Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 176

"Buck...." I was still sobbing when a soft knock was heard in my small room. This was the worst day of my life, Buck was gone, and I was all alone again.

I tried to make sense of what he told me, but it didn't! It made me more confused that he would walk away from me!? He loved me, and I knew that, so why was he acting like this!? I was still turning slowly around in the bed, trying to get the strength to see the person who had come inside, praying that it was Buck that had made up his mind and stopped acting like a f*****g dickhead and taken back that stupid ring on the bed table! "Andrea......" I flinched hearing that dark voice. That wasn't Bucks...making me wail more... no it was Jonah... oh god! I didn't turn when he was still standing there, waiting for me to stop crying. That would never happen. My husband just told me he wanted a divorce, just like Ryan had done, not giving a shit that I was begging him to not let go!

“F**k off...... please just f**k off...." I mumbled it between my shallow breaths, squeezing the blanket in my hands. My stomach hurt, even more every time I made an awful crying sound that made me even more exhausted than I already was.

"No, I'm not f*****g off, we need to have this f*****g talk, and then we are going over to see our sons." He sounded so f*****g proud in the end. Was he proud of them? Or of himself for f*****g me when I still was married to Buck?!

"I'm not leaving Andrea. You better turn around and face me because I am not going anywhere...." He was still standing there, me shaking my head at his words, no! I wanted to be left alone and die. Didn't he understand that!? He had his f*****g wife, and I was all alone again!

"Fuck you!" I sneered it, turning too fast, making me do a small yelp from the intense ache throbbing in my stomach. What the fuck had they done to me anyway? They cut me open with a damn chainsaw and stitched me back up!?

I was staring at the big scar over my stomach, it was covered in bruises, and it looked more like someone had tried to kill me than take out the babies. Jonah followed my eyes, doing a small face of pain, too, as it would help me. Nothing would help me, he the least of all things!

He didn't say anything, sitting down next to me in the small bed, looking tired, like everything had come crashing down on him too. Well, wasn't that cute, what!? Didn't his mommy want him to be here and see me? Was that it!?

"You can tell me to fuck off all you like, but the truth is, Andrea, that I am f*****g here, and he is not...." Jonah pronounced my name like he wanted me to understand how fucked I was, having only him to depend on again.

I didn't know if I was supposed to laugh or cry hearing that because it was the truth. I was back where I started, in Jonah's mercy. He was holding all the cards where I had nothing, an empty hand with the responsibility to ensure my kids didn't suffer... oh god, Kira... I started to cry again, she must have been so scared, and I had no idea where she was!

"Where is Kira!?" I grabbed Jonah's arm, squeezing it, looking desperately at his handsome face. He had a shadow of a beard, but he still seemed so fucking prim and proper that momma's boy. I bet he didn't take a step without her knowing where he was these days. He probably had guys standing outside this door, waiting for the signal to take me out if I did something wrong.

"She is safe, Andrea... what the fuck do you take me for? She is my kid, and I care for her, just like you....." He made a smile, in the end, making me whimper, but not because I was happy or safe. No, I was a fucking prisoner. I knew it the second he was taking me back to that mansion along with my children. I was never leaving again unless it was in a body bag.... I started to breathe faster, the panic taking over me, the face of James staring back at me dead, making me want to start screaming, just like I always did when it was haunting me.

"Andrea! Look at me, just fucking look at me, I love you, and you are going to be safe, I swear!" Jonah was holding his hands over my face, cupping it, and looking at me like when I was in that stupid elevator; it was like that. I couldn't breathe, and my body was shaking. I was going to die, and my kids were going to be brought up by some girl who hated them for even existing!

"No! No, you are fucking lying. You always lie, and you do!" I was still shaking my head, trying to catch my breath from the hard inhalations. It was so fucking hard to accept that I was abandoned, and the person that was telling me that I was safe had held a gun against my face the last time I saw him!

"I'm not fucking lying, and what's that kind of crap!? I never lied to you!" Jonah was making frowning when I couldn't stop the slight mocking laughter that came with his righteous face. He really believed that bullshit, did he? He was the worst liar in the whole world! "Not telling the truth is fucking lying too. Don't the fucking teach you that in church!?" I was still cackling, sounding just as pathetic and chaotic as I felt. I would never let Jonah take care of me, never again!

Jonah scowled more when I was smirking back, and it felt so good because I knew he hated all that he did, and there was no way he was going to suck me into believing he had good intentions for the kids or me. That was all just f*****g bullshit! "Andrea shut the fuck up for once!" He was up now, pacing angrily to the door when I flipped him off, and damn, that felt good too, and I didn't even care that it was immature or made him angrier. I owed him nothing, absolutely nothing.

"You give me back, Kira, Jonah! Oh, and if that wife of yours even comes near one of my kids, I'm going to make sure she feels it. You get that?!" I was shouting it behind him when he made a huff like he got it and slammed the door like the immature jerk he was. Take care of me!? Yeah, that was not happening. I had made it on my own with Kira, and I sure as hell would make it this time around, too, no matter what. Jonah and his family were not getting my kids. Otherwise, I would kill them.