Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 137

He had been gone for too long. He had.

I hated that the windows where boarded up when I was looking out the small springs, just staring into the yard that was a mess, everything was when I had Kira sitting on the floor with her glowing barbie dolls, yeah they f*****g glowed in the dark and she wasn't playing with them but rather just watching me sensing something was wrong when I was on f*****g edge, waiting every second for Buck to come back or... something! I don't know when I was pacing all the windows in the living room, I wanted to run to every room, but I knew that would just make Kira cry seeing that we just had lighted candles and she was afraid of the dark like every other normal two and half years old was.

"Where the f**k are you James?!" I whispered it to myself when a sound from the kitchen made me feel the cold hard fear, I felt like that night that I left and never came back, the blood in James eyes that was so f*****g scary! I mean if I hadn't seen Jonah or any other f*****g bastard out there maybe I would have just been able to pretend like I didn't see that he had nothing more to lose, not a damn thing and that shit was scarier than anything!

I snatched up Kira, fast when she just made a scared face when I walked into her bedroom, opening her closet and placing her there on the floor, giving her a serious face that she needed to listen to me.

"Kira, mommy is going to the kitchen... just... just stay here baby and hide, don't come out unless it's me and daddy that is calling for you, okay??" I said it sharper making her do a pout and she didn't like it but thanks to Buck, she actually gave a shit these days, what I was saying when I made a stern face, and she looked even more sad like she was about to cry but didn't when I closed the sliding doors silent in the bedroom after putting my finger over my mouth telling her to stay quiet.

I felt so fucking bad when she was holding her barbies tight watching me with her big, scared eyes. I wanted nothing more than to just take her and run right now, but I couldn't leave Buck getting killed by James, I loved him!

There it fucking was again, the sound! It came from the kitchen when I ran over to my purse, picking up my revolver, yeah, the same one that I had threaten to kill Tom with, putting in rounds one shaky bullet at the time and just whispering curses when I finally had it loaded and snapped back the hammer before walking out carefully into the hallway before the kitchen, standing behind the wall and just wishing that James was there so I could f*****g blow his head off for coming after me and my daughter! "I'm going to fucking kill you James, you hear me!?" I was shouting it when I made a quick turn into the kitchen, aiming at where the sound was and was gritting my teeth when the sight of the backdoor being open and slamming hard against the frame, the wind howling outside.

"Fuck!" I let the revolver down, shaking like a damn leaf when the adrenaline that had been pumping around my body was making my heart slam against my chest and I was already panting, I was f*****g covered in sweat when I started to laugh, it was small and almost hysterical, f*****g hell! It was just the damn door I went f*****g crazy over, leaving my daughter in the closet like the f*****g madwoman I was!

"Kira!" I was leaning against the frame when I put the hammer back, shoving down the revolver in my shorts and was on my way back to her when I heard it, the f*****g sound of Buck shotgun going off in the distance!

"Buck!!!" I was screaming it when I didn't care and just rushed out, the rain was hard now and I was yelling after him, it was so hard to hear in the rain when I saw movements and screamed even more, where the f**k were he!? "Andrea!" I heard the sound of him screaming back when I started to cry again, thanking God that he was okay when my feet was slipping in the muddy ground, I was just having slippers on that got stuck and I left them in the mud when I was still running towards Buck that was standing still when I slammed into his body making me more calm when he wrapped his arm around me and I looked up, I could barely see in the rain when I met the eyes of the same man that had tried to kill me that day.

"Hello again Andrea..." he was saying it smiling, his face was different but still not the same. his hair was lighter, like he was blonde, and he had a beard and no glasses, motherfucker I had seen him before, and I knew it!?

"James...." I just stared at him, he was looking so fucking different and when I said his name he looked just as longing as he was angry at me when his arm pulled me to him tighter making me want to start to scream but what did it matter!? he had me f*****g captured, and I couldn't even reach my gun to save me!

"That's right baby, it's me and I'm back for you.... I never could leave you... you know that right?" he said it more sinister than I ever had heard him say when I started to cry from the hard helplessness I was feeling, what the fuck was wrong with him!? "James, please! just leave and never come back again! I swear that I won't tell anyone what happened, I didn't even go to the cops!?" I was screaming it back to him when he was twisting my arm looking even more angry hearing me plead him like he hated how I begged at him.

"No, but you fucking left me! you left me Andrea and I can't forgive that, you don't fucking get anything do you, I love you and you belong with me, you and Kira and if you don't fucking come along right now, I'm going to kill that husband of yours, it wont even be hard!" He was making a smirk.

the rain making everything so much harder, and the wind every breath I took a nightmare, he was a fucking nightmare that pretend to be my friend when he never was, just waiting for a fucking chance to snatch me up!

"You were going to burn me and Kira alive!?" I was screeching it back, having my fingertips at my revolver when he made a big frown looking down, his cap showing me the grey blue eyes that had showed me so much support and now he was here to fucking collect! "I got fucking angry, I wasn't going to light it! Just scare you, If I wanted to kill you Andrea, you would have been dead ten-time times over, just like every other whore that didn't want me...." he made one of his charming smiles that I used to love, but right now it was the scariest thing I had ever seen, James's smile.

"You are a fucking psychopath!!!" I screamed it back full force when my fingers had finally gotten a grip from James twisting my arm hard back towards my waistline, pulling back the hammer again, shoving it up from my back and pulled the trigger when his smile disappeared, seeing that I had shot him right in his foot.

Yeah, that's right. I shot his fucking foot when I was smirking seeing his shocked face and before I could gloat more, pulling the gun up to make that fucking smile on his face disappear forever I felt the hard blow over my face, like a big thud that didn't even hurt, just made everything blurry when I was on the ground. The heavy rain falling hard on me with James faceless shape that was screaming at me from a distance since my ears where f*****g ringing!

"You are going to fucking regret that Andrea! I was going to give you a second chance but for that, I'm going to kill that fucking redneck you married and then I'm going to kill you, maybe I should just take Kira?? Would you like that huh? I make a great father and you know it...." He was really angry now when I was still not sure what happened and just stared at him, take Kira?? Was he going to take Kira!? My hand was searching, somewhere in the mud when he saw it, the small twitch of my hand and stepped on it making me gasp from the pain, that mother fucker, I was going to kill him!

"I should have just killed you like I planned.... But you reminded me of my mother... and I loved her Andrea... I fucking loved my parents ....so that was my fault, should have never given a whore like you a chance!" he was smirking in the end when my vision was back, the hard throbbing pain in my neck and head was making the pain in my hand feel like nothing, how f*****g hard did he hit me anyway!?

"Andrea!" the sound of Bucks voice made me freeze up when James heard it too looking up from me before our eyes meet again and he gave me a bright smile before picking up my revolver when I started to scream, no! no he was not getting to kill Buck! No! "Buck! BUCK!" my voice getting drowned by the rain and it felt like I was sinking here in my own backyard when I used my last strength, looking up seeing James aiming at Buck that was searching for me in the howling dark, no!

"Get the fuck up Andrea, get the fuck up!" I was cursing at myself, taking one big shaky breath and pulling myself off, pushing my way past the rain and fucking storm in the slippery mud still crawling up behind James when I grabbed his leg hard, pulling him down when he just was about to shoot my f*****g husband!

"Andy!" Buck saw us and took off when I was tumbling with James, he was so much stronger than me when he had dropped the gun, lost to the mud and debris that was around when he was trying to choke me out making me see small spots when I saw Buck coming up behind him, slamming the b**t hard into the head of James and his hands got floppy over my neck when Buck pushed his big body off me and I was already snaking my arms around him when he lifted me up bridal style, he was alive! Buck was f*****g alive and that was all that mattered to me!

"I love you Buck..." I said it into his chest when he didn't hear me but I didn't care when he was carrying me into the house leaving the knocked out James in the backyard filling up with water, I hoped he fucking drown.... I was so tired when I closed my eyes, Bucks voice was in the distance when I made a face of pure pain. It was hurting like fuck when I was down on something soft and started to feel the pain more, it was sharp and intense when Buck was staring at me like he was going crazy and Kira was crying terrified over seeing me when I felt my eyelids wanting to be closed, no!

I wanted to see Kira, see that she was okay when I had them open for a second before falling down again, the pain was so fucking intense when I felt Kira on me and I wanted to push her off, she was to heavy and Buck was pulling her back when he was talking, panicking and I made a small hiss from just how bad I felt, like I was dying and I made one big push seeing Buck standing in the middle of the room, talking on the phone, having the shotgun in one hand and Kira standing by him when I wanted to cry, she looked f*****g traumatised!

"Let's go baby, let's go! I know it fucking hurts, but we need to get some help!!! now, Kira, get here!" Buck was tying one of her jumping ropes around her waist and the other one to his arm when I made a loud scream when he picked me up, already caring me out again when I wanted to tell him to stop, not to take Kira into the storm when she was crying hard and I tried to reach out my hand to her, but I couldn't, my strength f*****g dwindling for every second.

"Kira..." I was whispering her name when Buck had me in the backseat and Kira was being put in her seat, thank god we had bought a second one for Bucks truck when he gave her a spare teddy he had and she clutched it hard, looking at me in despair all the time and Buck slamming the door hard and taking off on the slippery roads in the middle of a f*****g storm, oh please god, please keep my baby safe...