The Unwanted Luna
Chapter 56

Xavier.

We make camp. Setting up the tents and lighting a fire. Everything that Amelia said weighed heavily on my heart. The raw pain I heard when she talked about what Bianca and I did to her tore me to pieces.

I always thought that I was a good person. That I was fair and just. That people could count on me and most people would say that I was a kind-hearted person. But listening to Amelia, I realized that I was the monster in her story. I was the villain in her world. "What did you expect? I tried warning you...Tried telling you to accept her but you never listened to me". Ace growls at me.

He continues. "You were an asshole to her. You are so egoistic to think that she should forgive you, as if it was your right simply because you share a bond. Stop reading the wrong and incomplete storyline, job nib.com has the correct and complete book. You keep throwing the mate bond in her face when you yourself choose to ignore it, putting your own selfish needs first instead of caring for the woman that needed you."

I want to cut him off. To pretend that I didn't hear him. That I didn't cause someone so much pain that just looking at me disgusted her but I can't. Maybe it's time I stopped pretending. Stop trying to brush off what I did under the rug as if I didn't hurt. "I know Ace"

"No, I don't think you get just how much you hurt. Sometimes I'm even disgusted by you when I think of all the damage you caused Amelia. Think of her, think of her pain, what you and Bianca did literally drove her to commit suicide just so she could put an end to the pain, an end to the bond that was decaying inside her, how will you ever make up for that?"

I don't get a chance to answer because he continues.

"You say you're sorry, you think that she should forgive you just because of the bond, because you are mates, but guess who suffered? Guess who was losing it and going crazy? Guess who had to bear the marks of betrayal? It wasn't you that's for sure, because while you were busy burying your dick in Bianca's pussy and getting off, Amelia was the one that had to suffer for your actions."

He was brutal with his punches, but what did I expect? Ace loved Amelia when I didn't. He stood by his mate, tried protecting her from me.

He releases what sounds like a sigh. "At this point, I won't even be mad if she doesn't take us back because you're honestly an idiot and Lia deserves better. She deserves a man that loved her from the beginning. A man that saw her worth right from the start. A man who isn't tainted by Bianca. A man like Nolan"

I frowned at that. "You don't mean that."

"I mean every single word. I would jump for joy seeing her with Nolan. Don't get me wrong, I will always love her and I do want her but after seeing how you're behaving, I'd prefer seeing her end up with Nolan instead of you...If you want to see how a man treats his woman, then watch how Nolan treats Lia. You can tell his love is pure, unlike your tainted one"

He doesn't give me a chance to respond because he slinks to the back of my mind and shuts me off. I stare at where Nolan and Amelia are seated. Amelia laughs out loud at something Nolan tells her. She is gripping his hand for balance so that she doesn't fall off the log. Jealousy burns inside me and I try to push it down. That should've been me. I should have been the one making her laugh and easing her worries. Instead, I messed everything up and now I'm no longer sure I have a chance with her. She's determined to get rid of the bond. Determined to put me in the past.

"We really screwed things up, didn't we?" Bianca asked, sitting down beside me.

Her eyes are also focused on the pair. I watch as they stare at each other. It's as if the whole world has faded and they're lost in each other. I see the sweet look Amelia gives Nolan and it causes my heart to constrict.

She used to look at me like that once, but not anymore. Right now, if she even looks at me, it feels like I've been blasted by icy air. There was no emotion in her eyes, no love, no affection. There's absolutely nothing and I have no one to blame because I am the one that killed her love for me. Fuck! I did kill her. "Yeah we did"

I manage to pull my eyes from them after seeing Amelia laying her head on Nolan's shoulders. He holds her as if she was a delicate flower, one that he is afraid of crashing. Have I ever held her like that? All she got from me were cold shoulders and threats. I even put my hands on her and almost choked that time she almost attacked Bianca.

"Who would have thought that the roles would be reserved? She warned us, do you remember? When she said that we would get our Karma...She was right", Bianca said softly, her voice thick with emotion.

"When I woke up and found out that Nolan had marked me, I thought that this would be my chance at happiness. It turned out I was wrong. He is in love with her and you see clearly that his feelings are reciprocated. Now we are the ones in the position she was back then. Wanting someone that doesn't want us" she finishes.

It guts me to hear her say that. I try swallowing the food that I was eating but it gets stuck in my throat. I didn't want to acknowledge the facts. What was clearly in front of me. I wanted to assume that it was just sex between them, but now that Bianca has pointed out the truth, I can't erase it from my mind.

What if I'm too late? There's so much to overcome if we were ever to work, but the question is, will she ever really forgive me? Will she ever look at me as her mate? Because I am now starting to realize that, despite having the bond, I am not worthy of her. I probably never was. Despite that, can I really give her up?