tells me, and I obey.

A nightmare wakes me up in the middle of the night. "Spencer," I sob and sit on the bed.

Tyson wakes up. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asks as he wraps his arms around me.

I shouldn't tell him anything, but I can't live with this pain that is eating me alive, day and night.

"Our Spencer was born two months early. He was so tiny, so perfect. I begged the doctor to save him, but my father wanted him dead. The doctor did nothing to help. Spencer died in my arms a few hours later." Tears stream down my cheeks. "I lost our baby. The pain is killing me."

"You did everything you could. Where's our son buried?"

"I don't know. Jason refused to tell me."

"Now I understand why you drugged yourself." Tyson sobs. "I failed you and our son. I am so fucking sorry."

"Make this pain stop," I beg.

"For you, I'll do anything. Even take away all your pain."

"I'd like that, but then you will be the one suffering. And I can't allow this to happen."

Tyson kisses my wet cheeks. "I hate what I did to you."

Me too. "Only for tonight, I'll let you comfort me. Tomorrow, you can go back to hating me."

We hold each other for a long time, until the crack of dawn. We don't talk about Spencer anymore, but we cry together until we run out of tears.

When Tyson speaks again, but about a different topic, I understand because I prefer not to remember how much it hurts to lose half of my heart. No matter how many years pass, nothing will fill the void in my soul. Does Tyson feel the same way? That he lost half of his heart, of his soul?

"I love you, Olly, with all my heart."

"You don't know what love is."

"I know what love is, but I don't know how to love. Until you. If you let me, if you give me one chance to prove to you that I'll never make you cry again."

I close my eyes. "What if I say no?"

"You know that I can't let you go. You are my bonded."

He knows about the bond as well. "You broke my heart. You thought I cheated on you."

"I always feared that one day you will realize you can do better than me." The only one I wanted was him. "You deserve someone better than me, but I need you, Olly." Talking to him made me realize that I need him too, but I don't think I can do this.

"It's too late for us," I whisper.

"You are wrong. I'll do whatever it takes for you to love me again," Tyson promises, and I believe him.

Let the Stockholm Syndrome begin. Maybe I already suffer from it.

We lie in bed. The raw pain between us gets us closer.

"Lie to me," I ask him. "Tell me that everything is going to be alright."

Tyson hovers over me and cups my cheek. "This is not a lie, but a promise: everything *is* going to be alright."

I nod, but I don't believe him. His promises mean nothing to me.

How I missed our conversations and how open we can be with each other.

His mouth finds mine, and we kiss. His fingers tug at the waistband of my pants. "I'm going to fuck you."

I don't want to be fucked by him. It will break me completely when he goes back to hating me.

A strange sound comes from outside.

I push him away. "Did you hear that?"

**Finally Olivia is back with the guys. What I want to say that each Lords group is different from the other and each woman has her own personality. If Olivia tends to bounce between strong and scared around the guys, do remember that trauma takes time to heal. Some tauma might never disappear, but that doesn't mean that Olivia is not going to bright light**

**PS Next update - in about half a day or so**