Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 143

I was walking slowly down the busy street, Kira in one hand, she was wearing her princess outfit that she had chosen for Halloween. I was giggling the same as her when we were walking around, ringing doorbells, having a blast together. Buck had told Sophia to come along but she wanted to be with her friends instead and I didn't mind, I mean Sophia was great, but Kira was my baby and not hers, I was loving every minute of this. I hadn't been doing this since I was a kid and walked around with one of my friends parents since my own didn't think this was important enough to care.

"Look at that.... two fair ladies walking down a dark street full of monsters, who will save them?" Buck was chuckling when he walked up and I made a giggle, he looked like he was a knight and he had a big heart on the centre of his chest making me giggle more, he was so stupid and handsome even in that stupid outfit I knew he was loving to wear just as much as the kids around us was.

"I'm a princess daddy!" Kira made a twirl when she was showing of her crown and fairy wings that she had demanded was part of being a princess, but who was I to say something, I was just having on the one long dress I owned and a plastic crown, same as her only less extravagant.

"Princess Kira." He made an official bow making me snort more, he was such a kid, look at him, he was having a blast and I bet he would have loved being dressed up everyday and not just once a year.

"Buck..." I was still snickering when he did a wink and I leaned over kissing him quickly being grateful that Kira was staring at the other way or else she would have started to scream that he was to kiss her too.

"My heart's queen..." he was pulling me closer when I leaned my head against his shoulder, just resting and smiling, I was so happy with him and Kira was having a blast, this was the best Halloween I had ever had, Buck even had taken the day off yesterday to be with us and help out with hunting down stuff for Kira, he was a great dad and husband.

"I love you.." I said it purring when his body got tenser and made a chuckle in my ear when he pulled back, not going any further knowing that there were kids around when I was biting my lip, I wanted to go home and continue to try have that baby we had been talking about.

"I love you too Andy... Just you wait... I will give you what you want... later." he made another chuckle when I felt the blush creeping up on my cheeks, and I didn't even know why, I wasn't shy these days but the way Buck was, he made me feel like I was a school girl again and not a grown ass woman that was married and had a respectable stable life. How the f**k that had happened.

I was stil smirking when I heard the sound of people walking down the street and I knew that it was Sophia that was coming along, she wasn't dressed like I was used to seeing her and I swear I saw Buck eyes go wild seeing her look like she was the front cover of some expensive magazine that my store sold like crazy. her hair was long and wavy, she had full face of makeup and she just had on a small dress that was making her legs look like they were up to the sky, f**k I hated her, look at her being so f*****g beautiful, made me so damn happy for her.

What in Gods name is she wearing!?" Buck was about to storm after her seeing that she hadn't seen us yet when I stopped him, I know he was just being protective, but she was sixteen and she deserved to dress up and have fun and she was with her friends, what was the harm in her showing some legs anyway?

"Buck, stop it... calm down.... She isn't a baby anymore... this is what it's like being a girl and she is safe alright?" He was still staring at her like he couldn't believe what he was seeing making me smirk leaning my head over his shoulder again, Kira was turning her head too seeing Sophia and started to take off before anyone of us even had seen her do it.

"Kira!" I was yelling it annoyed; the street was closed off but there where still some cars coming by and there where people everywhere when Buck was going after her same as me.

She was so damn fast, being so small sometimes, and she was going after Sophia, that hahit even seen her, f**k!

Kira was already screaming it out over the crowd when Buck was going around, trying to flank her when I saw her dark hair disappear behind the crowd when I was pushing my way past anyone that came my way, I didn't give a s**t that I was pushing or shoving, my baby was out there and James was still on the f******g loose!

Kira!" I was screaming it when Sophia came up behind me and she was drunk, she was. f**k! Not like super drunk but she was tipsy, Buck was going to kill her, and I was going to help if I didn't find Kira right now!

"Andrea_ is it, Kira?!" she said is slowly like her teenage mind didn't really quiet get it with the alcohol mixed in it making me do a growl, Buck didn't even need to kill her, I would do it for him!

"Yeah, she went after you and now she is gone, and you are f*****g drunk, like what the f**k Sophia, I didn't know you did that!?" I was snarling it when she looked at me really surprised like she didn't think I would see it, oh trust me, that way she was swaying in the high heels she never had worn before, it wasn't that hard.

"OMG! Andrea, please don't tell dad, please!" she was begging me when I just left her and she followed me like a lost puppy, her friends gone and I was still searching for Kira, which was my only f*****g mission right now.

"Shut the hell up, I don't fing care about that, I just want to find Kiral" I was hissing it when she started to cry more and I felt bad, or I should but I couldn't when I was still rushing the crowd that was around us, wasn't there anyone that could f*****g see that a small girl was running on her own and that might set off some f*****g bells??

"Kira!" I was screaming it again when I heard the small voice that was coming from afar and I looked up, seeing that she was sitting in someones arms and I made a sigh of relief making my way towards the man that was holding her, I was so f*****g worried! I was going to kill her, I was!

"Oh, thank God! Thank you!" I was panting the slightest when he turned around and i dropped my smile seeing that it was Jonah, he was holding Kira and he looked pissed, like this was my fault that I had lost her, well she was f*****g fast, he had no idea how she could just take off!

"See Kira, I told you Ma wasn't far away, and you shouldn't run off like that, okay?" he talked to her when she made a pout and looked at me like she wanted to leave the strange guy that was holding her, making me want to break apart right there. Jonah was having a mask on that he had pulled up, and just shirt and jeans, he looked like anyone else of the adult that hadn't taken things to far like Buck did.

"Jonah... Thank you for getting her.." I was holding my arms out when he looked up at me again, giving me a frown like he didn't want to hand her over and I got it, she was his kid and he loved her, he did but she didn't know him and she was about to start crying from being scolded by an unknown guy she only had seen once.

"If you cant keep f*****g track on her Andrea, I'm going to step in and you are not going to like that, got it??" he was handing her over when she was clinging against me, not liking the harsh tone of Jonah, I wasn't either, he better not be f*****g threatening to take Kira from me or I was going to kill him!

"I don't need your f*****g help, never did so why the f**k are you saying that s** to my face!? Just find James, f*****g kill him so that Kira can be safe and stay out of our lives!" ! was hissing it back, not giving a s**t that Sophia that was behind me heard, she had been talking to Tom anyway so why the f**k did I care what she knew??

Jonah looked even more pissed when I was still scowling hard against him, feeling the small body of Kira that was crying softly against my chest, she didn't understand why I was so angry and she didn't like it, neither did Sophia that was standing there and looking like she wanted to die from shame when I heard Jonah made another snarl, pulling his mask down again and just turning away, leaving us and I didn't get it, why the f**k was he walking away all the sudden??

"Andrea, thank god!" Buck was coming up being us when I did a surprised turn, so that's what Jonah just had taken off for. Buck was here and he couldn't really explain why he would be talking to me seeing that he was supposed to be in Mitch team and had no logical reason to be here and talk to me and Kira.

"Yeah, Buck..." I hugged him hard when he let me rest having Kira and scolding her softly for running away and she cried some more, I wanted to cry 100, this night started so great and now here I was standing in the street, with two crying girls and Buck that was starting to notice that something was off with his daughter. Oh f**k.

"ARE YOU DRUNK!?" he didn't even try to keep his voice down when he handed over Kira to me again, seeing Sophia that was starting to bawl her eyes out even more, Buck holding her arm and he was going to yell at her, for how long I didn't know but right now I had my own problems, Sophia being drunk wasn't that bad, but Buck still was going to have a meltdown.

"Yeah, yeah dad I'm drunk.... And do you know what, I don't care!? | f*****g like it!" Sophia was screaming it back making everyone around us stare when Bucks hole face just changed, making me do a gasp, I had never seen him so f*****g pissed off, like never, ever. Not even when I screamed at him that I was leaving him, no. this was pure darkness, fully hearted rage that was making him hold her arm even harder to the point that she was going to have a bruise if he didn't stop.

"Oh, you like it do you!? well then, why am I even paying f*****g child support to your mother seeing that you are a goddam adult! going around looking like a damn hooker and drinking! I should call the state right now and tell them that I don't need to keep f*****g supporting her!" he was starting to drag her along and I just stared at him helpless, Sophia crying, Kira crying and me just following Buck that wasn't stopping no matter how much Sophia was stumbling unused to walking in high heels

"Buck, stop! Stop it! Babe!" I was going after him when Sophia was still angry as hell too when Buck finally let her go, coming into one of the alleys that didn't have that many people in them, thank God for that!

"Stop it?! I am not stopping Andrea, and you keep out of this! Sophia is not your kid, and I am taking her right back to Sarah to show her just how much of a failure she is, can't even keep Sophia off the f*****g streets!" He was growling it when I snapped at him, he was so *****g stupid sometimes, she clearly was just having fun and he acting like she was walking the streets for money, like she really was a hooker!?

"I know she isn't my kid Buck, I know! that doesn't mean that I don't care about her, she is just trying out s**t, Buck you are not a girl and you have no f*****g right lashing out like this, she is just a teenager and she is not any different from the boys, they are f*****g worse and I don't see you acting like this with them!?" I knew that he wasn't, I had seen him with both of them, they could talk and drink, even Jared and he sure as hell wasn't twenty-one last time I looked!

"that's different!" he said it still looking like he was going to break apart ever piece of our furniture coming back home when I made a scoff, different? Why, because she was a f*****g girl, and they were boys?!

No, it's f*****g nol! Sophia isn't any different from the boys, just because she is a girl, for f***s sakes Buck, she is the one that acts the most like you! how the f**k can you tell me that she is supposed to get most s** when I know that Jared wouldn't have this humiliation, *****g public 100!?" I was getting really angry. I knew what its like to be humiliated, so many times when my dad didn't stand up for me and I was f*****g scarred for it, made me hate him, maybe more than I ever hated my cold mother.

"You know what!? You don't get it, you don't have grown up kids like me and you shouldn't talk about something that you haven't a clue about, alright?? Sophia! get the f**k here and I am driving you home!" Buck wasn't even listening when I stared at him like he was crazy, was he really such a caveman that he couldn't accept that Sophia was just like her brothers, not some f*****g war criminal he was taking back to justice!?

"Buck!" I was yelling it after him when he was storming off, having Sophia in a tight grip around her wrist making me feel really bad for her, sure she did wrong but nothing her brothers hadn't done, worse and Buck was going *****g ballistic over her and he was our ride home but he seem to have forgotten that part too!

"f**k!" I was saying it gritted through my teeth when Kira was still holding her hands over her ears, eyes squeezed tight and just wanting me and Buck to stop screaming.... oh god... oh... I looked down at her, holding her closer when she looked up and she was scared, she was and I hated that Buck had done that, showed her that he wasn't just this man that was a loving daddy to her, no he was acting like a f*****g madman raging over something that wasn't even that bad

"Its okay baby... its okay... lets just go home..." I looked down the street and started to walk towards the crowded streets again, glad people weren't staring at me and Kira when I felt the presence walking up to us and I turned around, seeing Jonah and this time he didn't look angry, only sad and I made a sigh seeing him, what did he want this time?

"Let's go, I can take you back." he didn't say more when I made a nod, following him having Kira on my shoulder just staring out into the distance, no more smiles or laughter, Halloween was over.