Shackled (The Lord Series) by Carlos
287. Olivia - Opening up II

That's why I keep taking the drugs Jason gives me because I want to forget ever loving Tyson. But then I'd have to forget about Spencer, but the memory of him is the only thing that kept me going all this time.

Trembling fingers caress my cheek. "I wanted to ask for your forgiveness even before the videos." Such a lair. "But then your father came here and ruined my plans.... I love you so much. Seeing how much I hurt you it's breaking me apart." Good. I hope his heart shatters in a million pieces, just like mine did.

"How convenient of you to love me now when you saw the truth. Whatever you feel, it's not love. It's a mirage, an illusion, the want of something that doesn't exist anymore."

I get out of bed. Tyson doesn't try to stop me. Instead, he says, "Little Rabbit, don't run away from me."

"I am not your Little Rabbit anymore. Don't call me that ever again. I am Olivia."

I go to the door.

"I don't know what's worse-not being on drugs and remembering everything or knowing that your feelings for me suddenly returned just because you saw men rape me and beat me for years while you got your dick wet without any remorse whatsoever."

"It wasn't like "

I don't wait for him to finish and leave his office.

The house is quiet, and I'm glad because I don't want to bump into any of the other guys until I clear my head. The things I said to Tyson... I'd be surprised if he doesn't kill me in the next minute or so. It would be a small mercy if he does. I go to the kitchen to drink a glass of water because all that talking left my throat dry when I hear the noise again. This time, I know I wasn't imagining it. I rush to open the backdoor.

"There you are,” I say. Moments later, I'm running through the house. "Jasper!" I'm pretty sure my screams will wake up everyone, but I'm too happy to care. Jasper doesn't want to see me. Maybe it was another lie. I shouldn't trust what Rueben tells me. "Jasper!"

Ansel gets out of his room. "Olivia, what's wrong?"

Tyson, Rueben, and Mose, with guns in their hands, also rush to the hallway, but when they realize what's happening, they chuckle.

"Nothing," I reply as I burst into Jasper's room.

Jasper is on the edge of the bed, his left leg in a cast, and he is trying to stand with the help of a crutch. His gaze lands on me. "Little Love." He sounds so relieved, which confirms that Rueben lied about Jasper as well. "What happened?"

He shakes his head. "A little accident." He doesn't blame me or my father-which I'm sure is behind Jasper's broken leg-and it makes me forgive him for abandoning me when he found out I couldn't have children. "Stupid leg," he mutters when he gets up, "preventing me from coming to you when you needed me."

The corner of my mouth twitches because Jasper is so funny about being upset about something he can't control. I finally show him why I was calling his name. "I just wanted to let you know that Miss Teacup is back." Jasper hobbles to where I am. "I missed you much," he says before bending his head and kissing me. His mouth is needy, and so is mine.

I missed him, too. "You don't seem that happy that Miss Teacup returned home."

Jasper pets Miss Teapot. "I'm glad that she's back safe and sound, but I was more worried about you." Between us, Miss Teacup starts to purr. "My woman is back. My cat is back. Mose is back. My life is perfect."

"Except for your leg," I tease him.

Jasper kisses me again. "What leg?"

Is it me, or are the guys acting differently? They are more... loving. Not Rueben, since he hates my guts, but the rest of them. Maybe returning to the farm wasn't such a bad idea. It's not that I wanted to leave Mose alone. That was a lie I told myself. I...missed Jasper and Ansel. Maybe Tyson too, but just a little bit. How awful to miss someone, but how beautiful to see they felt the same.

"I'll go take care of Miss Teacup. She looks like she needs a good meal. Are her things still in the kitchen?" I ask.

"Yes. How about I help?" Jasper wonders.

I zero my eyes on his bad leg before my gaze trails up. "How about you wait for me in bed?"

Jasper's eyes flash red. "Yes, ma'am."

That's not what I meant. If it means he's going to stay put, then I'll let him believe that when I crawl into his bed to take a nap since last night left me exausted, I'll actually jump on his dick and ride him like he's my personal stallion.

I stand on my tiptoes and press my lips to Jasper's cheek. "Good boy," I whisper against his skin. A groan leaves him. "I'll be quick," I say before stepping out of his room.

Mose and Ansel are waiting for me in the hallway. It stings that Tyson and Rueben have already returned to their usual routines. I get that I wasn't in any danger, but....

Get it together, Olivia. You want them far away from you, not fanning all over you like they are your fans.

After what I said to Tyson, I don't wonder he doesn't want to see me, but Rueben could at least have the decency to explay why he lied about Tyson and Jasper not wanting to see me. But to expect that of Rueben is like wishing that the sun would never set.

"Ansel, do you still have the wings the demons ripped from your back?" I ask.

Ansel frowns. "They could be in the car's trunk, but I didn't check."

"Can you go see? And if they are there, bring them to the kitchen," I say.

Ansel opens his mouth to argue but stops when he realizes I'm dead serious. "Fine," he mutters before leaving.

Which only leaves me with Mose. He quickly puts his hands in the air, his palms facing me. "Bath."

He wants to take a bath? "It seems you already took one."

"You."

Mose is not wrong. I do need a bath. "You need to learn to speak more words at a time." Maybe it was wrong to say that, but guessing what Mose is trying to say is not my favorite game. "No," Mose says before going to his room.

Stubborn demon.