Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 155

"Son of a bitch...." I heard Bucks's low voice behind me when Jonah was coming over, having Mitch behind him, not looking happy to be here for Kira's birthday. At least fifteen kids were running around, and babies were crying on their mothers' knees. This wasn't a birthday; it was a goddam get-together for this whole town! Buck had invited many more people than just the friends from Kira's kindergarten and their parents that I had planned on.

Luckily, Sarah was here and helped, fantastic. I had been giving Buck some side-eye for that. He looked sorry, but this was set in motion before our big fight yesterday, and the reconciliation that followed, so there wasn't anything I could do about that. Jonah walked straight over to Kira, kneeling when she saw him. Her eye got excited, or maybe it was the pink unicorn he was holding, giving it to her, talking where I couldn't hear him while standing next to Buck by the grill. Jonah better not just f*****g spring the shit that he was her dad on Kira. I was going to kill him if he did!

"Daddy! Look!" she was screaming, making Buck turn and grin when she was waving the stuffed animal happy in the air to Jonah's face. He lost his smile, and he was not pleased hearing that, but f**k if I cared about that. Jonah was delusional if he believed that Kira would stop calling Buck daddy, only after seeing him three times. She hated Buck for like five months before even giving him a chance.

"Look at that princess; say thank you to Jonas!" Buck slightly nodded to Jonah, saying his fake name, and I held my breath, seeing them exchange looks. Oh f**k. Jonah got up again and made a smirk like he just knew that Buck knew, and he was going to act like he always did, like a f*****g a*****e that didn't give a shit about the consequences.

"Hey, dad...." Mitch had come up when he was already going for a plate when I made a frown. What? No, hi to me?? that asshole, why the fuck was I surrounded by bastards all the time!?

"Hey... hold on, you can say hi to Andrea too, I know you two don't like each other, but I raised you to have common manners. How about showing them?" Buck's voice was making Mitch's groin when he already had stuffed his mouth with a hot dog and was going on his second when he looked at me, and I crossed my arms, waiting. Some fucking common courtesy would be great. If Buck and I could talk to Sarah and Jonah, he could say a simple hi to me. "Hey...." Mitch gave a slight nod when I nodded back, still having my arms crossed and looking pissed. We f*****g said hi.

"Alright.... good... now go help out, Jared is coming later, and I don't want to see you leave everything to him. You can start with the blow-up castle; make sure the kids don't get inside while eating." Buck was already commanding Mitch when he made another groin. Taking another hot dog onto his plate and walked away, going for the bouncer, taking Jonah along, and sitting down on it, eating like the kids weren't supposed to.

"I still can't believe it... look at him... he is a kid. How the hell can he ever be her dad?" Buck was frowning when I made a sigh. Yeah.... He was.... He really was sometimes...

"I don't know... I just.... Buck.... As I said, it's more to the story and... I don't know everything about you and Sarah, right? I still don't understand many things, but I got to at least let him try... I'm not saying that you will stop being her daddy. I mean, I couldn't do that even If I tried. Kira is stubborn...." I snickered when Buck seemed to lighten up hearing that, too. He really didn't like the thought of Jonah being her father.

"Yeah, she is... I love her so much... damn kid... can't wait to have another one..." he chuckled, snaking his arm around me, pulling me closer, not caring who saw it. Kissing me sweet and long, still having one arm free for the grill. He was so happy like this, and so was

I.

"Same." I made a giggle feeling his hand stroking down just above my a*s. Still, he wasn't going any further, not when there were kids around. I knew that feeling his forehead against mine. I was so f*****g happy that he still was here and didn't just walk out on Kira and me.

"You look beautiful..." he made a wink when I blushed hearing that. He had already told me when I got dressed before the first kids and parents arrived.

"...love that dress on you, can't wait to get it off again..." he chuckled when I smacked his arm, he wasn't even trying to keep it down when I turned my head seeing Jonah staring at us. Pure hate from his face, and jaw clenched, not even listening to what Mitch told him when my smile dropped. Oh f**k.

"Buck, baby, I need to go get the cake and...." I stopped when he followed my gaze. I saw Jonah still staring at us, not even trying to hide how f*****g angry and upset he was, seeing Buck and me together, happy and smiling, kissing.

"No, you are not getting anything.... Andy, I'm not stupid... look at him... he is just waiting for it, getting you alone and making a fucking move, I know. Because I used to be like that... still am..." he said, the last part less severe when I made a gulp. Was Jonah really that predictable? And was I?

"Yeah... yeah, you are right... I just... it's hard seeing him, Buck, I still love him, and I can't help it...." I made a complaining noise pretending to fix some plates when Buck made a grin and pulled me closer like he already knew that.

"Yeah.... But he lost his chance, and you are mine now, my wifey, and he can't have you.... neither you nor Kira..." he looked up and gave me a smile when he kissed me again, making me smile, thank god, he got it. Jonah wouldn't. He would have called me a whore by now and might still; the night was young.

"I love you, Buck...." I kissed him again before turning around and walking to Kira, sitting on the end of the table, hugging the unicorn that Jonah had given her. She was so cute, the cutest girl ever with her long pink dress and curls that I had made on her per request with a small crown and pink slippers on her feet. She really looked like a little princess. I was the luckiest woman in the world, having her as my baby.

"Hey, Kira Marybeth...." She made a frown hearing me say her full name since the only time I did, she usually was in trouble... but this time it was me that was in trouble and not her.

"Hey, mommy! Look, unicorn!" she was pushing into my face making me snicker. Yeah, I saw it, like she didn't have ten more of them already, but this one was new, so she loved it, and I was glad she did. I didn't want Jonah to feel more left out than he was.

"I see it, baby. Did you thank Jonas for it?" she nodded, and I looked back, seeing Jonah stare at me. He was smiling now and even pretended to hear what Mitch was saying when he got up, and Mitch made a roll with his eyes taking up his phone when Jonah walked over and sat down next to me, f**k.

He wasn't saying anything or even making a move when Kira stared at him, waiting like me for him to start talking. He had that effect on people.

"Kira... did you know... that my Ma's name is Marybeth too?" he said, making me gasp. No! No, tell me he didn't do that. Tell me he f*****g didn't name Kira after f*****g Fiona, that wanted nothing to do with us, her. What a fucking joke!

"Jonah...I'm going to...." I was going to say kill him, but Kira was staring at me, giving me a pout when she didn't follow what was happening, trust me, I didn't either. That son of a bitch! I would never have agreed to that if I had known, but I didn't, like always! "His mommy's name is Marybeth, same as yours... do you understand, Kira?" I smiled when she nodded like she got it. Jonah wasn't good at making her understand how he was talking, unlike Buck and me.

"Why?" I turned my head and looked at Jonah when Kira asked him, big eyes and demanding. Look at him, all that tough guy, and he couldn't answer a simple question from a three-year-old girl.

"Yeah, why?" I said it, too. I really wanted to know how the f**k he thought that naming Kira after his Ma would change anything when it never did.

"I wanted that. I wanted you to have that from me..." he said back, way heavier than Kira would pick up, and I felt like shit, he was hurting, and I couldn't help him. I wanted to... but I shouldn't. Buck was right. He had lost his chance on her and me. "Kira.... Do you want to try the castle? You can go in alone and tell Mitch that if he says no, you going to tell on him to daddy, alright?" I snickered, knowing I was pissing Mitch off, when Kira made a big smile, hugged me hard, and ran off, leaving Jonah and me squatting down with no Kira between us.

"You sound different.... It's like you are this completely different person around here and... f**k Andrea... you really like it here?" Jonah looked up from staring into the grass when I made a smile. Yeah, I liked it here, and Kira did, which was the most important part. "You sound like a fucking redneck these days...." He smirked when I just shrugged. So what? He sounded like a f*****g brat all the time.

"Yeah... I really like it here... and... this is Kira's home... don't you forget that before you start to take her away, she is not going to love being back home where she knows nothing and isn't even welcome, especially by Fiona, even if she has her name." I got up feeling angry from thinking about it. This was all about Jonah and what he wanted, not about what was best for Kira. I should have known that he was young and selfish from the start. Always was.

"Hey... wait... wait!" he was going after me when I felt his hand on my arm, the long fingers grasping around my upper arm, making me stop whether I wanted to.

"Let me go. Now." Every muscle in my body was tense when Jonah gripped around me, having me stay when I didn't want to. Buck was right about that part, too, and he was just waiting for his chance to pounce on me.

"No! I'm not letting go, you hear me, Andrea... I'm never letting go..." he was pulling me back when I made a shriek seeing Buck coming at us. He did not look happy, not at all, when Jonah released me, making a smirk, still not deciding if he wanted to act stupid or just rub it in Buck's face and see what happened. Oh please, dear god, don't let them fight! That would be the worst outcome of all of this. There were kids around here, no! the whole fucking town was here, thanks to Buck!

"Get out!" Buck was reeling me in when he said it angry and low, like he couldn't wait to bash in Jonah's face, that seemed to be feeling the same way. This was never going to end well!

"Or what?" He crossed his arms, legs wider apart, and puffed his chest. He wasn't afraid of Buck and wasn't scared of anything or anyone.

"Or I'll make you." Buck was smirking back when I was stuck in the middle of the two guys I was in love with, Jonah, who was far more dangerous than he appeared, and Buck, who was big as a freaking truck, still mostly muscle even if he was older. "Dad, what's happening!?" Mitch was walking over when I started to shake from the fear gripping my heart. Please don't tell me that Buck and Jonah were going to f*****g fight each other at Kira's birthday party!

"Nothing. Stay out of this, Mitch." Buck was still staring at Jonah, not even looking away for a second, when Jonah's smirk became bigger, like that was all he needed to hear, knowing that Buck didn't want him to know about what had happened.

"Hey, Mitch. Do you want to know something? I f****d your stepmom... twice." Switching his eyes to me when I made a gasp. That was a fucking lie! It was once, and he knew it!

"What!? You fucked Andrea!?" Mitch was getting really pissed when Buck was trying not to just take a swing at Jonah for telling the entire party what had happened, but Jonah didn't care. He never did!

"you motherfucker! It was one time, one fucking time, and you know it!" I shrieked back, not being able to stop myself. I would not let Buck think I had fucked Jonah more than once. The shower never happened, never!

"Yeah, whatever, baby! You tell yourself what you fucking need to sleep through the night!" he was laughing now with all of the party staring at us when I wanted to die. Jonah had destroyed me, made me a goddam whore in front of this entire town in one second. That's what he did best. He ruined my life!

"I hate you! Why are you even here!? To destroy my life again, just like you did last, Jonah!" I felt myself being held back by Buck and everyone when I was screaming it back to his face. I was going to kill him! Everyone here was looking at me, snickering, in awe or disgust that I had f****d him, Mitch's f*****g teammate, and they all knew it!

"Your life!? You destroyed my life, Andrea! I fucking hate you right back, taking my kid and running when you know that you belong to me!" Jonah was shouting it back, making my heart just drop. So, that was it then. Everyone f*****g knew that he was Kira's father. It wasn't even that hard to put together, I never told anyone, and now it was all out there. Jonah was Kira's father, her f*****g biological one, and there was nothing I could do to change that. f**k!

"I don't belong to you! You married Shailene, and that was it! I was not sticking around for that, and you know it, not after what happened, so don't you tell me some shit that isn't true! You didn't even want her in the first place, told me to get a fucking abortion!" I was so sick of him and his high horses, thinking that he could just walk inside my life and tell me what to do, muscle his way into mine and Kira's life that was fine without him!

"Dude, you're married!?" Mitch looked like he had lost every ounce of respect for Jonah, and I felt the same way. He came here not to try to make f*****g peace. No, he came to start a war, always did, and I never learned! I never did!

"Yeah, I'm fucking married, and Kira is my daughter, and I am not leaving her in this shithole with all of you inbreeds!" Jonah was snapping it back when I lost all my strength, and I stepped back, having Buck catch me immediately. He wanted to take Kira from me! "I'm only saying this one more time, Jonah. Get out." Buck was making his voice dark and had a real threat in it. He was not kidding when he said he would make Jonah leave if he didn't listen.

"Make me. Buck." Jonah was smirking again when I started to cry. Why the fuck was this happening? This was supposed to be a happy day for Kira and me! Jonah was the worst man in the world. He didn't care about me and my feelings; he just took what he wanted and told me that he loved me.

"Where is Kira?" I heard the soft voice of Sophia yelling it over to me when she was standing with Tom, and I hadn't even seen that, and nobody had when all the focus was on me, Buck and Jonah.

"She isn't in the castle?!" I was already leaving them, fuck Jonah and Bucks fight! I was going after my daughter when they both followed me, not even thinking about it!

I stared into the bouncer.

Empty.

"KIRA!" I was screaming her name, climbing into the bouncer, feeling the panic swallow me whole, and looking crazy around every corner. Where the f**k was that kid!? "Buck!?" I didn't know what to do when I turned around and met Buck's worried eyes; Kira wasn't there, and I didn't know what to do!

"Kira!!!" he was yelling, starting to walk around the crowd of people. When I looked around the blown-up castle I was sitting in, feeling my heart going hard against my chest, the shallow breaths I was taking, and how everything felt so f*****g unreal, Kira was missing!

"Jonah fucking do something!!!" I crawled out when he looked like he didn't know what to do. Still, not realizing that she was really gone when I was going to kill him for distracting me, that son of bitch. If I didn't find her soon, I would kill him! "You motherfucker!" I punched him hard over his jaw, making him take a step back from the sudden force of my fist that was hurting like hell, but I didn't care, he was the f*****g reason I lost focus, and now she was gone! She could be f*****g anywhere, and he was going to f*****g pay for it!

"Andrea, what the fuck!? She is probably around here somewhere... fuck..." he was holding his jaw when the slightest blood was trickling down from his mouth. Good! I was going to make him wish he had never ever stepped foot inside this town!

"Somewhere!? How the fuck would you know that, you stupid fucker! You were not there when she was crying all night! Taking her first steps, you didn't even know about her allergy! So, please fucking tell me, Jonah, how the fuck do you know that!?" I was screaming it into his face, not giving a shit who saw me. Mitchell looked like he wanted to hide from me, all of them staring at me like I was crazy. Well, guess what? I f*****g was!

"I want to find her too, you stupid bitch!" Jonah was screaming it right back when Tom got up, taking hold of his shoulder when I made a snarl, so he was here too, f*****g good!

"You better fucking help, call your fucking Ma, call your whole fucking syndicate, I don't care, just find my daughter!" I pushed my finger hard into Jonah's chest harder every time, and he didn't stop me. He couldn't, and nobody could f*****g stop me right now! "She's not here, Andy!" Buck looked like he was about to puke, and I felt the same way. Kira was gone, and it seemed like no anyone had seen her as she had just disappeared on us!

"She was there when I walked over to you guys.... I swear..." Mitch was holding his hands up, looking even worse when I snarled at him, so the last place that someone saw her was Mitch and in the fucking bouncing castle, then what!?

I was holding my hands on my hips, trying to f*****g breathe when I couldn't. All my air was gone when I bent over, my baby... my baby was missing, and all I had for help was useless idiots that didn't lift a finger to help me!

"Does this party have a fucking hashtag or what?" Jonah's jaw was still red and was going to bruise when he was already holding his phone, tapping on it fast when I made an annoyed face. What? What the fuck was he talking about!? "PrincessKirathree!" Sophia was coming up behind Tom, making a smile when she walked over that I didn't miss, but I didn't care what they were doing. My Kira was the most important thing!

"Finally!" Jonah made an annoyed face holding his phone, scrolling fast when I got even angrier. How the f**k was this even helping us!? At least Buck was looking, not just staring down at his phone.

"Fuck! Look at that... fucking look at that, Andrea!" Jonah was turning the phone around, giving me the biggest scare of my life, seeing the selfie someone had taken, the bouncing castle in the background, and a small girl with a pink dress and crown holding the hand of a man, no.

"James." I said his name hollow, meeting Jonah's grim eyes. Kira wasn't lost. She was abducted by the same man who had tried to kill me twice, and by the looks of it, she trusted him, as she knew him!

"Tom. Let the girl go. We are going fucking hunting!" Jonah was snapping his phone back together and leaving me there on the spot, Buck speaking to me, but I couldn't hear him, couldn't hear one fucking word when he finally just turned me around, seeing my pale, drained, and scared face.

"He has her. James has Kira." Buck's grip around me tightened to the point where it should be hurting, but I didn't feel it. I couldn't feel a fucking thing anymore, my baby was gone, and I would die if something happened to her.

"Oh god... oh god...." I was wailing it into his chest, unable to do more when people were finally starting to get that something had happened, more than me having a meltdown over Jonah when Buck was pushing me hard against him. Still, I couldn't care. Just let me die! Let me fucking die so that she would come back. I didn't care!

"It's going to be fine... Andy...." He was telling it repeatedly when I didn't believe him, no! I would never be fine if Kira wasn't safe at home in my arms!

"Buck!" I was feeling my body go soft when he made a curse, catching me when he followed me down to the ground, the tiny sips of air when I couldn't breathe, I couldn't f*****g breathe!

"Look at me, look at me! Baby, we are going to find her, no matter what! I swear to god, we are going to find her!" Buck was making me stare into his eyes when I was wailing, making no sense when I still couldn't breathe, f*****g James had Kira! "Buck......." I couldn't speak, couldn't talk when I was holding onto his shirt so thigh my hands were hurting, my baby was gone!

"I know! I know, but we are not letting that son of a bitch get away, ain't that right!?" he looked up, seeing people from this town lining up to help him, and I made another snivel. Would they do that for me, for Kira?! Oh god! I didn't know what to do, James... I was going to kill him. I was. I swore on it. The second I saw his face; I was going to do anything in my power to have him take his last breath!

"I don't care what anyone of you may or may not have heard, that girl is my daughter, and I don't give a damn who the hell was the one that knocked my wife up before I met her. Kira is my child! Same as anyone of my other ones, and right now, a damn psychopath has here. I just want to know who is up for helping me get her back and who will stand by and talk shit behind our back for something we have no power over!" Buck was speaking out over the entire crowd of people when I was staring at him in awe. Holy shit! Listen to him; people here had known him all his life and were starting to make approving nods and hoots like they wanted blood, like him and me. Most of all me!

"Please help find my baby.... Please...." I was begging Buck, anyone, who wanted to listen and all the fucking eternal power!

"Sarah! Take care of her. I'm going to get my rifle!" Buck pushed me over to Sarah, holding me like she was just as scared as me. Why the fuck did she even care!? Kira wasn't even her kid, and she was only friendly so that she could break Buck and me apart! "Buck, no! I want to come. It's my daughter!" I was pushing myself off Sarah, but she didn't fight back. She wasn't like me, she was gentle, and I was never that. I was a fucking bitch that wanted my baby back!

"Get me a damn gun! "I was demanding it when Buck sighed as he knew he wouldn't be able to stop me, and he was right. He sure as hell was not!

"Here.... Now. let's get our daughter back and kill that son of a bitch once and for all." Buck gave me my revolver when I made a short, determined nod, feeling the steel's weight in my hands. James was going to die. One way or another.