Substitute for The Alpha King
Chapter 82: A meal together

Dinner is served and when Hannah gets out of her room she was surprised to see Shawn waiting for her at the dining table. she thought that she made her points clear the last time that they spoke in the living room, but then she didn't, Shawn had not given up on her, not after what they'd been through together. he was in love with her and has mated with her so why was he going to leave her for someone else who he has nothing to do with?

"What are you doing there?"

"Just like you, I am hungry and starving as well so I intend to eat dinner"

"Do you intend to eat dinner or do something to piss me off?"

"What's the problem, Hannah? you're acting as though we are enemies"

"We are not enemies, but then I want the best for you and maybe staying by your side may not be the best for you" you

"Shut your mouth that is not for you to decide"

"And is it for you to sit there and act as though everything is all right between us"

she was expecting to hear him say another thing when he burst into laughter for a moment before a sudden sadness overwhelmed him, consuming his soul and hugging him tightly that it wouldn't let go, that did not go unnoticed by Hannah and she quickly kept quiet taking slow steps towards him, she sat down across the table staring at him and wondering what has happened. she had thought she was the only one who was passing through and upheaval but it wasn't just her, Shawn was having his own moment as well, he was restless with everything that happened. "Why are you suddenly this quiet?"

"I just remember that one time that we fought those thugs"

when the memory flashed through her mind she smiled widely, but then the smile faded away from her face, she thought they were meant to be and he would always be with her but it seemed as though the moon goddess was toying with my emotions and making her not to ever be happy.

"Anytime I am this close to being happy and finally having the family I always desire, she always gives it away from my hand. I should have known this was not going to last and wouldn't have invested my whole heart falling into it only for it to be taken away from me" "Don't say that, you don't have to jump to conclusions"

"I don't know anymore" She ran her fingers through her hair. She would be lying if she said that she was not worried at all about their relationship and where it was going to end but then, she had to give it her best. "How are you feeling?"

"sad, happy at our time together, angry at myself, angry at the moon goddess, angry at my father, my mother, stepmother, step-sister, your parents, and your entire park, and even at you as well. I am confused about what to do. I want to stay by your side but then I don't want to deprive you of the one thing that you've always wanted which is why your identity was hidden the first time that we met"

"You're not the only one feeling that way, ever since I realized that I was an Alpha, I have always wanted to lead the people but then I only wanted to find my mate and be with her for the rest of my life, I have always dreamt of her being the mother of my children and giving birth to the next alpha of the Pack, but then, this thing right here is so confusing that I don't even know what to do, I Love You, Hannah"

"But you also love your back and have a duty to them which I cannot withhold you from getting"

"That doesn't mean that what we share is not something that I don't value, I can turn everything around and be with you"

And I shook her head she would not want him to lose the one thing that he always wanted and the reason why he had even hidden his identity for so long.

"You have always wanted to be an alpha, how could I still want to be with you? I don't know what is going to happen for us and what the future holds for us, but all I know is that I want you to always be happy no matter what happens and maybe this is good or bad, I don't really know, but then if anything is to happen to you and then you lose your right to be the Alpha I will not be happy at all with myself"

"What if I choose what I really want? what did I choose you because that is what I really want and nothing else"

She had a feeling he knew what he was talking about but then, she kept quiet about it.

"Let us just have dinner and end the discussion here"

"I don't think I want to end our discussion, we need to talk about ourselves otherwise there is no headway for us"

"What do you want me to say? do you want me to make a decision for you? do you want me to tell you to leave your pack and choose me? do you want me to tell you to abandon your pack or your family and everybody that you care about? I am not going to do that, I really love you, you are my mate, but then I want the best for you and That is what is getting in between us"

Standing up, she moved towards her and held her tightly, his hand circled around her waist and she smiled her hand resting on her on his smooth chest. they stared into each other's eyes for the moment before she broke away from him and walked back to her seat, picking up her napkin and savoring the mouth-watering dish.