Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 170

"Buck..." I was blinking when the smell of disinfection already told me I was in the hospital, my mouth cotton dry and the small chough from taking a deeper breath when I felt the hand on mine, lifting it up and kissing it, a sigh of relief that I was finally waking up. "Oh, thank God... finally... I have been so worried for you...." Buck was holding my hand hard and leaning it against his head, making me feel like I wanted to die from the shame rushing through my body. What had happened anyway?! All I remembered was that awful clip of me being naked, and the whole town saw it and laughed at it. I was never going to be able to show my face ever again! "Buck, what happened!? Why the hell am I here? Are the babies okay!?" my other hand went down to the belly strapped over, and I felt myself being able to breathe again and sense the slight movement inside of me, thank God!

"I don't know what happened, you fainted, and I swear I've never been so f*****g scared. You landed on your side, Andy, but what if you hadn't? Our boys aren't ready to be born yet...." Buck looked up at me and had hatred inside his otherwise loving eyes. This wasn't like anything else. I had seen him before, all darkness, and it was scaring the crap out of me.

"I'm fine. Nothing happened. The boys are fine and me too, really Buck...." He made a sneer cutting me off, releasing my hand, making me feel so cold and alone. He was angry, and I didn't blame him, being overprotective and what had happened was his worst nightmare!

"Yeah, this time! What the fuck is happening anyway?! You and I both know that this is that fucking kid that couldn't even keep Kira from crying her eyes out when he was taking her back, she still has nightmares, and you know that, Andy!" Buck was getting up, rubbing his hands on the jeans, and making curses that he wasn't going to hold back on anymore, just like the fact that he was blaming Jonah for something that happened when he wasn't even around!

"Fuck!" He was still trying not to start going into complete darkness on me, and I hadn't said a word, just holding my belly and closing my eyes. I didn't believe that it was Jonah, no way! He was possessive, just like Buck was. He would kill people if they saw me naked, no this was some f****d up revenge, and Buck was too mad to know that I was right!

"It's not him, Buck... please...." I was trying to make him understand that there was no way he could get back at Jonah even if it was him, which I still didn't believe, so he was childish, but this was not the way he would get back at me, nope. He would come over and call me a whore and threaten me, like the f*****g charmer he was.

Buck turned around, raising his eyebrows sarcastically like he couldn't believe what I just said, having his hands on his hips. he looked exhausted, showing me that he had been here for how long he would never leave me. That was the best about him, and he never did. F**k.

"Yeah, right! Then fucking who!? Tell me that Andrea, who the f**k would want to get back at you, and who in their right mind would sneak up on us and...." He stopped when I made a sigh, holding my hands over my face, feeling just as humiliated as before, this was bad, and he knew it too. I was never going to hear the fucking end of this.

Never.

"Buck... let's be honest... does it even matter who f*****g it did? I'm still going to be known as a trashy whore, my life in this town is over, and you know it!" My voice raised just the slightest. I was glad it was just him and me, but I was sure that somewhere, Kira was waiting to come inside, and I didn't want her to hear what I was saying. The awful truth.

"Oh, don't you worry about that, baby! The first person to say anything will fucking know that you are not some whore. You are my wife, you get that right!?" He was still pissed, making big gestures as if it would help, but it didn't. I still felt like one. "You are my wife, and I love you, and the bastard that did this to you, to us... well shit..." Buck was starting to run out of the stamina to be mad, crashing down when I just made a joyless smile, yeah, I was his wife, and that wouldn't change. I didn't want to be around people anymore. Not here, anyway.

"Then what? You can't beat the crap out of everyone in this town, Buck, I love you, and I need you. I can't really go to prison when you promised me that you wouldn't leave me with the babies....." He looked up, powerless, and I got it. He was hurt, too, maybe even more than me. Buck was so dead set on protecting me, and now he had failed. That was my life being screwed over, and I never got used to it.

"Fine. Then we leave." He was looking more determined when my jaw dropped. What!? Did he say that we could leave this town?! Sarah and Sophia, his parent's graves, and his whole history were here!?

"Buck.... Stop... what are you saying that you would leave for me? This is your town, and you love living here, no... I'm not doing that to you. I just...." My words ran out because I didn't know what to do, to be honest, just as much as he didn't.

"Are you telling me that I can't leave this town? Sarah has a new boyfriend; Sophia barely talks to me, and she will be seventeen soon... I don't care anymore. I want to be with you and our kids. My first ones only come back during holidays. Andy, I'm not that stupid that I don't get that they have their own lives, shit I didn't even want to see my mother when I left for college..." he had a sad smile that made my heart clench, f*****g collage, aka killing people.

He was leaning over and sitting down, calming down and leaving with me, making a smile that made me lose whatever maybe I was having in my heart. He was serious. Shit.

"Buck... shit.... This will be hard if we do this; it's not like Kira is a baby anymore, she has friends, and she has never lived anywhere else... I don't know if I want to take her away from her life here....." I was biting my lip when Buck took my hand and kissed it. He was smiling now. I was grateful that he wasn't the one that was going crazy anymore. I was too tired to fight him or anyone else.

"Andy, baby... Kira is three, she has the whole world, and she isn't shy at all. Are you really that worried that she can't make new friends? Shit, that is the least of our worries. The thing we should be focusing on is you. I want you on bedrest and now packing up and doing things that might make you go into labor, I want you and the twins safe, and that's what's going to happen." Buck seemed even more determined when I made a huff, so he was going to do it all on his own, and that was even if we really did that, left his hometown, and moved...... yeah, I didn't know that either.... F**k...

"You can't do it all on your own... Buck..." I was squeezing his hand in mine, he was warm, and I knew he didn't care. He would if he had to, but that was unfair, and it wasn't him that wanted out. No, it was me, and he just picked up his life here and was willing to follow me.

"Watch me...." He chuckled when I did a genuine smile this time. He was crazy, just as I and we were talking about moving away. That still was crazy. It wasn't like that; I just discovered that the guy I loved had married someone else. No, this was more about me not wanting to see people stare at me, talking shit behind my back more than they already did.

"I'm watching you, daddy, but really... Buck... let us think this shit over, I want to see Kira, and I bet that as soon as the doctor comes inside, someone will tell me that I can't leave the hospital just yet...." I made a playful smile at Buck's guilty one. He had probably demanded that the doctor would tell me that, even if I didn't need to. He was so protective like that.

"Yeah... sure... I'm going to talk to Sarah anyway.... Shit, she is never going to believe me...." Buck made a snicker, and I fell into taking his hadn't to my face, stroking against the rough hands. Nobody would believe that Buck Underwood was willing to leave for me. Always visit FindNovel.net for more novels and updates.

"You do that and... as I said... let's not make any plans to sell the house just yet...." I made a small smile when he nodded, this still was a big decision, moving away, and I didn't want Buck to suffer, never. I loved him. "Yeah... let me go get Kira and tell them that you are awake...." Buck got up, kissing my forehead, making me smile again, he was the best guy ever, and I was so lucky that he was mine.

"Alright, Bucky, you go get our baby..." He made a real smile hearing that even if he still wasn't happy about what had happened and that he wanted blood for it. There was no way he could hide that, not from me.