The Unwanted Luna
Chapter 55

I stand there looking at my sister. Unable to form a thought.

"You don't have a wolf" I repeated. "Since when?"

She continues looking down not returning my stare.

"Since I woke up after being rejected by Agron" she replies softly and if it wasn't for the fact that I had werewolf hearing I wouldn't even have heard her.

"That's Karma for you" Nolan grumbles next to me.

Damn, what he said was true though. I did tell Bianca that one day Karma was going to catch up with her and look at her today.

Not only was she rejected but she lost her wolf. It's like she's now in the same position as I was back then.

What makes me so angry and bitter towards Bianca is that she was my sister. I can try and ignore what Xavier did to me but not what Bianca did. She was my fucking sister and no matter what beef she had with me she crossed the line when she chose to slept with my fated mate. She wasn't even apologetic about. In fact she rubbed it in my face. I don't think that's anything anyone can move from. No matter what blood should be thicker than water but I guess Bianca missed that memo.

"So that's the reason you insisted on coming on this trip with me right?" the truth hits me. "You saw this a chance for you to get your wolf back"

Nolan leans against the trees with his hands folded across his chest. "Why the fuck am I not surprised?"

"No!" she screams. "It's not like that"

"Really? Then how is it? Because from where I am standing it all makes sense now" I asked her

I mean why else would she be adamant on coming knowing that this was probably going to be a dangerous trip?

"I wanted a chance to gain your forgiveness, a chance to prove that I am worth you love" she responds softly.

Honestly I don't think that I can ever trust anything that comes out of her mouth. Especially with this new development. How can anyone trust that she's even telling the truth?

"Why do you now care so much about my love Bianca? You had and you stomped on it over and over. If the situation was reversed and you were in my position with me sleeping with you mate over and over again, would you have forgiven me?" I asked.

I wanted to hear what her answer would be. Dying to hear if she was going to give me some bullshit response.

"I thought so" I say when she doesn't respond then I turn to Xavier.

"And you? What would have done if I had rejected you then proceeded to sleep with your brother? I asked him.

Just like with Bianca he doesn't answer. He casts his eyes down in shame. But shame and guilt mean nothing when the damage has already been done. Their actions were damaging. I mean it's been years and I still live with the scars of their betrayal.

It still hurts looking at them because I am pulled back to the past. I want to move on and I want to heal but how can I do when they keep pushing me. When they keep trying to manipulate me into forgiving them by using the; I'm your mate and I'm your sister card. They keep pulling out that card forgetting that they didn't much care for those label when they were hurting me.

"Both of you want me to forgive you, you keep pushing me to do that but you haven't done anything that is remotely enough to earn my forgiveness." I tell both of them.

At this point, if I am going to forgive them, I'll do it for me and for them. Onyx was right, I can't move forward if I keep holding on to the past. I need to let it go but letting it go doesn't mean that they have to be in my life. Without saying another word, I turn and continue walking. Bypassing the many dead bodies that are lying on the ground.

Cerberus goes on a head of me while Nolan walks beside me. He takes my hand and squeezes it.

"I'm proud of you Lia...for so long you held on to your pain, refusing to talk about it. I'm happy that you're finally letting them share in the burden of the pain they put you through" he says.

I squeeze his hand back and smile. I have to admit that it did feel good. Exposing my scars and showing them how badly they hurt me. There is no more running from the pain. No more trying to push it down and bury it.

I had to address it if I want a chance at happiness, peace and love.

"Thanks Nolan, for everything. You've always been my biggest supporter"

It's hard to imagine what my life would have been without him. He has done more for me in the past seven- eight years than the two behind me have done since I can remember.

"Anytime Lia...You know I have your back no matter what comes, that's a fucking promise you can count one"

We continue walking. Taking in the forest. There really wasn't much to see. Just a lot of gloom. It was also quiet. No birds, no animals scattering around. No insects. Absolutely nothing. It was as if the forest itself was dead or maybe it was just that animal instincts kept the animals away.

We had walked for about two hours or so and nightfall was beginning to roll in. I felt like we didn't manage to make any progress today. I was in a rush because we'll never know when Agron will attack again.

"We should make camp here...it's already dark and I don't think we can make it any further" Nolan says. Almost like he just read my thoughts. "Yeah" we all agree.

There was no way to travel through the dark forest. If I thought it looked menacingly during the day well during the night it was much worse.