Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 124

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I was tippytoeing out from Kira's room and made a big sigh again, she had been impossible to get to bed, to excited over what had happened, and it didn't help when I could hear the shouting match between Buck and his son for at least ten minutes before cars I rubbed my face going out to the kitchen to start cleaning up seeing Buck that was sitting there, he was shirtless, and the kitchen was clean. holy f**k! Did he do all this!?

"Hey baby....is the princess asleep?" he sounded tired too when I made a nod and walked over, sitting myself in his lap and my arm around his neck leaning at his shoulder, I was dead tired of what had happened today and I was so happy Buck had cleaned up, he was the best.

"Yeah.... But not until I had read the same story three times, got her one cup of water and sing her half an opera..." I made a smile when he was grinning and I knew that I was so glad he got it when I felt his arms around me and I looked up into his face making me happy, how did I get so lucky having him in my life again?

"Yeah, I heard it, you are a great singer baby..." he made another grin when I did a smirk at that, no I wasn't and he knew it, I sounded awful, but Kira didn't care, so then I didn't either.

"So... what happened when we left? I hope you weren't too hard on him; he isn't that used to having kids around and..." I stopped when Buck gave me a stare that meant that he didn't want to hear it and I got quiet, I just wanted him to get along with his son, that was all.

"Andrea, just... just stay out of that... please... you did great today and I love that you care, but me and Mitch... well he was having an attitude even before you showed up into our life..." he stopped and I just nodded, alright. That was it then, I wasn't going to step in and try to meddle, nope. All his problem.

"Don't look at me like that.... shit... I don't want to tell you, okay? why he is so f*****g pissed at me that he can't even act in front of Kira..." my heart clenched when he said that because he really looked guilty and like he was ashamed, what had he done anyway?? "Alright Buck... you don't have to tell me baby..." I had my hand on his face stroking it, I didn't want to tell him everything either and if he didn't want me to know than I would accept that.

He made a deep sigh, pulling me closer, resting on his big legs feeling his hot skin when he was shirtless and looking me in the eyes trying to man up and tell me what was so bad.

"I cheated, a lot when I still was married to Sarah.... I mean it.... I f****d half this town and then some...." He stopped when my eyes showed him just what I felt about that, he knew that I had left Ryan for cheating on me, and now he was telling me that he had f****d around, and half the fucking town!?

"You what??" I hated that I was getting upset when I got up from his lap and he didn't stop me when I paced the kitchen fast, just a few steps back and forth staring at him, scowling, he was a fucking cheater and he just told me this now??

"Yeah, I did it. Andy, please it's not like I'm fucking proud of it, I just didn't love her anymore! we got married straight out of college and had Mitch after that, like I said... I'm not proud of it and I saw how you looked when you told me that you had a ex that had cheated on you, I was f*****g scared! I was in-love with you, and you told me that you hated cheaters??" he stopped when I did too, looking at him. He was pleading me, desperately when I had my arms crossed and closed my eyes, I just didn't know what to feel about that shit.

"Buck... please... just give me a fucking second here...." I was having my hand over my eyes, leaning on the counter and just breathing, I was such an idiot. I mean come on, Buck was hot, and he was all that man that women wanted, of course he cheated on his wife, I saw how women in the store stared at him, he was a hot piece of a*s for any woman my age and then some.... F**k!

"I did a lot of stupid shit when I was younger, but I have changed.... I divorced Sarah and made sure that my kids were taken care of instead of just being fucking bitter over wasting my time on a woman that didn't love me back either, not after we had Mitch, we just didn't..." he stopped when I looked up and saw his big broken-down body, scared shitless I was telling him that it was over, believe me I was f*****g tempted as it was right now.

"Ryan, my ex-husband, he fucked my best friend, and he married the girl he was cheating on me with, and my parents took his side in our break-up." I looked at him, waiting to see what he felt about that when he made a sigh and just nodded like he got it, why I was so mad. cheating had taken everything from me, everything. Not just my husband, my parents, my best friend, my home. And all lead to Jonah... oh god... I wanted to start crying seeing him in my head, that fucking bastard, fucking marrying homeland and leaving me and Kira, I still hated him for that...

"Yeah, I wish I could say that I want to kill him... but I got to be honest here babe, I am the same kind of guy, just that I am madly in love with you and have been since I saw you..." he stopped talking making me look up again, my tears falling down on the kitchen floor and my heart made a skip hearing him say that, he really did love me didn't he?

"I just can't take any more of that shit Buck, so if you want to f**k other women then just tell me right now and let's break this off before..." I didn't get any further when he was up and I stared up at his sad face when he was wrapping his strong arms around me, making me feel so much better not even knowing how it happened.

"I cheated on Sarah because I was a coward and just didn't tell her that we should have broken up instead of having two more kids... but... shit I do love my kids Andrea..." he made a trying smile that I responded to the slightest, yeah, he did and I loved that part about him, even if he was too harsh sometimes..... He was a good dad.

"Buck.... Just don't fucking cheat on me, alright? That's all I'm asking... anything else I can take but if you fuck another girl, it's over and I don't care how fucking sorry you are going to be..." he dropped his grin when I was serious, I had enough off that shit for a lifetime.

"Why the hell would I cheat? I have a hot soon-to-be wife that has awesome tits and the best personality, that makes me laugh and crawl on my fucking knees before her..." he was grinning in the end when I started to laugh at his way of just saying that. he was the best, always made me laugh.

"Don't forget sexy as hell, smart and amazing...." I leaned up and kissed him, trying to let go of what he had told me, he wasn't that guy anymore, he was better, had changed his ways and that was more than what I ever could say about Jonah. "Great ass...." He was mumbling the last part into my skin that was burning against his and pushed closer, feeling myself being lifted onto the same counter I was leaning on and made as smirk seeing his hungry eyes.

I moaned feeling those lips I loved working my neck and down onto my boobs, standing in-between my legs with just his jeans on and scratching his bare back the slightest from the small nips in my neck that made me so f*****g wet.

"Buck.... Oh yes... right there..." my voice being croaked feeling his hot breath coming up again when I knew that he was just waiting on me to say it, it was like our thing these days, me telling him to fuck me when I was looking at him feeling my thighs burning up, having him leaning down onto my core pushing me against the bench, it wasn't even that hard, but f**k did it turn me on.

"Fuck me Buck, fuck me hard." I said it smirking when his hands where over my tits, untying the wrap dress, leaving me bare against him when he unhinged my bra in the back fast when I was undoing his belt effective, seeing that thick cock that was waiting on me when I took it in my hand, making him groan when I took a couple of slow strokes over the hard d**k with bulging veins, his d**k was just as amazing as he was.

"I love when you say that, every time... fuck..." he was grinning again when I was still holding his dick when he pushed my legs more apart, taking my panties off, me helping him with my free hand and touching him with my other one before he stopped me and I looked up at him smiling, leaning back onto the kitchen counter, having him pull me closer by my hips and feeling that full length that slammed into me, fuck I love that! my body going in shock mode when he was holding my hips, thrusting hard and slow before picking up the pace when I was holding my boobs from shaking so much of Buck giving me that d**k hard and good like he always did.

I was almost coming when I saw it, the shadow of a guy standing in the window out to the backyard when Buck was still ramming me hard and I tapped his arm panicking making him frown when I nodded stressed at the door, someone was fucking there, I saw it! "Buck, someone is fucking watching us!" I was pushing him back hard when his face changed from sweet and confused to this hard angry man you wouldn't want to f*****g meet in a dark alley when I was panting hard, getting the wrap dress around me again and seeing Buck get his zipper back up and held his hand up to tell me to stay, going outside into the dark garden where I knew that I saw someone standing, watching us like some goddamn fucking porno!

I was still standing there when I saw him come back inside shaking his head like he didn't find anyone and I looked at him terrified, no! I f*****g saw someone and I knew it! My hand rubbing over my face, was I f*****g going crazy?? maybe I was, after all the shit that had happened, who the f**k would blame me??

"Calm down baby... calm down... must have been a shadow or something... I promise, I didn't see anyone... if I had then that fucker would have wished I call the police on him..." Buck made a reassuring smile when he was holding out his arms and I walked into them, not even thinking about it, still holding my arms around me. the dress wrapped tightly around my naked body, I felt so fucking bad, the hard nausea hitting me with all the feelings that was coming back with the dark emotions of someone standing in the dark just watching, waiting on me.

"Buck I'm scared...." I said it whimpering not knowing what to do more then just stand there, having his arms around me, protecting me from the rest of the world, I was fucking terrified after what had happened to me and Kira.

Kira!

I was already pushing him back, running towards her door when he was on my heels like he had gotten why I was going like a bat out of hell and ripped the door open only to see the small girl, having her favourite blanket and teddy that she always had when she was sleeping along with the soft sound of a tune on a playbox that still was going. Oh, thank God!

"Andrea babe... please... what's wrong?!" I had Buck behind me when I was crying still not looking away from Kira, If I lost her, then my world was gone, I was never going to let that happened.

"I'm sorry Buck... I'm sorry... I'm a mess..." I was still crying when he walked past me and closed her door softly before taking my hand, leading me back to my bedroom that was just across the hallway and I collapsed into his arms when I was still crying, this time it was louder, my whole body shaking, my first thought had been James, that he finally was here to finish us off, fucking kill me and Kira!

"Whatever it is.... Whatever just tell me baby, I swear that I wont give you a hard time, you heard me, I done some bad shit too... you and Kira are my family now Andrea, and if you don't tell me then I don't know how I am going to protect you..." he was telling it to me when I was still sniffling, he was right, I should just tell him, why was it so fucking hard to just tell him?!

"I know Buck.... I just.... I don't know how to tell you..." I was still crying when his body was hugging mine hard, I loved him so much and still when I was supposed to tell him, like I had tried so many times, I just choked.

"Then don't tell me everything, tell me one thing... that's all Andy, one thing. That's all..." he was kissing my face when I still was snivelling, my eyes red and baggy from crying, he was so wonderful, would he even want me if I told him, everything?

"James. He was my friend... my best one... he wanted to f**k me and I ... I said no... and he did something bad... really bad..." I stopped. My mouth felt sticky and my nose snotty when I felt Bucks body going tense, whatever was going on inside his head it was so much worse in reality, so much worse...

"He tried to burn his house down Buck, with me and Kira inside of it when she was just a month old, he just f*****g snapped and tried to choke me out and when I locked myself inside, he was going to burn us to the ground!" I was shrieking the last part into his chest, clutching my nails into his arm when he still hadn't said anything just got more tense making me start to cry again, I was so fucking scared of James, I really was and I didn't even want to think about what happened that night. I was still in fucking shock when I left everything and ran.

"I fucking left that night, everything and everyone, never looked back and I don't want to go back there, ever again..." I was exhausted when I felt his hand on my back, stroking me gently when I looked up at his face that was dark, yeah it was that bad, so f*****g bad. "I'm telling Sophia that she is taking Kira and then I am taking you to the range Andrea, if that fucker is back, then we are going to take him out." He said it like a command when I made a whimper and nodded, whatever it took, whatever it f*****g took to keep Kira safe, I would do it.

"Yes Buck..." I said it still feeling the hard nausea and clutching inside my chest, it wasn't just James that had driven me away, but it was all I could tell him right now... and if he was back... f**k.... I wanted to go out there and kill him for what he had done to me and Kira!

"I'm staying... I promise Andrea.... I won't let that fucker come for you and Kira; he is going to regret ever taking his sorry ass to my town." He said it hissing when I nodded and sank deeper into his chest, yes... I wanted him to stay... forever, I never wanted him to leave me ever again.

"Buck, just.... just come and stay here... give up that fucking rental and live here ... please, we are getting married anyway and I want you here with me and Kira..." I was begging him when he looked up surprised at me, the hardness in his eyes not completely gone but he made a happier smile when I knew that he wanted that too, I mean it was the natural step anyway, was he supposed to live in his apartment when we got married? That was just stupid.

"Are you sure? I still have the kids over sometimes and..." he stopped when I kissed him, making him shut up. I didn't care about that, let him and his grown-up kids all live here in my small house. I didn't care, I just wanted him and make sure that James wasn't out there just waiting on me.

"Alright.... Giving up the rental then.... Shit....... I love you so much Andrea and......I want to show the whole damn world that you are mine..." he made another grin when I nodded, yeah. I wanted that too, I wanted to be his, now, forever. It didn't matter, I loved him. "I love you too Buck, I want to be yours, more then you know..." he made a big grin hearing that when he was holding me gently, swaying back and forth making me feel even sleepier when I had started to calm down, Buck was here and he loved me, James was never getting to me and Kira, over his dead body.