Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 177

I was watching them, that's all when I was still sitting here, from my bedside, staring down at the two small infants that were snuggled together, and I couldn't be prouder. There was mine, and I wanted to do anything for them.

"Soon babies, we are going home and... we will make it alone..... Again..." I sighed, not wanting to cry anymore; it felt like that's all I had been doing since I woke up, Buck told me he wanted a f*****g divorce, and Jonah... yeah, he was not backing away either, not this time it seemed when I already had gotten the papers, claiming shared custody with I had thrown across the room, I didn't want some f*****g shared custody! Not with him or anyone else, I only had myself to trust, and I was not going to give in and let Jonah take care of me.

That train had passed, and ... I made a sigh staring at the carriers that I somehow had made Buck bring. He didn't come inside the room, just left them and walked away, that f*****g heartless bastard! I wanted to stop crying over him, he broke my heart, and he didn't care that I was alone, nobody did, and it was time that I accepted that.

"Shit!" I was holding my stomach, trying not to fall over the carrier, putting the first boy inside. He was staring around, looking so adorable I wanted to cry. There was nobody around to see him, just his brother and me, that was waiting for me to come and pick him

up.

"Don't you know you're not supposed to carry heavy things right now?" I looked up, surprised to see the grinning man walking inside like he had any business being here when he didn't, making me frown at his arrival.

"Tom, what the hell are you doing here?" I was tired when he made a bigger grin, showing the small girl that came to the speed of a racecar and attacked me, making me curse even more when I felt her arms around my neck and the sweet scent that was the best in the world. Kira.

"Mommy! I missed you; did you miss me!?" she was riled up when I started to cry, not giving a shit that Tom saw me. He had seen me cry so many times that he should get an award for it just standing there and staring at us like he was enjoying this just as much as I

was.

"Yeah, I miss you so much!" I was still hugging her hard, ignoring the pain that was still making me clench my teeth. This was going to be complicated, no matter how I did it.

"Here, let me help you." Tom was pulling me up effortlessly, making me do a small smile, okay so I didn't hate that he was here, even if he was a traitor that only was here to spy on me for Jonah when he had to be back and be his Mas good boy and loving husband no doubt.

"Thanks...." I wanted to say more, but Kira was around. She was getting way too smart for me to talk about her useless father around her, especially now since she had been spending time with him more, knowing how he was.

"Sure... sure Pretty, let's just get you back home to that house, and we can get your things and...." I raised my eyebrows, hearing Tom talking all that nonsense. He wanted me to do what? Leave my life all alone, with three small kids that had a life that I had built up from scratch, just so that Jonah could have an easier time taking them from me when he saw fit? No way!

"Yeah, no, Tom, I'm staying...." I made a sigh crossing my arms and looking down at Kira. What choice did I have, really? Did I want to leave? Yes. Was it a lot of fuckin hassle and uprooting Kira from the only place she ever called home? Yes. Was my house still mine and not that f*****g backstabber of a soon-to-be ex-husband of mine, yes.

So, the easy answer was, fuck people that saw me naked. I was staying.

"But Jonah said...." He seemed confused when he was scratching that bushy beard was making me sigh again. Yeah, I know what Jonah said, and he wasn't my boss. He could claim custody all he liked, but in the end, I was still their mother, and I had a life here, even if I didn't have a husband or daddy for them anymore.

"I'm not running, not this time. I don't have a psycho after me, more than that stupid boss of yours that is...." I stopped seeing Kira stare at me, analyzing every word, knowing that she was probably memorizing them so that she could tell him exactly everything the next time she saw Jonah.

"Oh...he is not going to like that, Pretty; you know how he gets when you fight back..." I made a huff when Tom smirked. He liked that I was fighting Jonah, always was, even when I didn't realize it back when I met him, giving him quite the challenge instead of just letting him roll all over me. I wasn't the same woman anymore. I wasn't.

"Yeah, I know... you know what, Tom, I don't care... I just don't... let him come and say whatever he wants and... yeah...." I stopped staring at the baby, that was starting to cry. This was what Jonah missed when he was only here when he had time, Kira and the boys being my top priority but not his, and I knew that.

"I'm sorry for lying, and.... well, you know that I can't really go against Jonah. I mean, his family pays mine and...." I nodded, picking up the second boy feeling even more awful not naming them, I didn't want any of the names me and Buck had talked about, and now I am starting from scratch, fastening in the small boy in the carrier that Tom had given me not even thinking twice about it.

"I forgive you." I meant it when our hands touched the slightest, and he was looking even better. That had been weighing him down, and I knew it more than him being around to kill James. Whatever illusion I had about Tom was gone by now. He was no better than Jonah, he didn't enjoy being mean, but the rest, he had no problem doing it.

"My daddy says you always should say sorry and become friends again. Ain't that right, mommy?!" Kira was happy when my own smile died out, seeing hers when she was jumping up and down at the stop before Tom picked her up, seeing my face become dead. Yeah, Buck did tell her that. F**k.

I was feeling all my air getting away from me like I couldn't breathe even thinking about him, my life was a mess, and he had done just what Jonah had, cut and run, when he figured out that it wasn't his child I was carrying.

"Kira...." I was tired when Tom picked up both carriers for me, and I couldn't be more grateful to him than I already was, he always, always did the things that Jonah was supposed to do for me and for us, and he never complained, never.

"He is an idiot, but he seems like a good guy... I mean... better then.......you know..." Tom made a weird smile when the babies had been packed inside his car, and Kira was singing in the backseat looking at them. She was a proud big sister if anything else. That made me feel so fucking proud of her. She had come a long way, and it was Buck who had started that... I still didn't know how I would get over him....

"Yeah.... Please don't talk about them. I want to get home and live my life the way it was meant, alone." He made another weird smile helping me up, making me annoyed. I hated when he didn't tell me shit. That part of me was not that patient anymore. I wanted to know if he knew something I didn't.

"Well, sure.... I can be quiet if you don't want to know what Fiona did...." I gasped at hearing that name. What the fuck was he talking about, that smirking bastard? What did that bitch do!?

"Tell me right fucking now, or I swear to god Tom!" I was panting when he smirked more, knowing that I was going to get more upset. I mean, he knew me, he did, and I was just about to start shaking his arm desperately when he pulled out the paper from the side of his driver seat, giving it to me, looking sly.

"I told you I love you like sister pretty, and money aside, I always protect family first...." I stared down at the paper, making me gawk. My heart rate was going through the roof. It took my everything not to start screaming at the sight of the simple form in my shaky hands right now!

"Tom, I'm going to fucking kiss you, and you are not going to stop me!" I was giggling when he started to chuckle, turning on the engine and driving off, having me stills squealing from the paper that I couldn't stop staring at; it was a f*****g miracle!