Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 136

"Buck, did you board up all the windows??" I was yelling it, looking at the ominous horizon on the porch having Kira behind me holding my legs and was in a bad mood that she wasn't allowed to go outside and when Buck had said no she really got mad but she

didn't scream or throw a fit making me love him even more, thank f*****g god for that man.

the news had been talking about this big storm named Loraine and I was worried. I mean really worried. I been living here for almost three years so sure I seen storms before, but this was a big one, a big one that made me want to leave but Buck had told me, reassured me that this was normal, that fall was coming and the storms along with them.

I was holding my cardigan around my body, it wasn't even that cold, I just needed the comfort that I was not going crazy seeing the thunder and lightning in the far distance that was not making me any less on edge.

"Yeah! I done it all! Andy its going to be fine, its just a storm. Same as everyone else!" he was shouting it back, slightly annoyed but still amused over that I was double checking him and what we should do. Well sue me than, I wanted to be prepared! I sure as hell didn't survive the shit I did just to die in some stupid storm!

He was just walking towards us; the rain had started to fall down, and he was all wet making me bite my lips seeing his t-shirt cling to his broad frame and make me even more horny than I already was, I always was when he was around, f**k I loved him so much, and his d**k.

"But this one's got a name, the don't name shit that isn't serious, right?!" I said it frowning the slightest when he made a frown back before starting to chuckle, coming up the last step and kissing my forehead like he wasn't that worried, oh I knew he wasn't. "They all have names baby, I been living here for most of my life and I seen this since I was a kid, who are you going to believe anyway, some stupid guys on the tv, making sure to scare the shit out of people or me, your husband?" his eyes was looking at me with warmth when I made a huff after not saying anything when he could see that I knew he was right, he was. I was just worried, riled up and all that.

"You of course..." I made a loving smile when he made another chuckle kissing my lips this time making me lean back and forget for two seconds that Kira was there before she made it very clear that she didn't like being left out.

"Daddy, I want one too!" she was demanding to be picked up and that he was going to kiss her when I made a snicker seeing Kira stare Buck down, she wasn't even longer than above Bucks knees, and she still acted like she was the boss, just like her father.... I stopped and pushed away Jonah. I loved him. I did but he had been gone for a long time and honestly, I was starting to get thankful that I got away, me and Kira living that life, being in a f*****g mob. that's not what I wanted for my girl.

"Kisses coming up!" he was leaning down, making her go airborne to her amused shrieks and my heart attack, what if he f*****g dropped her?? I would kill him!

"Buck, what if she gets hurt, you can't do that!?" I said it annoyed and really worried when he gave me a grin like he wasn't going to listen, that smirking idiot, and Kira was no help seeing that she loved it, of course she did, if it was dangerous, she would do it. She was impossible like that!

"Andrea, please. I have done this to all my kids, and they are all alive. never dropped anyone of them, alright?" he lost his grin in the end and I knew why making me feel bad because I didn't want to remind him, that both of his sons not speaking to him, well I knew that Mitch didn't, he had a fucking meltdown hearing about us getting married.

Apparently, him and Buck had this big fight over at his old house that ended with Mitch telling him to go to hell and that he wasn't his dad anymore....... so yeah, it was bad.

"Baby.... Are you okay?" I said it lovingly, trying to comfort him when I knew it was my fault. It was. It was me that Mitch hated. That I had destroyed his family and his parents getting back together again, Sophia had been filling in the gaps making me get that Mitch was dead set on thinking that Buck was just fucking me and when he got bored, he was going back to Sarah.

My heart felt a hurtful pinch. Sarah. I hated it but every time he was over at the house, that I know I wasn't invited or even welcome I wonder if he would just slip up again, I mean I loved Buck, but I wasn't stupid, of course a small part of me was worried no matter how much I had forgiven him, it was just something time and trust had to fix, I guess... I mean I wasn't the best at that, trusting people and still I did trust Buck, but then again, maybe I just was a stupid bitch like Mitch said.

"Yeah... yeah I'm fine...." He looked at me with a sad smile when that made me feel even worse, no he wasn't okay. He loved his kids and they had turned their backs on him and now he couldn't even see them seeing that school had started, and they both lived out of state, leaving Sophia, she supported us, but she wasn't that tuff against her mom, and I didn't blame her, I didn't talk back to my mother when I was sixteen, I was fucking scared of her.

"Are you sad daddy? Do you need some kisses?" we both looked at Kira and I swear Buck didn't look like he wanted to die anymore hearing her say that he only been her dad for a month and still he was knocking it out of the park, that he was experience helped a lot.

"Yeah, princess I do need kisses, a lot of them!" he was chuckling again when Kira was wrapping her small arms around his big neck and I wanted to cry because it was so f*****g beautiful, my dream and it was happening here in front of me.

"I think mommy needs some kisses too..." he made a wink when I started to smirk, oh f**k yeah, I did, the more the better from him and when Kira was sleeping, I was going to f**k his brains out.

"Alright let's get inside the house before the storm comes any closer, Andy you filled those bottles I told you too, right?" he was walking inside still having Kira sitting happy like a princess on his arm and me in front nodded, I had done everything, even had a checklist and all.

"Yes Buck, I did it all." he made a proud smile when I did one back making me feel good and stupid at the same time, I mean come on I had managed the store and it was closed down because of this shit and still it made my heart skip a beat when he looked at me like that.

"Good girl..." he made another chuckle walking further in the hallway with Kira not seeing me being frozen to the core. Oh my fucking god! I know it wasn't like that, he didn't even say it like that, he didn't! he was just teasing me and still my heart almost stopped hearing the same phrase Jonah had said to me so many times when he wanted something, even if it wasn't s****l, I mean it was most of the time but still. being thrown backwards in time when I was alone and depressed, living only from day to day having nobody, absolutely nobody but Jonah.

Oh Jonah.... I closed my eyes, the hurt in my heart was still there.... I still didn't believe all that shit had happened, me being here with Buck made everything before seem like it was just a dream, a distant memory that still was piercing my heart every time I was thinking about him, I would have given anything to have him wanting to see Kira, not just keeping tabs on her, I bet he knew what she looked like, pictures and all that, but he didn't know her, didn't see her smile everyday like I got too and now Buck, he was really the biggest loser of all this and he didn't even realise it.

"You coming baby or what?" Buck's voice made me snap back to reality when I made a deep inhale of air, yes. Yes, I was coming.... I pushed back Jonah to the furthest parts of my mind where he always was, like a dream I couldn't shake and never forget seeing that I saw Kira every day and she was his spitting image.

"I'm coming, I'm just closing the door, okay?" I said it slightly still shaken up from what happened, and he didn't even know it when I was closing the door looking out one more time into the distant storm and felt my eyes widen in pure horror. A man.

Standing in the darkening distance.

The storm was raging behind him like some bad fucking omen, I swear I saw a smirk even if I couldn't see his face from the cap and hoodie, and it was blue.

My fingers grasping the door hard when he moved the slightest, the dense vegetation making it hard to make him out more when I was holding my breath and I knew it.

James.

A big flash made me scream and close my eyes when I opened them fast again, my heart racing and felt my hands tremble, my knees shaking underneath my body when I was gawking at the same spot the man had been standing. He was gone!

"Buck!!!" I slammed to door when I heard him come fast, like he could hear the panic in my voice and I stared at him, my back against the door and just feeling my chest moving up and down fast and my eyes searching for any kind of weapon, if that was James, he was going to kill me, and Kira and I was not letting that happened!

"Andrea, what happened!?" he saw me, saw that I was going crazy when my big eyes were showing him just how scared I was and took a hold of my shoulders before I could do anything else, James was f*****g here!

"I saw him Buck, f*****g James, I swear to God Buck, I swear to f*****g God!" I was rambling if fast, my words getting stuck on each other when his face went from worried to frowning when I was still panting hard from seeing a strange f*****g man that was here to kill me and my family!

"Where??" he was already letting me go and into my cleaning closet, pulling out the super-illegal sawed off shotgun I didn't even know was there, what the fuck did it even do there!?

"Buck, there is a fucking shotgun in my closet!?" I said it shocked and somewhat more at ease. I was, and I hated it. I should yell at him for having it there, I mean come on Kira was going to find it sooner or later but I didn't, I was f*****g glad.

"It doesn't have any shells, don't worry, I know I'm just a redneck and all that but I'm not crazy leaving it loaded..." he looked back at Kira that had come running hearing us getting upset and stared at the gun, oh she wanted to play with it, and I knew it the second her twinkling eyes was giving her away.

"You're going out there, are you fucking crazy Buck!?" I was having my hand on his arm, trying to stop him, James was dangerous, and I knew it! it didn't matter that he had only showed me his f*****g true colours once, he was!

"Yeah, I am! You think I'm just going to sit here and wait around when some guy is out there wanting to hurt my wife and kid, nope!" he said popping the damn P like he wasn't scared when he fucking should be that Idiot!

"No! Buck, we should call the police, get them here and tell them that there is a fucking madman on the loose!" I didn't care that I was cursing and Kira was hearing me when she looked more scared than anything right now, not from what I was saying but the way I was acting, feeling like I was loosing my mind seeing Buck going for the door, loading shells inside the shotgun when he gave me a hard stare that made me even more scared for him.

"And tell them what? That some lunatic is out there in the middle of the storm?? You know how many people are looting right now Andrea? They don't give a shit and they aren't going to risk their asses out here for some woman telling them she saw someone!" He said it back gritty, face dark and I backed off, fuck he was right! They were probably swamped right now with people calling them down on the storm and shit, f**k!

"I'm scared Buck, I'm fucking scared you are going out there and I am never going to see you again!" I was pleading it to him when his eyes softened up the slightest seeing that I was crying having Kira coming running when she was crying too, I was so f*****g scared! "Oh, you aren't getting rid of me that easy Andy baby..." he made a small grin when I was in his arms lifting up Kira and just crying, he was so damn proud and stupid at the same time, f**k I loved him more for every day!

"You better fucking come back, or I am going out there!" I looked up, having hardness in my own eyes, I was not kidding, if Buck didn't make it back, I was going for that shotgun and then I was shooting James's fucking head off!

"Don't worry Andrea, just take care of Kira, stay safe and don't come out unless I tell you to." He said it stern when I made a nod knowing that I didn't care, I was not listening to Buck on that part, he just didn't know it.

"Alright princess, take care of mommy and I will be back soon..." he leaned down kissing me and Kira's head when she was sniffling and I was just staring at his backside going out the door that flew up, the wind picking up and my heart clenched when he made a wink going out and then closed it fast and hard.

the bang that was echoing out throughout the house sending chills of my bones.

Buck better be fucking okay.