Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 166

"Buck!" I didn't care that I was crazy when he walked out of the truck, looking tired but happy when he saw me. His eyes lit up like he was just as excited to see me as I was him.

"Andy, I pretty knocked up wife.... oh, shit, you have no idea how much I missed you, baby...." I was in his arms, feeling my adrenalin rushing around, getting me even more excited over seeing that big man that was all mine, looking like he was sick of sleeping in a motel just as much as I was sick of being here at Sarah's house, even if we had some mutual understanding, we still didn't love each other.

"I miss you, daddy, all of us did..." I made a purr making Buck chuckle when he kissed me, making me lean back more. Oh, f**k, it felt so good feeling him against me. Three weeks was too long for him to be away, and I would die if he left me that long again! "Yeah, I missed you too, darling.... I love you...." I didn't know what to say back when he kissed me again, this time slower and more instance to my moans already coming out, ignoring the shit out that I knew Sarah was watching somewhere and frowning, well f**k her! she had a boyfriend; that she didn't even have the guts to tell Buck about!

"Daddy!" I was pushed away when Kira came running, having Sophia panting when she was coming up the street. Kira had outrun her?! I didn't know if I was supposed to laugh or be angry. She lost track of a three-year-old, a fast three-year-old. "Kira!" I was sneering when she hugged Buck's leg hard, not even caring about my scolding. She was possessive since all this baby thing came up and all the other shit with Jonah and James.... I sighed, seeing Buck get annoyed, looking up at me when I did another sigh. So, I hadn't been as strict as he was. Big deal?

"Kira Underwood, do we push people?" Buck was down, looking her straight into her eyes when she stared like she didn't know what she did wrong making me bite my lip. I didn't know what to feel. I knew she should push me since I was pregnant and all that, but she was just a kid.

"No." She stared back, fearless, her small lip trembling like she was about to cry when Buck was pinning her down. I would never be able to do that. I mean, come on, she was already about to start crying!

"Buck... please... just...." He switched, looking at me seriously when I stopped. He was tired and didn't want to see that. I knew he felt that way, and I got it, but it was hard for me to make her listen to me. She didn't care when I said something unless I was furious at her.

"That's what I want to hear, princess. You know I love you, but we don't act like that, or I'm not going to give you what I bought for you." Buck sounded sweeter, making me release my breath. Kira looked happier, too; she had missed him just as much as I had.

"A present!?" She was shrieking, already forgetting about being sad when Buck made a pleased nod. Well, look at that, the great and mighty Buck Underwood wasn't made of stone after all.... I made a chuckle that he saw giving me a huff back with a smile, looking at me with his warm gray eye when I was having my arms crossed and looking amused at the big man and small girl that seemed to be just as much fun jumping up and down as he was watching her.

"Yeah, that's right...I got you a present; since mommy told me you told her we are having more babies, I think you deserve something a big sister would have...." He had her hand in his making me choke like I always did when he was talking to her; maybe other people thought I was being ridiculous, but this was everything to me. Kira having a dad that gave a crap about her, even when she wasn't acting perfect? That was more than I could ever hope for. "Buck, omg, is that a bike!?" I was walking after them when he picked up the white and pink bike, which made Kira scream even more, to my own shock. Was she even old enough to do that??

"Yeah, it's a bike, Andy baby; she is a big sister now, so she can do big things....." Buck smirked at my shocked face; I didn't hate it... but a bike? I didn't even remember the last time I didn't do that, probably in a spinning class when I was still married to Ryan. "I want to try it!" Kira was shrieking from the thrill of the new shiny thing when Buck helped her up on it making me take an easy breath seeing that it at least had training wheels thank God! "Buck.... Wow... I just... wow...." I snickered when he was helping Kira, pushing her when she wasn't really paddling, like the spoiled princess she was when I took my phone out. I couldn't miss this moment, nope. I would watch it on repeat for the rest of my life! "Mommy, look!" I was following them in a slow circle with my camera making me cry when Buck looked up, he was so happy when our eyes met, and I dropped the phone. I loved him so much, and he just kept doing things I never even knew I needed. Kira needed so much.

"Kira, let's go show Sophia your new bike!" Buck was telling Kira when she made a nod, going to Sophia, that had kept her distance, making me feel the brutal sting of guilt, she was avoiding me, and she didn't even want to go up to Buck to see him after five weeks because of that, I sucked.

Buck was already walking back to me, helping Kira with the bike that she was showing off, probably when I was smiling, seeing Buck talking to Sophia and hugging her, shit I really needed to apologize for freaking out on her. Didn't I? she wasn't the bad guy here.... So what if she talked to Tom? It wasn't like Jonah wasn't spying on me, and I know he did.

I walked over slowly, not wanting it to seem that I was trying to take their moment. I mean, she needed him to, just as much as Kira, me having no dad with a spine knew that.

"Hey...." I said it carefully when Sophia looked up, her eyes dilating in fear, making me feel even worse, so she was afraid of me than.... And I didn't blame her. I wasn't in a healthy state of mind when that happened... and let's be honest. I still wasn't.

"Hey, Andrea.... Listen, dad, I'm going to go over to one of my friends, and I might stay over and...." She stopped when Buck made a scowl. Yeah, that was not going to happen; even I knew that.

"No. Not after what happened on Halloween, and you were drunk and looked like...." Buck made a gritty noise seeing that Kira was staring up at us, having her bike in her hands, still over the moon that she had a new thing.

"Dad, stop that! Please, I'm not Kira; you can't tell me what to do forever. I'm just going to have a sleepover at Laura and...." I already knew Buck was not going to take that, taking Kira being a brat? Yes. She was still young and innocent, and she worshipped Buck. Sophia wants to be more grown-up? No.

"I said no, Sophia. When did that answer not good enough for you?" Buck was frowning, making that handsome face seem even more pissed off about his daughter wanting to live free and not be in my company.

Sophia was frowning back, making me nervous; this was even worse than Mitch; at least he was submitting. Sophia didn't seem to have that same fear for Buck's parenting.

"I'm not drinking, for God's sake, it was one time, and I wasn't even that drunk! All I want to do is be with my friends and not be a goddam babysitter all the time!" She was raising her voice, making me feel so bad. She was right. That was the worst part. She was a babysitter to Buck and me all the time.

"I don't care! I don't want to find out my daughter been out, getting assaulted or God knows what because she was drunk and ..." I stopped Buck with that line, nope. That was not cool.

"She is not getting into trouble, Buck. She is staying over at her friend's place. Why don't you call their parents and find out, or I bet Sarah has done that already. Right, Sophia?" I looked at Sophia, that was staring back at me, gritting her teeth like she didn't want me to say that, making me raise my eyebrows. So she was getting into trouble then?

"Yeah, yeah... maybe your right, Andy. Did your mom talk to anyone, or do I need to check that?" Buck was making it seem like she was getting into trouble if she didn't tell the truth.

"I tell mom to call." Sophia sounded so Icey that I was shivering, her eyes meeting mine, and she didn't look happy. Oh shit, I made it worse, didn't I?

Buck and I watched the blonde teenager walk away fast, Kira not caring that she was pissed off at her heels. What happened to that sweet girl I saw just a few months back?!

"Andy, thanks... thanks for... helping out..." Buck made an awkward smile when I grinned, forgetting that Sophia was pissed at me, I wasn't her mother, but I did worry for her. she was so young, and if she was talking to Tom... well, let's say I didn't like that, for more than reasons that I was being spied on.

"You're welcome, big daddy...." I made a snicker coming closer, snaking my arms around Buck's strong neck, feeling the bump between us that I had been scared of for so long. Still, now I just felt bliss thinking about it, us becoming parents, again, together. "Fuck.... Why do I love that..." he made a chuckle when I pulled closer and kissed him because he was that. He was the best man in the world and the best daddy I ever could have.

"I love telling you..." I was kissing him gently, feeling his hand on my tiny bump. I was bigger than when he left when he stopped suddenly feeling the small kicks that made me smirk. Yeah, they were kicking, making me lose sleep, just like Kira. Well, she was worse, to be honest.

"Andrea, it's time... no more staling baby, let's go check you up; it's insane that you don't want to go and check yourself. We need to get a grip, I never had two kids at once, and neither have you...." Buck stroked my cheek, making me feel the warmth from his fingertips. Feeling bad, losing my smile to Buck's warm one, showing me that he wasn't backing away from this, not this time.

"Fine.... Fine Buck.... let's schedule an appointment that is not involving me being on a small stretcher made for dogs...." I was trying to be funny, making Buck look more serious. Fine.

"I told you; I don't care. I wouldn't divorce you for having his kids again...., well, I love you, and if that has happened, then it's not the kids' fault.... Okay, baby, we are going to get through this, and I love Kira, you know that, so why wouldn't I love all the babies you give me?" I was already sniveling, my eyes looking at Buck again, his warmness radiant back at me. How the fuck did I ever deserve him?

"Okay, Bucky, I know you told me, and I trust you, baby, I do...." The stiff feeling in my chest was getting softer when Buck looked at me, I was so lost without him, and I didn't care who saw it.

He still had his arms around me, some customers to Sara's practice came out looking at us, but I didn't care. I couldn't give a shit if the whole world saw how much I loved him.

"I love you, Buck," I said seriously and warmly, making him do a smile that told me he knew that and that he loved me back. I was so lucky, he was really the best.

"I love you too, Andy, now... let us go get that appointment...." He was letting me go, taking my hand when we started to walk up to Sarah's house; at least with Buck back, I would go home. Finally.