Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 106

He opened the door; I walked inside just looking around. it was a decent place, he wasn't wrong about that still looking around in the smaller two bedroom and kitchen, it was better then my last place even, I wonder how the hell they even found this on such a short notice. "Its great guys. Thanks!" I did a grin when they just made a smile like they knew that too smiling like the proud boys they were making me snicker when I walked around the empty place, now I just needed some furniture and I was set, to start a life.... Without Jonah... the last part made me lose my smile when I stopped in the kitchen. I didn't want to have a life with him. God. I had my hands over my face crying just feeling the absolute worst woman in the world, here Tom and Joseph had fixed somewhere for me and my baby to live and I was crying my eyes out because Jonah was not here. my heart being so f*****g stupid and not getting that he had told me that it was over. Forever this time.

"I'm sorry Andrea.... F**k I'm really sorry.... I know that you don't want to hear it, but maybe just give him time.... He really thought that you were having his kid and...." Tom stopped when I looked up and cried even more having his hand on my shoulder, why was he telling me that shit?? Jonah told me straight to my face that we were never getting back together, that if I didn't do the abortion, he was lost to me.

"Me too...." I said it destroyed when he looked even more sad and I did a deep breath trying to control myself, crying was not going to help me anymore. I had to start snap the f**k out of whatever came over me, I was alone in this in the end.

"For what it's worth... I know Jonah is sorry, he is not happy over this, but he loves you and he will be f*****g sorry the day you meet someone that deserve you better then he ever did....". Tom made a trying smile when I just nodded still wailing, yeah, that day was never going to happened, but he was nice for trying.

"Baboon, you are not making it any better! she still loves him, just look at her, what the fuck does it matter what Jonah feels? He can fucking burn in hell for all I care....." Joseph was whispering the last part but loud enough for the rest of us to hear it when I made a surprised face, was he still pissed off about Jonah calling him fat? I wished that was my problem.... I looked around the empty apartment. It was a really great place; I just didn't have anywhere to sleep.

"I'm just saying, he is going to be sorry because I am going to set you up Pretty, trust me I know some guys that would love to fuck you...." He stopped when I made a face that was disgusted, what the f**k was he talking about? Me f*****g some other guys he knew. I didn't want that; I was 34 almost and pregnant. I wanted f*****g stability, not hook-ups!

"Thanks Tom... but I think that me fucking anyone right now..." I stopped when Joseph was rolling his eyes like he couldn't believe just how stupid his friend was when he slapped him hard in the back of his head making me snicker from the loud grunt Tom did rubbing of his head pissed off giving Joseph the stink eye.

"Idiot, why would she want to fuck around? She doesn't want that, she wants food and foot rubs, oh and if she needs dick, I bet she doesn't need your help or those gorillas you hang around...." I smiled at Joseph, he was such a bitch and still he was the smartest one of them, making me love him even more. To bad he had the personality of a cactus.

"I want Jonah." I didn't even know I had said it before it was too late making them both go quiet and looking at each other awkwardly like they didn't know how to answer that. f**k.

"Yeah... we know Pretty.... but that's not going to happen.... I'm sorry...." Tom looked even more sad when I made a small sniffle from the sudden realisation that he was right, that was not going to happen.

"Alright... so, obviously you can't sleep here tonight so you are coming home to my place, my mom already knows, she is waiting for us." Tom got up when Joseph just made a small nod at my trembling lips, okay. So, I guess that was the best for now. Me spending the night over at Tom's parents place, until I had some furniture to go with the empty place.

I just followed them out from the apartment, Joseph locking up before handing them over to me, the keys and I stared at them, they felt so heavy and final. Like this was it. Me and Jonah was over. I was never going to be able to kiss him again, talk to him. Laugh with him, fuck him. It was over.

"Let's go pretty, I'm hungry and ma is having dinner ready..." Tom took my arm, dragging me along when I just had frozen up staring at the keys, following him into the elevator. Shit.

I was going to be a mom and I was going to be alone doing it.

"It's going to be okay Andrea. You still have us...." Joseph tried to smile, making me feel even worse, because when he was nice, I know that things really were bad.

My throat snaring up as I watched the doors slide into place, shit. I was really doing this.