Sweet Redemption: The Morningstar Series Book 3
Sweet Redemption Chapter 74

When I woke up I was alone in my bedroom in my new apartment. The apartment I shared with the ma of my head.

What happened Cais..? Selma asked softly.

The tears streamed down my face at the sound of her voice.

Selma.. I missed you so much. I told her as I realized how much I really did miss my wolf.

I missed you too. Where did I go? I feel like I've been asleep for 100 years. She said.

I have no idea.. I answered honestly.

I spent the next bit of time telling Selma everything that happened. She whined and whimpered here

it.

Where is our mate now? Selma asked after I finished telling her everything.

hates me. I stared at the ceiling for a while as everything that happened came crashing down on me. Tears filled my eyes and slowly rolled down the sides

d there. Her growls were loud when I told her what happened to Hayden. It was like she had been gone for longer than I thought and I never noticed. I didn't like

I rolled my eyes. Of course I would tell her all of that and the very first thing she would ask is about Bou. Though I couldn't help but wonder myself.

I don't know. I answered as more tears fell.

You'd think I'd run out of tears with how much I had been crying lately. Depression clung to my chest as realized that I woke up alone. Maybe being under that spell only made Bou realize he didn't want me.

That's not true. Selma said. I could hear everyone while you were alseep. I didn't know why you slept so long but I think your brain needed it. But I still heard everyone the whole time. She told me. I frowned.

What are you talking about Selma? I asked her.

We have been asleep for over four days. She told me.

My eyes went wide and I shot up in the bed.

What? How? I asked.

Selma huffed. I don't know. But I know that Belle has come to check on you every day. Ahkari and Sag hava come every day too. Everyone kept saying we were fine and just needed rest. Apparently a lot of it. Bou barely left us. Only when his sister comes over has he left us. He spent every night with us. Yesterday he begged you to wake up. I tried to wake you up but you couldn't hear me. She told me.

He....begged me to wake up? I asked.

Selma nodded. Our mate has been in pain over what he did.. Selma said softly.

I didn't know what to say to her.

But then...why isn't he here right now? I asked.

I do not know, but I feel that he is close and asleep. She told me.

I nodded to her and thought about what to do. Over four days I have been asleep. Maybe I should take a shower if that's the case. I probably smell terrible, I don't even want to check.

Getting up slowly I walked to the bathroom. I turned the shower on and inspected myself in the mirror as I waited for the water to warm up. I look terrible. Dark circles were under my eyes despite that I just slept for the last four days. My eyes were also red from crying and so was my nose. Apparently I've lost some weight because I look skinnier. My once volumous hair is now flat and dull. Same with my skin, it too is dull and missing it's normal glow. s**t, I really let myself go in such a short amount of time. The only good thing I saw in the mirror is the mark that wraps around my neck. I remember coming to look at it shortly after Bou made it. It's so beautiful and he was right, it looks like a choker necklace. My fingers skimmed across the initials and a small smile formed on my dry lips. I hope that Selma is right and that Bou still wants me. I miss him. Even after everything, spell or not, I miss him.

Sighing heavily I turned and got in the shower. The warm water soothed my sore body. Why am I even sore? I just spent the last four days in bed. Well, maybe that's why. I made my shower quick, mostly because I wanted to go find Bou. The anticipation to find out how he really feels about me is suffocating. If he still wants me..after all of this...my Gods I hope he still wants me. I'm not sure I could go on being with him if he really didn't want me. I miss his warmth, his hugs, his smile, his laugh. I miss his moans and his teasing and the way that had to always be touching me.

I washed my body and my hair quickly and turned the water off. Opening the shower door I reached out for a towel and wrapped it around my body. My emotions are all over the place. Too many 'what ifs' running through my head. I opened the door to the bedroom and let the steam roll out before taking a step into the room.

Then I felt him. My eyes snapped up to meet my favorite bright blue ones. There he is, just staring at me. Bou is looking rough, still unbelievably sexy though. His dark brown curls were sitting in a sexy mess on top of his head. He took in a deep inhale that had me squeezing my thighs together. s**t can he smell me? Bou has the same dark circles under his eyes that I do. His skin lost its glow as well and he looked like he hasn't shaved in days. Which is just adding to how sexy he looks. "Acaisia..." He breathed out as he took a step towards me. I could smell the alcohol on him and noticed that his eyes look glossy and blood shot.

"Bou.." I breathed out back to him.

He seemed to be rooted in his spot as he stared at me and I wasn't sure what to do. Does he want me to run into his arms? Does he want me to leave? Maybe he just wants to let everyone know that I'm awake first? Then he reached up, the back of his fingers gently brushing against my cheek.

"Please tell me I'm not dreaming." He whispered.

I stared into his eyes that seemed to be begging me that this was real.

"You aren't dreaming Bou." I said as I reached up and grabbed his hand. I pushed his palm to cup my face and leaned into his touch. "I'm awake." I said.

I barely had time to register what was happening when I felt Bou's soft lips against mine. His facial hair scratched my face as he pushed his lips against mine, and I loved it. Bou's strong arms snaked around me as he kissed me with as much desperation as I felt. Bou pulled me flush against him even though I'm still dripping wet. I didn't care though. I needed this, he needed this, we needed each other.

Bou's emotions flooded our bond and I felt his guilt for what he had said and done to me, his relief that I was awake and kissing him back. My arms reached up to hook around his neck. The towel fell to the floor completely forgotten. I pushed myself even more into Bou and he groaned into my mouth.

I licked his bottom lip but then he pulled away from me completely, leaving me to pout.

"Maybe we should talk first." He offered but his glowing eyes were betraying him.

"We can talk later." I said as I pulled him back down to kiss me.

This time when I licked Bou's bottom lip he opened his mouth for me. I slipped my tongue inside his mouth and moaned. f**k, I missed tasting him. He tastes so f*****g good, I can taste the alcohol but mostly just him. Bou tasted me back, his own moans mixing with mine.

I missed this.

I missed this too baby. Bou's voice floated through my head.

I didn't realize that I spoke through the link but I couldn't bring myself to care right now. Bou reached down to grip my a*s cheeks. He lifted me in the air and I wrapped my legs around him. Bou walked us to the bed and gently lay me down, never taking his lips from mine.

He broke away from my lips to start kissing down my body, his scratchy hair tickling my skin. Bou licked and sucked along the mark that wrapped around my neck. My heart and head were already feeling lighter. He wants me, all of me, I can feel it through the bond. I can feel his desperation for me, his longing.

Bou wrapped his lips around one of my n*****s and my back arched. It feels like it's been years since I've been touched. Sparks and tingles engulfed every inch of my body. The sensations were all so much, too much.

My mate continued to kiss down my body until he was nestled between my legs. Excitement coursed through me as Bou stared at my bare p***y. His eyes never stopped glowing and the lust he was pushing through the bond was almost enough to make me c*m. Bou slipped one finger inside of me slowly causing both of us to moan.

"Fuuuuck. I missed how wet you get for me baby." He told me as he started pumping his finger inside of me. "So f*****g tight." He whispered.

"Bou.." I moaned out when he added another finger.

"So f*****g amazing." He breathed out as he stared at my p***y while f*****g me with his fingers. "I missed you so much." He said.

"I m-missed yo-u too B-Bouuu!" I moaned out. "I'm so-oo cloo-se baby."

Bou pulled his fingers out of me and I whimpered. Just when I was about to ask him why he stopped I felt his tongue lick over my clit. His facial hair tickled my inner thighs. A loud moan fell from my lips and my fingers tangled in his curls. I missed his curls. I tugged on them harshly causing Bou to bite down on my clit.

That made me c*m, hard. I moaned out Bou's name as I came. He licked up everything I gave him like a starved man. I had barely finished my o****m when he started to kiss back up my body.

Wrapping my legs back around him I flipped us over so I was straddling him. I leaned down and pressed my lips against Bou's, tasting myself on him. I moaned into his mouth before kissing down his jaw.

I ripped the middle of Bou's T-shirt, exposing his bare chest to me. Kissing down to his mark I licked and sucked on it until my mate was moaning loudly. My fangs protruded before I realized it and I sat up straight right before I sank them into my mate. My face heated with embarrassment and I covered my mouth with my hand.

"Don't do that." Bou said as he reached up and gently pulled my hand from my mouth. "You can always feed from me baby. I'm yours. Always." He told me with a smile.

I stared into his eyes as his hand moved around the back of my head. Bou gently pulled me down to his bare body. My gums tingled with anticipation as my lips touched the soft skin of his neck. Then I bit down right under the mark on his neck. Bou gasped and moaned and when his blood filled my mouth I moaned with him.

My mate's blood is by far the best thing I've ever tasted. I don't know how long it's been since I've fed and I should have thought about that before biting into my mate's neck. Bou's pulse started to weaken and I tried to pull away.

Bou held my head to him. "Don't stop. I'm fine. You can heal me after." He told but I still tried to pull back. "Acaisia you havent fed in almost three weeks. Just feed from me." He begged.

Fine. If he wants me to feed from him so badly then I will. I bit down harsher on Bou's skin causing him to moan louder. Many emotions started to stir inside of me before I was lost in my bloodlust again. I felt myself starting to mark Bou but I couldn't bring myself to stop. By the time I regained myself it was too late.

I pulled away from Bou so fast that he didn't have time to stop me, not that he could with how weak I made him. A small gasp left my lips as I watched my mark form. Right inside of my canines that appeared tattooed in white on his tanned skin, was a perfect imprint of my lips. Like my canines this too appeared as a tattoo but in black ink. Those are for sure my lips though.

Bou reached his hand up to his neck and brushed the mark. Tingles spread through both our bodies causing me to shiver. Our bond strengthened but I wasn't sure how to interpret Bou's emotions.

"You marked me." He stated weakly.

"I'm so sorry Bou. I know you wanted to wait. I couldn't help it." I rushed out.

"Couldn't help it huh?" He asked with a weak smile.

He's teasing me.

"Well I tried to pull away but you wouldn't let me." I argued.

"So you marked me." He stated with a weak laugh.

I rolled my eyes. "You can be mad at me later. Right now you need to feed too. I remember the last time you fed and it wasn't enough." I said.

Guilt poured through the bond and I instantly felt bad. I didn't mean to make Bou feel bad or guilty. I just want him to feed and be safe and happy.

"I don't deserve to feed from you." He said.

I scoffed. "Shut up." I said before smashing my lips to his.

Bou was reluctant to feed from me at first. My fingers trailed down his chest between us until I made it to the waist band of his sweatpants. I trailed my fingers lightly across his skin right under the waist band. Bou groaned and finally gave in. He pulled on my life essence and I'm not sure how I was able to do this, but I pushed as much as I could to him. Bou tried to pull away but I refused to let him. Not until I felt his strength come back.

Once Bou got his strength back he flipped us back over so he was hovering between my legs. I used my feet to push his pants down and was thankful he didn't try to stop me. Bou slipped his hard thick c**k between my folds, coating himself in my juices. I moaned into his mouth as he continued to tease me. Then he lined himseld at my entrance and pulled away from my lips.

"I'm missing a mark." He told me.

"Huh?" I asked lamely in my l**t filled haze.

"Mark me." He demanded.

My p***y gushed at his demand.

"Y-you want me to mark you?" I asked.

"Yes. Make me yours completely." He said. "Say the words Acaisia. Say them." He ordered causing a shutter to rush through my body. "Do it or I won't f**k you." He threatened and I whimpered.

Looking into my mates glowing eyes I said the ancient words. Bou groaned as a mark appeared on his chest. A perfect shadow mark of Selma showed on the left side of his chest. It was about three, maybe four inches in length. I was shocked to see that it was in the shape of my wolf. How strange?

Before I could put more thought into it though, Bou shoved himself inside of me roughly. I gasped loudly as Bou's moan overpowered my groan. We are completely mated now. The bond is fully formed. I feel everything my mate feels. All of it.

Bou was not gentle as he thrust himself in and out of me in a frenzy. Our moans bounced of the walls and for the first time we didn't have to care about being quiet. Bou pulled out of me and flipped me on my stomach. He gripped my hips and pulled my a*s into the air before ramming back inside of me. I moaned loudly as he f****d me sensless. Bou grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled me back. I'm pretty sure I started to c*m minutes ago and it just never stopped. My limbs were like jello as I revelled in the feeling. "f**k I missed you so much. I missed this p***y. I missed how f*****g wet you get, how tight you are. I missed kissing you and touching you. I missed your smile and your atttitude. f**k Acaisia!" He told me.

Then he pulled me up so that my back was pressed to his front. My eyes rolled back. f**k I love this position.

"Tell me you missed me too." He ordered.

"I miss you so-oo m-much Bou!" I moaned out. "I missed everything about you baby. I-I missed your c**k so much." It took a lot to push out the words since I am still cumming.

"Did you now?" I could feel his smirk against my neck. "My c**k missed you too baby." He licked the side of my face making me shutter. "Tell me you want me." He demanded.

"I want you Bou." I didn't hesitate to respond.

"Tell me that you are mine." He ordered with desperation.

"I'm yours baby. I belong to you. Every part of me is yours." I said as his hand came around to play with my c**t. Oh s**t. "B-Bou.. I- Oh my Goddess.." I moaned out. How can he make an o****m more intense? How is that possible?

I felt his lips against my neck right under my ear.

"I love you so much Acaisia." He whispered to me. "Tell me you love me baby." He demanded. "Say it."

"I-1-1-" I was having trouble getting the words out as pure ecstasy rolled through me in waves. "I f*****g love you Bou! So much!" I screamed.

"f**k yeah you do baby." He said before kissing my cheek.

Bou thrusted into me a few more times before I felt his c**k grow and then spill his seed inside of me. After a few moments Bou stilled behind me. He rested his head on my shoulder and then chuckled.

"Baby you are squeezing me so tightly that I can't pull out." He told me, amusement clear in his voice.

"So don't." I said as I wiggled my a*s against him.

Bou groaned. "Baby I think we should talk about everything that happened." He said softly.

"We have the rest of our lives to talk." I whined.

Bou chuckled against my skin, sending vibrations through me since he's still inside of me.

"We have the rest of our lives to f**k." He argued. "I think we should talk." He said more seriously.

Reluctantly I forced myself to release him. Bou pulled out of me and I fell on the bed with a 'humph. I rolled over and pouted at Bou who just kept staring at me like he hasn't seen me in years. Like I am the most beautiful person he's ever seen before. "This isn't the part where you tell me that you meant everything that happened between us is it?" I asked.

Bou's eyes went wide. "No! Acaisia no, not at all!" He said. My mate took a deep breath and sat on the bed. He grabbed my hands and forced me to sit up. Then his eyes trailed down my naked body before returning to my eyes. "Maybe we should get dressed first." He said with a pained groan.

"But I like being naked." I argued.

Bou stood up, ignoring me, and went to our closet. He came back wearing a pair of gray sweatpants and holding a white T-shirt of his. Bou held out the shirt for me but I just raised my arms up like a child. He chuckled at me before putting the shirt over my head, then kissed my nose.

"There, better?" He asked.

I scoffed. "No." I pouted.

"Let's go downstairs and eat. Maybe that will make you feel better." He said as he grabbed my hands and pulled me to my feet.

I opened my mouth to argue but then my stomach growled. How long has it been since I've eaten? Bou gave me a sad look before pulling me down the stairs. He pushed me to sit on one of the stools as he rummaged through the fridge. Bou pulled out some left over spaghetti, plated it, then stuck it in our microwave. I took the time to look around our apartment. When we first got here I was too lost in my own head to really look at it. This place is beautiful.

After the microwave beeped Bou slid the plate in front of me then got me a glass of water.

"Thank you." I told him cheerfully. It was strange how my mood has changed drastically since waking up. Even before seeing Bou and then f*****g him, I was feeling lighter. Just before I was knocked out I wanted to die. The devastation that I was feeling was leaving me hollow or in agony. Now... Now I can feel the love Bou has for me. Now I am fully mated and nothing could bring down the mood I was in. Not even Bou's sad smile.

"Baby I am so sor-" He started but I placed my finger over his lips to stop him.

"Don't start apologizing Bou. We both made mistakes and I know you were under a spell." I said before shoveling spaghetti in my mouth.

Bou shook his head at me. "I know we both made mistakes Acaisia but the things I said to you... The way I treated you.." He trailed off, his voice full of sadness.

I rested my hand on his thigh. "I know you were under a spell Bou. You didn't mean any of it. Right?"

"No! Baby no!" Bou shouted as he grabbed my hand. "I didn't mean any of that. I know you thought that I would leave the apartment but I didn't. Every time I left you I wondered why I wasn't with you. Every time I was with you a blind rage would take over. It was like I couldn't control myself. My brain was foggy. I feel so terrible about the way I treated you." He said as his eyes bore into mine. "Acaisia I do not regret anything with you. Except the way I treated you while I was under that spell. But everything else.. Not in the slightest. Not you pushing me away, not all the work you made me go through, not being marked or marking you, nothing else. I would go through all of it again and again if I ended up with you. I love you baby. I'm completely in love with you. I know you can feel that now but I still feel awful." He told me. "You didn't eat, or sleep. or smile." Bou said touching my lips. "I missed you so much it hurt."

I swollowed my mouthful of food and Bou wiped the corner of my mouth for me.

"Bou." I started. "I love you too. I'm completely in love with you too and I hope you can feel that. I'm.. I'm sorry and slightly embarrassed about how far gone I was." I told him, looking away.

Bou put a finger under my chin and forced my eyes back to his.

"Don't be embarrassed my love. You were under a spell too." He told me.

That felt like a punch in the gut.

"I wasn't though." I admitted softly.

Bou gave me a sad look. "Ahkari said that but I didn't want to believe it." He said.

I shook my head slowly. "Apparently I was the only one not under a spell." I admitted further. "I'm sorry baby.." I trailed off unsure of what to say.

Bou was silent for a moment as he stared at me. "So it's true then... I really drove you to feeling." He trailed off and I could feel him spiraling through the bond.

"Hey." I said as I got to my feet and slipped my arms around his neck. "It's alright Bou. It wasn't your fault. I thought you hated me and you are my mate, that was bound to make me sad. But you didn't mean it. I know that now. I can feel it." I said as I placed a hand over his heart. "I can feel how much you love me. How much you regret what happened. All the guilt you feel. But it's okay now because now we have each other back. Now we are fully mated and Omen is dead." I said.

"Speaking of that.." Bou said with a slight smile. "We all thought you were going along with his plan. But you surprised us all." He said.

I shrugged like it was no big deal. "No matter how sad I was, I would never take my twin down with me. Besides it was clear Omen had no idea what he was doing. The power was getting to him. He would have died even if he sucked the power out of us. I just didn't want him to get that far." I said.

Bou circled his arms around my waist and mine, once again, wrapped around his neck. I pushed my fingers into his curls and rested my head to his. Bou squeezed me closer to him before spinning me around to face the counter.

"Now eat. You need it." He told me as he held me between his legs.

He didn't have to tell me twice.

Apparently I was very hungry, way more than I thought I was. After I finished all of the left over spaghetti, which was a lot, I had a turkey sandwhich, a full family sized bag of chips, and a bag of popcorn. I also drank four glasses of water, a glass of milk, and a soda. Once I was full Bou carried me up the steps back to our bedroom.

"Why are we going back to bed? I've been asleep long enough." I said as he lay me in our bed.

"Well, I haven't slept barely at all since you've been gone. I want to keep you close. And you are still tired." He said the last part after I yawned.

"Fine." I said in my usual bratty tone.

Bou chuckled and then crawled in bed next to me. I wrapped my arm around him, rested my head on his chest, and tucked my one leg between his. Bou wrapped his arms around me and he was asleep in seconds. It was so amazing to finally have him like this. Fully and completely.

I fell asleep with a smile on my face.