Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 108

"That's right... that's f*****g right...." I stared at myself in the mirror in my apartment when I looked at the time, I was so going to f**k Phillip when I had gotten out my good underwear and pushed my boobs up even more in the maternity dress that I had bought yesterday making sure that my tits where right in everyone's face when I made a small grin seeing my red lips and heavily painted smoky eyes, this was me going out to getting f*****g laid and I was not stopping until I got it! my phone made a beep and I just stared at myself some more. I could do this. I could. I could f*****g get out there and find someone to f**k if Phillip was just doing this to be nice like his brother, no! this was f*****g war and I knew it! I was walking over to my hallway when the door was still closed and I opened it seeing Phillip having his phone up and he almost dropped it seeing me making me beam against him when his eyes was almost out from his sockets, yes! That's exactly the reaction I wanted from him, from any man out there, I was Andrea Wilson, and I was not someone bitch anymore! f**k him, f**k that f*****g fucker!" I beamed more when Phillip had brought me flowers and I made a chuckle seeing that it was roses... oh well that wasn't his fault when I put them down in a vase when he was looking around my apartment like he hadn't been one of the people helping me move my shit in here. He was adorable.

"Turned out really great in here... "he made a spin trying not to look at me when I just did a huff and laughed. Yeah, it was great. I was so f*****g thankful for his brother and Joseph helping me out, I would never ever be able to repay that. "Yeah.... I really like it in here...." I made a trying smile that he replied when I walked over and just did it, I kissed him right on his mouth not caring over that it was stupid or childish, I wanted to feel that I was not the only one still waiting for him, Jonah was history from now on!

"Oh.... Pretty... I didn't see that coming..." He made a smirk when we parted and I smirked back when my lipstick was on his mouth, maybe he should just leave it there, since I was going to kiss him again and more if he wanted me to.

"Yeah... well why not just give it a shot like you said, I don't mind this if you don't?" he made a secret smile like he didn't mind it either when I was still having my arms around his waist, my huge belly keeping us apart when he made a grin kissing me again and I leaned back closing my eyes, he tasted good, like a soft peppermint... I pulled back when he smiled more, he was so handsome and big like Tom, he just wasn't a gym rat and I didn't care about that part, he looked great with his styled hair and fashion sense, like he had his shit together, I needed that more than fucking ever.

"I don't...." he made another smile when we fixed the last part of our looks, I was happy with myself. I was. I knew that I looked like a house but f**k it, I was pregnant, and I was still hot! Phillips smile and the way he looked at me was giving me the confidence that I fucking needed. Jonah who?? I made another smile into the mirror when Phillip wasn't looking helping me getting my coat on, he really was a gentleman wasn't he?

"So, what's the event then?" he had helped me into his car and just made a proud smile when he rolled over the speed bump making me regret eating the cheese that I had carved before getting ready, it was not working with getting shaken like milkshake...oh god I would kill for a milkshake right now... f**k... Phillip was still talking when I realised that I had trailed off when I just looked back happy, whatever he said, I was sure that it was fine. I was going to have fun seeing that this was probably going to be the last time before my kid was born, and all that came along with that.

"Here we are." He chuckled when he rolled in, and I stared at the lighted up mansion that made me want to puke my guts out. No. no. no.

He was fucking kidding me, wasn't he?? I stared back in panic when he was already out of the car. I took a deep breath. This was Jonah's place. Or his parents. Nope! I was going to tell Phillip to just take me back, no f*****g way that I was seeing Jonah and his whore, or worse, Fiona! "Phillip.... Listen...." I was just about to start saying that he was going to take me back home when I looked at the valet that was already in the car like he couldn't wait to get me out and Phillip had pulled me out into his arms. Shit! He was really strong, wasn't he? I was still looking up in shock being cosy against the broad chest when he made a chuckle and I was leaning back, oh I was so going to f**k him, look at that! he could probably lift anything, and he wasn't even buff like Tom!

"I know were we are, so lets go make that bastard jealous wont we?" he made a smirk when I broke out into a big smile, wow he was fucking perfect! he like me but he got that I wanted to fucking destroy Jonah if I could when I just made a small nod and a satisfied smile, this was going to be better then I ever had expected this night to turn out to be.

"Fuck yes." He made another smirk giving me his arm when we walked up the small distance the same fucking courtyard where I had been dragged over, wanting to kill myself and now I was back as a guest, someone that didn't have a gag in her mouth being pulled away from her crazy drug addict of a f*****g cheater that I never was going to forgive until the day I f*****g died!

"We are just going to do a turn and then we can do whatever you want, stay here and mess with Jonah or just go back home and fuck..." I made a deep breath when he said that. fuck that was hot! I had the worst taste in guys, didn't I? but they sure as hell made me feel alive!

"let's just see what happens shall we....." I made a purring sound when he pulled me closer and kissed me when I slapped my arms around his neck not giving a shit that people were staring when we kissed, hey it was still classy being no tongue when we finally pulled apart and I smiled stupid at his handsome face, darker eyes just like Tom, he was gorgeous.

"I know what I want to happen Pretty... no doubt about that..." He made a snicker when I rolled my eyes over the obvious statement and just let him go, feeling his arm around my waist or what was supposed to be that pulling me closer so that we really looked like a couple, best first f*****g date ever!

He walked around and talked to people that had seen us and I made some nods and smiles listening to people asking me about my belly and how long it was until I was due making Phillip just stay quiet and smiling when I gritted my teeth when more then one woman was touching my belly like that was okay, it was not!

"Phillip, good to see you my boy.... and your lovely lady...." I turned around smiling when it dropped seeing that it was Jonah's father, he looked happy too when he shook Phillips hand like he didn't recognise me, I know he f*****g did. He was staring at me for two seconds like he hadn't expect me to ever see me again, well here I fucking was!

"Jack! thanks for the invitation, oh and this is Andrea, or we call her Pretty as you can see why..." Phillip made a smirk that Jonah's father replied like he got it making me frown, he was not f*****g calling me that!

I was pushing myself harder against Phillip that still hadn't let me go and I was grateful for that seeing that I was alone in hostile territory if he had done that.

"Yes..... I met Andrea before.... When she was Jonah's girlfriend...." He made an accusing face that I didn't understand when the anger was growing inside me, making me grit my teeth and my eyes going dark. Yeah, I was and now he was getting fucking married because him and that fucking bitch of a mother made him!

"Yes, I know she was, and now she is mine. Jonah was never smart enough for his own good, letting go off her..." I made a beaming smile at Phillip, he was defending me and right now I didn't care if he called me his girlfriend or not when this was our first date, he was f*****g amazing!

Jonah's father just made a sigh when he switched his eyes to me and I was even more confused when he looked sad, like he really was sorry that me and Jonah was broken up, why? He had only met me once, for like thirty minutes??

"Yeah.... I guess he is... takes after his mother too much, stubborn as the devil, never know when to stop..." he looked at me again making me feel bad standing here with Phillip, like I was the one that was cheating on Jonah when we were not even together anymore, and he was getting married.

"Just one thing, that's not Jonah's baby is it, Andrea?" my eyes dilated in shock over the direct question, didn't he know? Didn't Jonah tell him anything?? I still hadn't made a sound when Phillip was the first to answer, seeing that I was stunned over what he just said to me still looking like he was expecting me to say yes.

"I don't see what that makes any difference? Jonah is clearly not taking responsibility for the child, and he is getting married." I made a hurt sound that I couldn't stop making the men's eyes switch between themselves and then me, oh f**k.... "No... no Mr Sullivan, she is not his...." I made another hurt sound still blinking when Philip held me tighter comforting me and I was feeling the baby move, like she could hear that we were talking about her, and she was not Jonah's child. He looked like he didn't believe me when I made a batting of my eyes trying not to start to cry, why wouldn't he believe me? I was just a common gold digger, a whore that had sneered his young son with my huge tits, just like his wife said.

"Jack, I'm sorry but had I known that this was just an interrogation I would never have accepted your invitation tonight." Phillip was fucking twenty-four and he just defended my honour like a true gentleman, I didn't know if I should kiss him or marry him for not letting Jonah's father continue this crap against me.

"I'm sorry Andrea, I just want to know that's all, Jonah is my only son and child, and I would hate to see if I missed out on something just because he is a stubborn arse and my wife not seeing that he loves you." I made a gasp again seeing the older mans pleading eyes when he looked at me, did he want me to be with Jonah? What the hell was happening here??

"I'm sorry.... I'm so sorry Mr Sullivan, but it's not Jonah's baby.... I'm not lying about that part...." My cheeks burning knowing that he was going to think that I had been with every guy I could find, just like his son did and that's how I got pregnant.... not that son of bitch.... Fuck well I didn't want to think about that shit anymore, I just didn't!

"that's okay, I was just wondering sweetheart..." He stopped when I blinked, he really wanted me and Jonah together and I didn't get that, wasn't he like this bigshot that had all these suits around him? I hadn't missed that part seeing that I been locked away in here, I bet nobody of the other guest had that pleasure.

"Okay, thank you for the invitation, Jack. tell my best to Fiona, but me and Andrea are going home." Phillip was looking more tense now when thing got serious, I bet he hadn't expected Jonah's father to go all emotional on us, believe me. neither had I. "I will, Godspeed." He made another smile when he just turned and I saw the suits moving along him, he really was the bigshot around here wasn't he?

"I'm sorry, I really didn't know that Jack was going to put you against the wall like that." he did a forgiving smile like he was the one to blame and truth be told. I wasn't mad, not even a little. Just verry surprised over that Jonah's father seemed to want his son to be happy, like he could talk when his nasty wife wasn't around.

"Oh.... Shit.... Its fine... its fine Phil...." I did a small cough when he smiled more, he was charming and handsome, what the hell was he doing in here with me of all people?

I kept staring at him when he took my arm in his and started to walk with me towards the exit, the big grand fucking entrance when I saw him and I hated that I made a small flinch, like the sight of his being just made me stop. Always did.

He was standing right in the middle of the room, laughing, having a suit on that was black and his hair was all made, he looked like a fucking supermodel. I swear to God that he could sell anything, just anything already having the people around him eating out his hand, and he wasn't even that kind of a nice guy, not even outwards, still. He was f*****g marvellous to stare at.

"You want to say hi or what?" Phillips eyes made its way to Jonah when I just snapped my head towards his calm face, was he f*****g serious?? No! he had told me to stay the f**k away! One thing I did know about Jonah was that he was no bullshit when he told you something, if he wanted me to stay the hell away, he told me. He was an a*****e like that.

"Yeah... no.... Just take me home Phil, I'm sorry but I don't think me, and you are going to work out..." I made a small sad smile that he just replied like he knew that too, I mean how couldn't he see it, how I still was staring at Jonah. No matter what had happened. I still loved him. F**k.

"It's okay Pretty... I don't think I can compete with whatever the hell you two got... but hey.... We can still fuck if you feel like it, Ma doesn't even need to know, could be our secret..." he made a chuckle when I snorted, a secret from Mary? Was that even possible? The woman was a damn bloodhound, she knew shit and she kept her cool, she was the mother I wished I had growing up.

"Good luck with that..." he made another smirk when he still was holding me close and kissed me fast on my mouth that I answered, it was nothing, innocent but it felt nice.

"Alright pretty... let's get you home then...." He made another smirk when I nodded, yeah that sounded great, the small heels where fucking killing me and my bra was chafing, the dress making me sweat like a damn pig in the crowded party. I bet I looked exactly how uncomfortable I was feeling in the getup when we started to walk again towards the exit.

I kept my eyes on the sky instead of turning to the side, holding my breath when I passed them. The happy couple.

I hadn't missed her, glued to his side making a small sneer when she saw me when I turned my eyes for one second and regretting it instantly seeing that he could have been staring right through me, I was nothing in his world and that made me feel even worse when I leaned more on Phillips arm feeling sick, this was the worst night of my life.

"You okay?" I nodded just making a small, faded smile when we finally were outside. I took a deep breath like it was supposed to cleanse me from Jonah when I knew the truth. Nothing would. Ever.

"Andrea.... You sure you're okay? You look kind of pale...." Phillip was staring at me like he really was worried when I just made a shrug, I was fine. The only thing inside me that was broken was my heart and he couldn't fix that, nobody could.

"I can take you to the hospital if you like, I mean ma would kill me if I just let you get back home and didn't know what happened to you..." He made another face of pain like he really didn't want that to happen. He was a grown man, afraid of his mother. Well, I guess him and Jonah did have something in common then.

"What? No... no I'm fine.... I just need to get home and put my feet up that's all..." I made a trying smile that he really didn't buy when I was just standing there and he nodded towards the car that had been delivered, helping me inside and I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath again. I was fine. I was fine. This was not the end of my life. You are fine Andrea; do you fucking hear me?!

I was screaming inside my head when the door opened on the other side and I made a smile looking at Phillip that didn't look half as cocky as he did before, well I had that effect on people, making them f*****g miserable.

He helped me up and we kissed one more time before he left, just because he could and I made a smirk. I guess that if he didn't find a girl, that we could fuck, God knows that I was never going to find anyone when I closed the door and walked back inside my apartment slowly, holding onto my belly and just grabbing anything I could find from the kitchen sinking down on my bed and pushing open my laptop, propped up with pillows and my feet up, this is what I called a f*****g good night these days.

my feet's where two times bigger wearing heels, fuck I was so stupid. What the fuck did I believe? That Jonah was just going to magically change his mind, get jealous and just throw that bitch away for me? I made a sniffle pausing the movie, no. he had made his choice and that was not me.

Fuck that still hurt.

Soo fucking much.