Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 161

This was the worst thing that could ever happen. I mean it.

Me being pregnant when Buck walked inside Sarah's house, refusing to knock, and I didn't make him. what was the use anyway? This was his home, just as much as it was back at our place, and I had to accept that, no matter how much that sucked. Kira ran inside, not even waiting to make me realize that she felt at home too. I was the only one left out of place in the big house that Buck had once built.

"Kira, baby, wait!" she didn't care when Buck to hold of me, squeezing me happy when I knew what I was walking into, a goddam warzone that was going to take place seeing the dark face of Sarah, her arms crossed and looking just as pissed when he put down Kira that looked up at him mad that he didn't play with her anymore.

"Kira, go up to Sophia." Sarah looked up at me, and she didn't smile, nope. She wasn't this lovely perfect wife who was waiting with an ideal home and dinner for Buck anymore. She was looking f*****g serious, just like her son was.

"Yeah, Kira.... Please go up to Sophia...." Sarah's colder voice made me frown. She better not pull Kira into some shit or her. I was never going to be able to be in the same room ever again because I was going to kill her!

"It is okay, go upstairs, princess....." Buck was the only one still smiling when Kira made a nod like she didn't care what anyone else said, including me, but she listened to Buck.

"Okay, daddy!" she made a smirk, taking off and causing my heart to clench; she was my everything, and now.... Maybe my stupid f*****g horniness had ruined everything for her, fuck!

"So.... You all know that...." Buck waited until Kira was behind Sophia's door, and it was closed; I already knew I would be in a fight.

"Another baby, really, Buck? You are almost fifty, you think it's going to be easy!? Having a baby again when I know you didn't even like the first three rounds of it...." Sarah said it snarky, making him look even more annoyed, like she was talking bullshit when I didn't know what to say, this was so fucking awkward, and Buck was clenching his jaw hard, so he was really pissed off about Sarah's questions.

"What the hell are you talking about?! I loved when Mitch was a baby, greatest years of my life!" Buck was frowning hard against Sarah, which made a snort got up from the armchair she had been sitting on and not looking impressed. I felt more stupid than ever seeing Buck and her arguing over something. I didn't have my shit together yet. I was happy. I was, but this... shit, I had fucked Jonah. Yeah... he did that on purpose, too, and even told me to my face. I swear I would kill him if he knocked me up again, ruining my and Buck's chances to be happy when he was gone, leaving me in the dust like he always did.

"No, you didn't! You were always out and drinking, and I was alone with Mitchell, but you don't fucking remember that because it was so long ago! You got so fucking angry sometimes when you were hungover that I had to leave our apartment! "My jaw was open; she was telling the truth! Look at Buck; he remembered it as he had really forgotten when I didn't understand anything. He was so great with Kira, but he had been a shitty dad to Mitch; it seemed... f**k....

"Why the hell do you think Mitch is so mean all the damn time towards Andrea and Kira?? he is jealous, Buck, so f*****g jealous, and you can't even see it because you think he is supposed to be this man you raised! Let me tell you something: my son and I raised him when you were out drinking, whoring, or working." I gasped when Sarah got up, and she looked at me sadly for one second before walking out, and I was left speechless. Wow. That was not at all how I had imagined that would go. Fuck.

"No... no, that's not what happened...." Buck was looking up at me, confused and hurt, when I just made a sigh, so he wasn't perfect; well, who f*****g was?

"Buck....... let's just go home...." I said it tiredly when he shook his head like he didn't want to leave, hurting me even more. Why was he doing this? He loved me, and he didn't need to

"No... I need to talk to her.... I'm sorry, Andy.... I'll be back soon, baby; I just need to talk to Sarah alone....." He said it was already going when I just watched him walk away, and I started to understand that maybe everything wasn't like Buck had told me, he did love me, and I knew that...but... I don't know.... he loved her too... and that sucked, but it was true......fuck again...

This whole family merging thing. Oh, fuck, it was hard.

"It's his baby, isn't it?" I turned around, seeing Mitch coming back down the stairs, and I sighed. Great, now he wanted answers too, and I didn't have any, not for him or for Buck who didn't even know that there was a big chance that I was pregnant with Jonah. "Whose?" I didn't want to speak about this with him, and Mitch already hated me more than enough without me cheating on his dad. I just wanted Buck to return from talking to Sarah and go home, and I could take Kira and leave; that worked fine, too, as I didn't know if I could even force Buck to leave. Probably not.

"Jonas. He fucked you twice, didn't he?" I made a gulp seeing Mitch accusing eyes on me, he was so f*****g pissed off, and I knew he would be. I wasn't that scared of him. I didn't want him to tell Buck that was my problem, not his!

"Once," gritting my teeth. It felt like whatever peace was between us was over when he made a smirk as I had walked into some elaborate trap of his. Trust me. he wasn't that clever.

"Goddam whore, look at you! Why the f**k are you even here!? You are nothing but a manstealing bitch that doesn't deserve to be here! f*****g behind my dad's back, and he f*****g loves you!" Mitch was screaming it in the end, making me press my lips together. I didn't understand why he was so fucking upset about me fucking, Jonah, Buck cheated on me first, and he knew that?!

"Shut your fucking mouth, Mitchell! You think I'm scared of you because you are this big strong guy? Well, guess what, though, guy!? I've seen guys like you before, and I know that deep underneath all that macho shit, you are just a bitch!" Mitch's eyebrow furrowed before coming down again, making his face harder. Oh, he really looked like Buck, even more when he was angry.

"You are fucking lucky I was raised better than to hit a woman, Andrea, but if anyone fucking deserved that, it would be you!" He made a hissing voice, afraid that neither of his parents would hear him when I was the one to look shocked; he really believed that, didn't he? I was just this bitch that needed a fucking slap in the face for cheating on his dad with Jonah. Was he for real or what!?

"Do it then, fucking slap me in the face or whatever you want to do; it's nothing I have felt before or even the worst a man has done to me, Mitchell; I won't even tell Buck!" I stepped forward, making him flinch. He really thought that I feared him. I had just buried my best friend, saw two men get killed, and here he was, a kid like Jonah who thought he could tell me what to do. That was not fucking happening!

"Are you fucking insane, your pregnant, and I wouldn't hit a woman, even a whore like you!" He was hissing it again when I made a smirk. A whore was I? his father was the worst of them all. He was a fucking man whore, but I didn't care because I f*****g loved him! "Don't pull that crap over me! Buck isn't any better; none of you are! All fucking whores, and I am the one that gets blamed for fucking Jonah, one time, for the record. I wasn't even; first, you know that!" my voice shaking from the adrenalin shooting up inside my veins. I was so sick of hearing that, whore. I was not a whore just because my tits were big, and Mitch was about to learn that!

"What the hell is that supposed to mean? Wasn't even first?" Mitch looked suspiciously at me with his cold grey eyes. How the identical ones that Buck had with so much love could only have hatred for me was fucking hilarious if you thought about it. "Oh, don't play stupid. I know, you know! Buck f****d Sarah first right after we got engaged. You were so fucking happy over it; you all were happy!" my arms crossed under my tits when he hadn't looked at them once, staring me right in the eyes like he didn't know what to think anymore. Wait? Didn't he know? I felt that everyone here in this house knew that?!

"Dad cheated on you with mom?!" He said it shocked again when I made a big sig and nodded, my anger fading out; that one still hurt me, no matter how much I had forgiven him, that was still sore to feel and talk about. I mean, I thought Buck was perfect, and he ruined the illusion for me when he told me he fucked Sarah. I was so f*****g stupid.

"Fuck." Mitch hadn't moved when I shrugged, sitting on the edge of the armchair that was Bucks, and even I knew that, in his old life, he still was here every time he walked inside this big old house.

"Yeah, now you know.... I love Buck, okay? I love him so fucking much, and I know you don't get that, seeing that I fucked Jonah and ... yeah... this might be his baby...." I didn't know what I was supposed to do or say anymore, there was a big chance that Jonah could go for custody of this baby, too, and it scared me to death. I didn't want that. I wanted to have a baby with Buck, my husband.

"I know, I fucking know, alright, I'm not that fucking stupid that I can't see that!" He was snarling it from nowhere when I looked up, frowning more. What was this guy's problem with me anyway? He was always on my case, but now h was telling me that he knew I was in love with his dad way more than I ever imagined possible.

"I don't want mom and dad back together again if that's what you think. I just think that it's fucking funny that the only guy I had invited home was your fucking ex-boyfriend, Kira's fucking dad! He is my friend Andrea, and you took that away from me!" He made another snarl, turning away far beyond upset when I didn't get it. What? Just what was he telling me here? That he invited Jonah home, so what? They were friends!

"Mitch, do you even hear yourself? I took Jonah away from you?! What kind of bullshit is it that you don't even know him and ..." I stopped seeing Mitch's face making my heart drop. Oh shit, he looked hurt. What the f**k was going on here with him? I knew that face, seeing that I used to have it permanently when I was dating Jonah.

"Yeah, you are right... just forget it!" he was getting angry again when he still turned away from me, like I couldn't see how upset he looked like a statue and his bulging veins on the big neck and arms, shit. He was like an open book.

"Mitchell, are you in love with Jonah?" I said it dull and seriously. I wasn't going to judge him; I couldn't. Jonah had this way of just making people follow him, and he had no remorse leaving them heartbroken, not even me and Kira.

"What?! No!" he looked even angrier when I held his eyes in mine. Oh, he was. There was no doubt about that. Why the fuck hadn't I seen it before now? I made an amused smile that he thought was me mocking him. Nothing was further from the truth. I was mocking myself for being so f*****g stupid, always was.

"You better keep your mouth shut, Andrea, or I'll forget I don't hit women!" Mitch fits, cleansing hard and me leaning back; well, well look how was fucking gay and didn't want to admit it; of course, he didn't want to do that. He was Buck Underwoods' son. That was something to live up to, and that guy couldn't be gay, not around here.

"Okay, Mitchell... I won't tell anyone.... That's none of my business anyway... just.... Keep away from Jonah; he is not someone that plays fair, and he will only hurt you." I said the last part even more seriously. I didn't know if they still talked, but Buck was right about that part; Jonah was selfish when it came to stuff he wanted, and he wouldn't care if he broke Mitch along that way. No matter how little we cared for each other, I didn't want that.

Mitch didn't answer me. He just gave me a stare back that told me he didn't know what to do. He knew I was telling him the truth, but his heart didn't care, making him just as susceptible as Jonah's shit, like me, still was.

"Don't tell Jonah about me being pregnant, please?" my voice was softer, and he snorted before making a short nod as he got it. Shit! Was he still talking with Jonah? Then more than just me would be in deep shit! I didn't want fucking spies around, and still, Jonah had found a way to have them right under my nose.

"Don't worry about that. I don't want to tell him anyway...." Mitch just turned and left me like the f*****g baby he was. He needed to grow up a f*****g fast if he was messing around with Jonah.

"He is still married, Mitch; remember that!" I was yelling it after him when Buck and Sarah were back, making me feel even worse since she had been crying, and I could see that he had been doing it too. I hated that I got jealous. Buck had never cried in front of me, not even when I was dying or lost the baby, nope. Just Sarah.

"Merry Christmas....." I got up, and Buck sighed, seeing that I was pissed, and followed me, walking out of the house, wanting to go home again. I hate this house.