Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 171

"You're what!?" Sarah had been smiling so far when we had dinner at her place, making me sigh. We were always here since she didn't think there was room enough for us over at our house, which was bullshit. She didn't want to come over, and we all knew it. "Well, yeah, we're leaving. Andrea and I are going to move out, not across the country, just somewhere else...." Buck was already frowning like he could see she was not reacting like she wanted people around her too. No, she was getting a wrinkle between her eyes that I had never seen before, making me stop eating or shuffling around the food since I couldn't eat that much, or I would throw it all up again.

"Leaving. What about Sophia? What me?!" I made a scoff. There it was, the truth. Sarah was still depending on Buck, boyfriend or not. I mean, come on, he was going to have twins with me. How much f*****g time was he going to have for her anyway after he was trying to talk to Sophia?

"Sarah... you got a new man and.... well, I'm married to Andrea, and I need to go with her. I thought you would understand that?" it was breaking my heart seeing Buck, he really didn't know that she was so scared for him to leave her, and I got it. They had grown up here, and I bet she hadn't spent a day without Buck, even when he was leaving her.

"You're really leaving?" Sophia was standing in the doorway holding Kira, who looked sad too, not because she was in on us moving. Still, we all were low, and she just followed. Sophia looked different, like she had forgotten what innocence was like. All she wanted was to grow up, even if her hard makeup didn't fit her face right now, looking lost and like she wanted to cry, the same as her mother.

"Yeah..." Buck looked crushed, making me feel sick, giving up entirely on eating, not that anyone had done that since Sarah served, not even Buck, so then you know it wasn't good.

Sophia didn't say anything, just walked away, making Buck get up, and I didn't stop him. How could I? he was clearly suffering about this decision, no matter what he was telling me. This was his home, and I was taking it away from him.

"You did this, didn't you?" I shifted my eyes back to Sarah when she leaned back, looking exhausted when I wasn't saying a word, just feeling my twins inside of me, thanking God that Buck wasn't giving up on me, no matter what he was going through. "Yes... I can't be here anymore...." I didn't care to explain; she was there, and she knew what had happened. I don't think she would have wanted to stay if someone had shown the whole town her perfect a*s.

"You know what? I'd need a drink...." I nodded, following Sarah, that was leaving the room, making me frown more. Why did she need to leave the room? Don't tell me she had a fucking wine cellar. Knowing her and Buck's willingness to do anything for her wasn't impossible.

She had been gone for ages; all of them had. Not even Kira had come back to keep me company when I was cursing, trying to get up when I was big as a f*****g truck around my belly; it looked ridiculous, and I couldn't wait to not be pregnant anymore. My phone was going off when I looked at it bored, thinking it was some stupid notification I didn't care about when it was Jonah making me frown. What the f**k did he want now? We hadn't talked since he gave Kira back to Buck, and to be completely honest, it was better like this. His being near me was confusing and made me doubt my whole existence.

"I just found out you are fucking pregnant, Andrea! What the fuck!?" I dropped the glass making a small shriek when the message was loud and clear. Jonah knew!

"What is happening!?" Sarah was back, stumbling the slightest, holding a box that made me forget about the wine cellar seeing her ordinary glass filled to the brim with cheap white wine, oh great so now, when I couldn't fucking drink, she wasn't so f*****g snotty with her wine!?

"Nothing, absolutely fucking nothing!" I was sneering it back, not giving a shit that she didn't deserve it, trying to get drunk five in the afternoon, and me being a bitch from nowhere, surprise! That was my real personality!

"Good.... Because you know.... I hate you..." she was mumbling it into her glass, drinking again when I chuckled slightly. Oh yeah, well, she wasn't my favorite person either. No matter what happened, she had fucked Buck when he was engaged to me!

"Is that why you fucked Buck, huh?" I was smirking now, and she dropped her own one. She would know by now that I wasn't the one to back down, especially when it came to my husband, I loved him, and she was a fucking thorn in my side all the time. Even when we tolerated each other, I had to since they had kids. Oh god, I wished that Buck had been single his whole f*****g life before meeting me. That would have made everything so much easier!

"Well....no...no... I fucked him because I was sad, and I know him, you know?" Sarah was still standing up, same as me, when I felt even more annoyed, I knew I was the one that had brought it up, but her defense sucked. She still loved him, didn't want to get a divorce, and even I could figure out that she would always wait for him to come back, boyfriend or not!

I didn't want to hear it anymore, and it was pointless to argue with her. She was getting drunk, and I wished I could be that too and my husband was back from talking with Sophia. I hated being in this house; every time I was here, something bad happened to me; as I said, it was cursed, all of it!

"I just wanted him back.... Okay.... That's the truth... now you know... I wanted him back, and that's why... fuck..." she was tipping the glass back, making me frown, already having my phone in my hand but stopping again, seeing that she looked guilty now. She did ******g what!?

"What the fuck did you do then, SARAH!?" I was gritting my teeth, prepared for the worst, that she was the one that had told Jonah I was pregnant. Nothing would surprise me at this point, and I couldn't f*****g trust anyone except for Buck.

She made a snicker, shaking the box when I just followed her walk past me and started to pour more wine into the glass and just made a snicker again as she thought of something funny. Trust me, nothing was funny for me standing here, being forced away from the only safe place I had known my whole life, taking Buck away from his home, and having Jonah that was breathing down my neck, oh he was coming now when he knew I was knocked up, there wasn't a doubt about that.

"I didn't plan on it.... I didn't plan to do it. I just ... saw Mitchell's phone, and I did it, okay? It was me, not him... oh god... Buck is going to hate me. I didn't want him to leave me..." she was staring at the floor before raising her eyes, flooded with tears like that would make me feel sorry for her, but they fucking didn't! "Do you know what it feels like, seeing someone that you love so much, being happy with someone else?! Well, do you, Andrea?" she had a bitter tone, in the end, drenched in sarcasm, making me feel sick, I did know how that felt, and still, I didn't do that shit. She f*****g sold me out. Mitch was involved, too. Well, of course, he f*****g was that a*****e!

"You know what, I don't care why you did it, and Buck loves me. When the fuck are you going to get that, Sarah, me, and nobody else!" Buck was getting inside, having Kira in his arm, dropping whatever smile he had on his handsome face seeing me yelling and Sarah crying. Yeah, it looked back. I was always the f*****g villain somehow when she was around!

"Andy, you don't need to yell at her... shit, we all are sad about leaving, isn't that right, princess?" He was giving me a scowl before giving Kira a smile that was looking at me before her eyes shifted towards Bucks and lighted up; if someone had told me this the first time she kicked him, I would have laughed in their face, but there it was. She worshipped him, maybe even the most of all his kids.

"Oh, I'm sorry! I didn't know that I couldn't fucking yell at the bitch that made sure I couldn't show my face in this town anymore, and you know why?! because she loves you!" I was sick of this, Buck always had one weakness, and it was her, and there was no way around it. He loved me, but in some weird way, Sarah always beat me, even when she wasn't trying.

"Kira, you want to play with mommy's phone?" Buck's jaw was stiff when Kira made a happy face, already down. I was handing it over, not missing a beat of stroking Kira's head when she was wandering off, still pinning down Buck with my angry eyes; if he defended Sarah for this, well f**k... then I didn't know what to feel.

"Sarah, I know you can't lie since you are drunk. Did you show Andy and me fucking on the screen?" I was still grinding my teeth when Sarah looked up, sniffling still, and her pretty face was destroyed, her perfect makeup and oh-so-fine clothes stained from wine, well, at least it was f*****g white!

"Yeah... yeah... I'm just... I'm sorry... Buck... please... this isn't how it was supposed to be...." Sarah started to cry again, seeing Buck's face get a hard sigh that resulted in a deep scowl. Oh, so he could get mad at her then, well, good! I was having my arms crossed, feeling the movement of my twins, when Buck made another sigh, scratching his head like he didn't know what to do about this. I knew she was supposed to get a scolding, at least!

"Buck.... What are you...." I was staring at him when he didn't move when Sarah was coming closer, throwing herself into his arms and he just patted her like that was okay. No, it f*****g wasn't! that was not okay for me!

"Are you fucking kidding me right now? You are what?! Forgiving her!? She ruined me, Buck, and you are holding her like this is fine, like this is normal, it's not!" I was screaming now, not giving a shit about what was ahead, f**k him, f**k him so hard, giving me a suffering face like he knew something I didn't, and surprise! I never did!

"She can't help it.... please... shit Andy, she really can't..." I was done when he said that. she could take some f*****g responsibility for what she had done. How about that!?

"Can't fucking help being a bitch or what!?" I still didn't move when Sarah was burrowing her head into Buck's chest, and I knew the moment he let her that she had won, that bitch!

"Andrea, for once, listen to me. She can't help it! I know you don't get that, but this is why I have a hard time leaving this town, not just me living here all my life." Buck was pleading with me with his eyes, trying to make me understand, but I couldn't, not when he was f*****g stroking her back. I felt so goddam betrayed that I wanted to puke!

"I can't fucking hear this shit anymore. I'm leaving and if you want to be on her side, then so be it, Andrew!" He made an even sadder face hearing me call him that, yeah that was right; if he was using Andrea on me, then I wasn't going to call him anything but his real name either since he was fucking holding back shit from me all the time, and we had kids!

"I'm not on anyone's side, Andy, please!" Buck was cursing, trying to pry Sarah off him, when she held him back, making me snort. Well, at least she was an honest drunk. That's why she never even had one glass of wine since she would be all over Buck once it was on her tongue.

"Kira, we're going home!" I yelled it over the house when she didn't answer, making me curse; of course, she didn't. She only answered when Buck called. He had f*****g turned my own daughter against me, traitors all of them!

"Kira, you got three seconds to get down before I swear to god that I will...." I stopped when Buck was coming out, and he looked pissed now. He didn't like it when I just left, but what the fuck did he expect from me to stay here and sing kumbaya with Sarah!? "Andy, you are not leaving, and that is it, Kira. Get back inside!" He looked up and saw Kira on the phone, and she looked at us like she knew what was breaking my heart. I did that, and I saw that she knew that Buck and I were fighting again. Oh god... "Don't tell her what to do!" I was losing Kira's face when the rage was boiling over me again. He forgave her, he fucking forgave her the second she confessed, and I was the one that was suffering! I was the one that was naked on that screen, and let's face it, who in this fucking town hadn't seen Buck naked!? He had nothing to lose, and I was the one that had to turn the other cheek!? No f*****g way!

"Why not!? I'm her daddy, and you are not telling me otherwise. Don't you even dare bring up that bastard! I can't take that, not right now!" Buck was holding his whole hand against me, making me feel even more pushed away. Why was he acting like I was running away from him!? I just wanted to go home and not be in the company of a crying traitorous bitch. He knew that!

"I want to go home, Buck!" I was staring back at him. He was so angry, I mean it. I don't think I had seen him like this before like Sarah was opening up an entirely new personality that I didn't know. I wanted my Buck back!

"I don't want you to do that, I need to get some fucking control over Sarah, or she is going to do something stupid, and I can't risk you being alone at home, don't you get that?! I need to handle this, Andy before it gets worse!" He stared at me like I would get what he was talking about. I didn't. I never did!

"Before what gets worse, Buck!?" I was panting from the brutal pain in my head creeping up from all the anger making my stomach cramp up. He clearly wasn't sharing everything with me, that selfish bastard! "Sarah, she had drinking problems......."