Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 147

Buck was at the end of the long table, sitting like a damn king with Sarah on his left side and Mitch to his right and then me following with Jared in front of me and Sophia that was sitting on the end having Kira on and off in her lap when she wasn't really up for just sitting down for so long, leaving Jonah to my left, so. This placement sucked.

"who's ready for some turkey!?" Sarah made a happy voice coming in with the bird that looked like it was from a damn cooking magazine instead of being homemade when I made a scoff, taking another sip of the wine putting it down again, avoiding Jonah as much as I possibly could and staring at Buck that was so f*****g stupid that he didn't even make a damn word about me being placed the furthest away from him and next to Jonah that was a invited guest same as me it seemed, not like the rest of them, a family. "Yes! I'm starving, Sarah you are a magician as always!" Buck was rubbing his hands together like a damn child when Sarah beamed placing it in front of him when I gritted my teeth even more, was I insane or did she even make sure her boobs where under his nose? Was I??

"Alright, I made some chicken nuggets to Kira per request and all those containers are for her Andrea, since I know she is allergic to dairy... I mean it boys; don't you touch them or I'm going to make you regret it!" Sarah was holding up her finger pointing to Buck, Mitch and Jared that all looked guilty when was Buck already picking up the knife to start cutting the bird.

"She is?" Jonah said it surprised when I made a small nod still mad as hell at him, yeah, she was f*****g allergic, he would have known if he wasn't such a coward and married Shailene!

"Yes." I said it snappy when he looked over at Kira that was beaming back sitting in Sophia's lap when I took another sip of wine, f*****g Sarah. I hated that I had to be f*****g happy and grateful she thought about Kira, she was great! All of her was and it was bothering the crap out of me!

"Don't you think that is something you should have fucking told me, like yesterday?!" Jonah was hissing it to me when Buck and Sarah were talking and laughing making me feel even worse, the hard cold jealousy turning around in my stomach and Jonah being here wasn't f*****g helping either, he was part of the reason I was like this, jealous beyond belief!

"Why?? You never been that interested so why should I tell you anything??" I was hissing it back not looking away from Buck whose worried eyes found mine and I made a smile that he didn't really believe in, but he was still talking so I knew he would ask me later rather than now that idiot!

"that's fucking bullshit Andrea and if you don't stop this shit right now, I'm blowing my fucking cover and taking you and Kira back home whether you want to or not!" Jonah was leaning into my side, making it looked like he had dropped something when I made a scared glance when he leaned back, giving me a full smirk like he was dead serious, oh he was! that selfish fucker!

"You wouldn't fucking dare!" I said it back a little bit to loud making the rest of the table snap their eyes at us when we were staring angry and daring into the other one's eyes, it was not the best set up to have my husband look at, my old jealous boyfriend that wasn't supposed to know me or even be the father of my daughter. It was a shitshow to say the least.

"Andy, are you okay baby? Is he bothering you??" Buck was going into full protection mode when I looked back at him, tearing my gaze away from Jonah's dark one, I was so fucking tempted to just tell Buck yes and have him toss Jonah out from here, but I knew that he wouldn't go without a fight, never did.

"No...no... I just.... I just..." shit I had nothing when Buck still was a split second from getting up, Mitch giving me an accusing look along with Sophia's sad one. Sarah was like a deer with Jared, not making any sense of my sudden hostility towards Jonah. A stranger. "I'm sorry Mr Underwood, it seems that Andrea has misunderstood me, I was saying that I was going to drink her wine and she didn't understand that I was joking...." Jonah made a big smile towards Buck and eyes like he was really sorry for doing something that offended me making the rest of them snicker, Mitch in particular since he hated me most of them all.

"Andy, its fine... we got more bottles... you think this is my first thanksgiving? Please you should have seen Bucks mother, rest her soul she could tip it back..." Sarah was making a snorting sound when I felt the hard anger stirring in my stomach, f*****g Jonah making me the bad guy! Like I was some f*****g sponge that couldn't hold it together when it came to wine!

"Hey! she was a great woman... and a great lover of spirits..." I thought Buck would have been angry hearing Sarah calling his mom a drunk, but he just made a chuckle making my mood drop even more, so that was it than, I was a stupid drunk and Jonah got away free, just like he always did!

"Mommy likes wine Kira..." Mitch made a snarky comment when I felt sick, no I didn't! I fucking never drank, not like anyone of these guys did and now he was telling my kid that I loved wine, what the actual f**k!?

"Mitch.... Leave it..." Jared was giving him a glare when he made a snort to my shocked face, I didn't want to say anything, whatever I did I always ended up the bad guy and he was always there to make sure to rub it in my face.

"Mommy likes wine!" Kira was saying it happy when I just sank down into my chair and pushed the wineglass away, still half empty for the record, I hated this. I hated that Jonah was here and that Buck didn't even help me and that Sarah was this perfect f*****g housewife and that I couldn't just blow a fucking fuse and go ballistic when Kira was around.

"No.... no, Kira don't say that.... Dad, are you hearing what Mitch made her say!?" Sophia was having Kira in her lap still when Buck finally seemed to understand what had happened when he was a bit drunk himself and I saw it now, he was and that's why he didn't care as much about what was going on than he was otherwise.

"Mitchell...... it's like every damn time you are around Kira she learns some shit she is not supposed to say, are you trying to get her to be the worst mouthed three-year-old or what?!" Buck was looking really pissed now when I still was just staring at the table of food that was getting cold by the arguing that had started with me and my stupid ex-boyfriend that was looking annoyed too, he hadn't counted on this being the outcome of his behaviour, he never did that immature bastard!

"She is spoiled fucking brat and you all know it! what the fuck do I care what she says or not!? She isn't my sister; she is not Sophia!" Mitch was yelling it back making Buck's eyes go dark, I mean really dark when he didn't wait one second before taking the same hold around Mitch nape when they were over and we told them we got engage making me do a gasp, Sarah was already up, screaming at Buck to let him go and I was taking Kira that had abandoned Sophia when the screaming and Buck tearing Mitch up from his seat had started, holy f**k!

"Buck, let him go! Now!" Sarah was following when Buck was taking Mitch out and he didn't fight back, I think that was the saddest part. He could. I mean he was just as big as Buck and honestly stronger at this point but still he didn't, he couldn't. just like I couldn't stand up to my mother.... Oh god... oh god I was feeling so bad for him and everything else around me, this was a nightmare!

"Nice guy you married Mrs Underwood...." Jonah was making a sarcastic smile under his breath when I did a small sniffle, I didn't understand anything!? Buck wasn't like this with Kira, he wasn't.... he was understanding and he was a great dad...nothing like he acted with Mitchell, having absolutely no patience for him and his acting out.

"Jonas... shut the fuck up......." I said it sad and tired still holding Kira that wasn't crying any longer but she was burrowed into my chest, not wanting to let go, I hated the holidays, it's like they were made for this, pushing all the shit together and I didn't want Kira to see Buck and his son fight, and honestly... I didn't want to see this side of Buck at all... the one that was so harsh and punishing when I knew he wasn't like that.

"Maybe I should go help..." I was still holding Kira when Sophia was shaking her head and Jared just made a frown when I stopped, but I wanted to help and I didn't know why, I hated that Buck was acting nothing like the sweet guy he was when I met him and I didn't hate Mitchell for acting out, he was no better than Jonah.

"Don't... just... let mom and dad handle that..." Jared was making a grimmer face, he blamed me when I know all of them did, I did too when Jonah made another smirk, he loved this. Me having a broken heart over what Buck had done, he was selfish in that way. he wanted me back and he wasn't going to let a thing like breaking Mitch and Bucks relationship apart stop him, he was a f*****g mobster for God's sake, I seen him kill a guy! this was nothing for him!

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry.... I really don't understand what Buck is doing....." I made another sniffle when Kira was looking up sad at me with her big bluegreene eyes, she was scared and I didn't know how to fix this, I didn't.

"Hey Kira, you want to go watch Elsa?" Jonah made a smile when she looked up at me like she didn't know if she wanted to or not when I made a small nod, fine. A least he wasn't here and being a fucking asshole when I was going through enough shit as it was. "Yeah...baby go with Jonas, and you could show him one of your dolls, okay?" I made a trying smile when Sophia was looking at us strangely, I don't know how much she remembered or what Tom had told her, but she was definitely more on track then her clueless brother, looking down on his phone, tapping like he was angry, probably talking shit about me to anyone that wanted to listen.

"Be careful with her!" I said it gritting through my teeth when I was giving Kira over to the beaming Jonah, he hadn't held her once and she was looking at me still nervous like she didn't want to really do this now that I was handing her over to the excited Jonah that took her making her lip start to tremble. Jonah looked at me smiling happy like a damn sun, that bastard.

"Relax... I got this babe.....now, I brought my iPad so let's go get something to eat and were set, you like Juice Kira?" he was already walking away with Kira making a small nod and Jonah was steering over to the kitchen, not giving a shit about that he didn't live her or that Kira hadn't had any dinner at all... he better not feed her all candy because I was going to make sure he was the one that stayed up all night if she did, he probably have no problem doing it either like the f*****g youngster he was.

Sophia giving me worried looks when I made a sigh, so what if she knew? she was keeping her mouth shut it seemed.

"You need to tell dad, like right now Andrea, I like you but... this is ridiculous... I don't know how mom and dad can't see that its him.... but please, its better if you tell him or... well you seen him angry..." she stopped when I was biting my nail, yeah, I saw him, fuck I had seen him blow up and it wasn't pretty.

I was looking at Jared worried when she waved her hand and I saw that he was having his headphones in and not even giving a shit what we were saying, thank God for that!

"He doesn't care.... I'm the one that is stuck here when the holidays are over.... F**k..." I made a surprised laughter hearing Sophia say f**k, did not see that one coming!

"Sophia....shit....... Buck is going to kill you.... where the fuck did you learn to curse like that??" I made another smirk when she shrugged like that didn't matter when she was having her phone on the table and I looked at it, so... was it someone special that made her be more brave, more brash than she ever was before I came here?

"It's Thomas, isn't it? You're still talking, right?" I sat down again when she looked up at me horrified like it was hard for me to figure out, I wasn't stupid, well... I was but not like that... only when it came to men it seemed.

"Yeah... no... I mean... yeah we still talk, he doesn't see me like that anyway Andrea so, don't tell dad... okay... its bad enough I was grounded for a month after Halloween..." she made another trying smile when I snorted, he didn't see her like that? he f*****g kissed her and even if I didn't agree at all seeing that she was way too young, I knew Tom and he wouldn't kiss a girl like that, not sweet anyway, not without tongue..... Made me smirk even more.

"Yeah sure.... Daisy..." Jared looked up like he sensed I was having a conversation with his sister that he wasn't supposed to miss out on but still did.

"Maybe I will come visit him.... once I'm eighteen I mean..." she made a small smile when Jared just had popped his headphone out and gave us both a stare when I was still smirking, she should, maybe that bastard finally had some feelings who was I to judge? I was in love with Buck and Jonah was here and stirring up my old feelings... oh god... and he was trying with Kira, I couldn't really avoid him because of her either...

"What are you guys doing, where is Kira?" he looked around when I made a sigh, oh now he cared did he? I was taking back my wineglass and sipping it, I did like wine. Even if it was red.