Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 165

"Yeah, there is more than one fetus...." I flinched hearing Sarah's voice when I was on my back at her clinic like I was a goddam dog who needed to be examined, but this was the best she could make me do since I was refusing to go to a hospital. “Oh, f**k.... F**k, what am I going to tell Buck?!" I was leaning on my elbows, staring at my nemesis or nemesis anymore. I didn't know since Kira, and I had been staying with her for three days. She helped me, Sophia, too, even if she was scared to be alone with me, she hadn't said a word about it, but I knew.

"What about, tell him and then you go to a real maternity ward and get some real help! Listen, I know I'm a veterinarian, but I can't help you through pregnancy, as a matter of fact. I refuse!" Sarah was wiping the cold gel off my body when I didn't want to hear that. I didn't want to go to a f*****g hospital and have them register my pregnancy, and Jonah would know!

"You don't understand, Sarah, please I can't have Jonah finding out and...." I stopped biting my tongue when she stared at me to finish, f**k! I didn't want her to know about that, me f*****g my ex-boyfriend when I called her a whore so many times to her face. "Andrea, I know. Buck told me about what had happened, that you screwed Mitchell's friend on Thanksgiving. I know all along, even before all that shit happened on Kira's birthday...." Sarah got quiet when I didn't say a word, not a damn word. Buck had told her. I closed my eyes, slowly trying to get the courage to look at her again, knowing that she was still staring at me, f**k. F**k!

"Fine, I did it. Go ahead, call me a whore, as a matter of fact... tell me I f*****g deserve this, all of it for being so f*****g stupid and letting that bastard back into my life...." I was sitting up, dizzy from being on my back. Sarah sighed and didn't say anything. Making everything worse.

"I won't." She said that when she helped me get up, me not still want to see her in the eye; so embarrassed that I wanted to die, knowing that I had done precisely the same thing that I had gone crazy over her for.

"You should, you f*****g should... god, why are you so fucking nice to me!?" I frowned, annoyed at her pretty face that was smirking like she didn't know either.

"I don't know... you look lost, and I guess I always had a soft spot for strays..." I made a huff, pulling my hand back from hers, was she calling me a dog!?

"Take it easy, Andrea, don't go all crazy on me again; it's enough. I've been through Buck's worst years, and you have some babies that don't need a stressed mama..." she made another smirk when I was staring at her, my anger gone. I really was lost, wasn't I? I just nodded when she walked out, leaving me alone in the small clinic. I had no idea what to tell Buck, not this time. I was happy that I had more than one baby, but Jonah would go after me even more, he had nothing to lose, and I had everything.

My hands were shaking when I heard the call connecting; it was afternoon, so there was a big chance he wouldn't pick up. I was almost hoping for it when I listened to that deep warm voice that made everything seem so much better just hearing it. "Buck, there is more than one," I said it, just like I had told him everything else, just straight to his face, or over the phone was more like it.

"Andy baby, what are you talking about, more than one?" He was walking, the sounds of different noises finally stopping when he stepped inside, closing the door, and making the silence around him scare me even more.

"I'm saying that it's more than one baby, Buck. Sarah said it's two, two babies buck... what the fuck are we going to do?" I started to cry, and I hated it. I should be happy when I found out I was pregnant, but I wasn't. I wasn't happy overhearing that I was having twins, more scared to death when Jonah was going to steal them away from me.

"Andy, are you shitting with me right now? Are we having twins!?"

He seemed taken back, same as me. He was reacting the way you were supposed to do. He was happy, over the f*****g moon, and here I was sniffling over something that was supposed to be good news to us and not break me down more.

"Yeah, we have twins Bucky. I hoped to God that it's your babies or...." I stopped when the first sob was heard. I hadn't let Buck know I was crying until now. He was probably grinning on the other side, wanting to go out and tell the world, celebrate, and all that other shit that seemed lightyears away for me.

"Andrea, stop. I don't care, I don't care, and you know that. No matter what, there are still our kids, okay? Just like Kira, are you hearing me, baby? I love you." I made a whimper when he was talking slower and more serious, oh god, I loved him too, and that was why this was breaking me apart, not knowing how the father was!

"I love you too... I just want you to come home and... I want these babies to be your Buck, I know you don't care, but I do, I fucking do! What if Jonah takes them from me when they are born!?" I was starting to panic again, getting sick of myself so much. I hated that I was acting insane, scaring Kira, Sophia, and anyone else that could see me. I had to call in sick for work to management, so they didn't fire me for acting insane!

"The fuck he will; Andy is no way he will get away with that. I'm not letting that happen. You hear me, baby. I swear that is not going to happen. I don't care that he is some kind of punk gangster where he is from, this is my hometown, and there isn't one person that wouldn't take up a gun to help if he came here armed to the teeth." I just stared at the wall. Was he serious right now? He was talking like this was a war, but it wasn't. This would end with Jonah winning over me, just like he always did. "Buck... are you kidding me? Why are you talking like that, he is going to court, and he is going to win with his fancy lawyers and all that money that I know he has...." I was leaning down, having my hand on my belly, the bump showing even more since I was losing weight and not eating. This sure was a roller-coaster, being pregnant.

Buck made an amused huff when I said that he didn't believe me, and I knew that, but I did. Jonah wouldn't give up on Kira or these babies if they were his; it wasn't his nature.

"Yeah, no, Andrea, that's not his money, and you know that. Listen, I still pay Mitch and Jared's tuition, along with Sarah, and extra, since they are spending them on every needless shit that a twenty-year-old guy does. Jonah has no money, baby, that's his Ma's, and she doesn't seem keen on having any of you back, isn't she?" He chuckled, hearing me being stunned.

Holy shit, he was right! Buck was fucking right. Jonah didn't have any money, not like he did when I met him since I bet his Ma didn't want him dealing shitty drugs anymore, not when he was supposed to be the next head of her imperial, he was twenty-three, brook, and depended on his mother. Shit.

"Buck, you are fucking genius!" I was saying in awe, I mean it! He was! How the f**k didn't I see that!? Jonah came here alone, not with the hundreds of guys he had at his disposal if Fiona really wanted my babies. The only one with him was the same guy that was always covering his back. Tom.

"Yeah, no.... just been around longer than you have, baby, and you keep forgetting that he isn't that much older than my son. I mean, come on...." Buck's smug voice made me snort, but it felt better than crying, so much better. He was the fucking best. "I know... I know, Buck... I just... I'm scared and don't want to see anyone else die, okay?" I didn't mean to sound so pleading when I said the last part was making Buck lose whatever playfulness he had in a heartbeat.

"I swear, I will do whatever it takes to keep you, Kira, and our twins safe, and you will never have to see that again. What happened, Andrea? That isn't going to happen again, alright?" I was still quiet, just listening to Buck's rough calming voice, making me start to relax. I just wanted to live my life with him in peace and quiet. Was that too much to ask?

"Do you believe me, Andy?" I was holding my breath when I released it, making a nod even if he couldn't see me. Yeah, I heard what he said, and I believed him. I did, no matter what. Buck wouldn't lie to me, which was his best part.

"I believe you, Buck, and I love you." I sounded more like myself when he was happier on the other side, chucking from nowhere to my smile on the other side.

"Andy, we are having twins! That's a f*****g blessing and not something to cry over, sweetheart. I love you, and let's figure shit out along the way. Worked for me all my life...." He stopped when I made a genuine smile this time. Yeah, we would figure it out together. "I love you, Buck; fuck I love you so much... you are the best thing to ever happened to a girl like me." I was still sniffling at Buck's cheerful voice. He was going to boast about us having twins, and I knew it, and I wasn't afraid anymore. We were a team, and Jonah was just a kid that didn't have money to take my baby away.

"Alright, I'm going to be honest, Andrea. I might get out and celebrate tonight since I'm not home. Still, as soon as I return, I'm going to kiss the hell out of those pretty lips you have and make you c*m so hard..." a slight shiver ran down my back hearing that. I would love that, having Buck home and f*****g me so bad.

"I can't wait. The babies and I are waiting for you, daddy..." I made a snicker, hearing Bucks grunt on the other side. I did like to tease him, and he was my other part, my everything.

"You know that I'm the only daddy you ever need..." his voice made me bite my lip. Oh god, I couldn't wait for him to come home and show me what he meant by those words.

"Oh fuck, Buck shit, I don't know if it's the hormones or just you, but I want you right now, all that dick that I love...." I didn't even know how this conversation had gone dirty, but I didn't hate feeling my core clench; all that build-up pressure was begging me to get some release.

"Oh, it's me, no doubt about that, and just you wait, baby, I'm going to come home and make you forget you ever fucked that youngster...." Buck's chuckle was dark now when I gasped again, my core throbbing, omg he had no idea how much I wanted that! "Alright, daddy, see you back home soon..." I made a purring sound to Bucks grunting, feeling the same ache wanting to f**k me so bad. So bad.

"Fuck Andrea, I'm hard as hell, and I'm supposed to be out there and do shit when all I can think about are that naked body of yours that is all mine, shit.... "Buck was making curses that I smirked at, same.

"You do what you need to, baby, and be waiting for you right here, okay? I love you, no go makes that money we need, it's not cheap having two babies...." I made another chuckle that he hummed to. He knew, and that was so great, that he did know everything, not just being a scared kid that didn't know what to do; it made me feel safe.

"Yeah, might have to rob a bank or whatever you do these days, buy crypto like my Harry's kids always talking about...." I smiled at that. Buck was a rock, and nothing could break him, fuck, I loved him even more for that.

"You do that, Bucky, as long as you bring the cash home, I don't care...okay baby, please be safe. I miss you so much...." I sounded longing again; I knew that I was the one who said that he was going to do this, and still, I was the one who needed him as soon as he was gone.

"Love you too, darling, take care of you and Kira and the babies, and ... be nice to Sarah... for me...." Buck sounded serious again when I just made a small guilty yes before telling him I loved him again and hanging up. Shit, we were having twins.