First Love Of The Alpha -
Chapter 55
Maureens POV
I felt guilty leaving Landyn like that. I knew it wasn’t his fault. He didn’t know what he was.
I just couldn’t help but feel angry at myself. If I didn’t have this need for revenge I wouldn’t of ever met Louise and I wouldn’t of ever felt the need to help them for my owns selfish needs and then I wouldn’t have ever met Landyn and learned the truth.
Fate is a funny thing. I knew I was meant to meet them and that this was my destiny or path I was meant to take.
I got from being alone to the possibility of having an instant family. I just wasn’t sure if they would accept me.
From what I’ve heard about Lily and the little spoken on the phone, I could see myself liking her and getting along.
She didn’t know our father either. She left when she was little and had no memories. Maybe this would make it a little easier on both of us.
I teleported to the waterfall. I wasn’t exactly sure why I even came back here. I sat on a broken down tree just watching the water flow.
I couldn’t help but feel angry towards my mother for not telling me. But then again, Lily’s mom did something similar to her. It was all out of love and the need to protect us. Except I didn’t feel protected now. Least not since Landyn left.
I should have driven them, I was horribly for letting them leave in wolf form. They must be so upset with me. I wonder how they got the potions back.
I sat there for what seemed like forever, but in reality, it had only been about three hours or so. I decided to head back to coven to pack my things. So I could teleport into the pack undetected.
I teleported to the tree line and headed back inside when I was cut off by Silas.
“You little b***h, you had all this power and you kept if from me.”
He startled me. “What are you rambling about.”
“We were beloveds, and you never told me you could teleport and kill like that.”
“Why would you possibly think I was the one that killed them and not Landyn?”
He gave me a knowing look. “Their bodies were practically melted. We both know magic is involved. Your little wolf wouldn’t be capable of doing something like this. Him tearing limbs, sure. But definitely not something like that.”
I gulped. “Why does it even matter to you what I do?”
“I wouldn’t have rejected you if I knew you were going to be this powerful witch.”
“Oh wow, that’s nice to know that I would only be worthy of your love if I was gifted. So me being powerful and gifted would have made you forget about what my family did, but the fact that we were beloveds couldn’t help you get past what happened?”
“It would have helped, yes.”
“Wow. okay. I don’t even know how to respond to that.”
“Maureen, I’m not really understanding why you’re the one that’s mad.”
I was livid now. “I had no say in what my family did or how everything happened. You blamed me when I was in shock and hurting, too. We both lost our mothers that day, but I lost way more than you, and it didn’t seem to matter to you other than the fact that I was related to them. “
“I just couldn’t look at you, okay? When I saw you, I saw your dad, your uncle, hell, even your brother.”
I was confused now. “My brother was dead long before that day.”
“If he just accepted the rogue kings offer, your uncle wouldn’t have gotten involved. Your uncle was evil, and he took things too far, always.”
“I can’t keep talking about this.”
“Okay, good, so can we move on and talk about getting back together already.”
I shook my head. “Wait, what?… No.”
He looked really surprised. “Why, you should be honored that I’m willing to take you back.”
I couldn’t help but think of Landyn. “You wanna know why?…..It’s because I don’t want to be with someone out of obligation or to gain something from it. I want to be with someone thay makes me weak in the knees and makes my brain foggy, so I can’t think straight. Somone who isn’t ashamed of me, and that can’t keep their hands off me because the moment they do, they miss my touch. I want someone thats k**s makes me melt into them to the point I forget to breathe.”
He looked disgusted. “That’s not real, Maureen, and this isn’t a movie. Us being back together would be what’s best for the coven. We were always supposed to lead together.”
“Yeah, we were supposed to do a lot of things, and you threw it all away, not me. I can’t take you back, Silas, and I won’t. Now that I know what’s out there, I want more.”
“You mean you want a mutt?”
“Maybe, I’m honestly not sure. But I do know that you’re not it, but I’m willing to go find it.”
“Silas, I gotta go. I’m late for something.”
I heard him yelling behind me. “Maureen, Maurren! You can’t just walk away from me, away from us. We were made for each other.”
A few days ago, I would have believed every word he said and took him back in a heartbeat.
After meeting Landyn, I knew I deserved more, I deserved to be loved like you see in the movies. Why it was never allowed openly at the coven I would never understand, but I knew I was leaving and never coming back again. This time, I’m taking everything that’s important, so I never will have to step foot across this threshold again.
I tossed a large suitcase on my bed and tossed all the clothes i left behind and all my shoes, I grabbed another and started putting my mother and fathers keepsakes and pictures and another and last I grabbed a duffle bag and emptied out what was left in my bathroom. Lastly, I grabbed the throw blanket that Landyn and I had been sharing that belonged to my mom.
I checked my phone to see the picture that Landyn had sent, and I was about to teleport when I heard a knock on my door. I was going to ignore it when I heard Marvin’s voice.
“Maureen, you don’t have to open the door. I just wanted to say I love you, kiddo, and I wish you nothing but the best. Just don’t be afraid to reach out. I want to hear about all the wonderful things you will accomplish.”
I felt tears form to my eyes, and I ran and opened the door, wrapping him in a hug. He kissed my forehead. “Now, go, you were destined to do great things.” He must already know what I just found out.
I grabbed my luggage and closed my eyes, and pictured the room that Landyn just sent me.
When I opened my eyes and heard a loud squel and what sounded like a plate shattering.
I look down and see glass and what looks like the remains of cheesecake. But what shocked me was a pair of wolf slippers next to the mess. I could help give a slight grin.
When I looked up, I saw a beautiful, violet eyed girl with a perfectly swollen stomach, and I knew it was Lily. This must be her room. I shook my head. Landyn must have done this intentionally.
I was nervous to know what she must have been thinking of all of this.
She pulled me in a tight hug. For a pregnant girl, she sure could move quickly. “I’m so excited you’re here. I’ve been waiting a little anxiously to meet you.”
I heard a man’s voice I didn’t recognize. ” Really Lil, a little doesn’t even describe it. She was trying to take a nap, and she couldn’t even lay still or be quiet long enough to fall asleep. She just kept asking Landyn questions about you.”
Lily beamed up at the man that I now assume is Myles, and my oh my is that man huge. I thought Landyn was huge. This man had biceps on top of his biceps. On top of that, he had a couple inches in height on Landyn, which I never thought could be possible.
Lily saw me gawking. “I know he’s huge, right?” She seemed so chill about it.
“You’ll get used to all the huge men. But Landyn and Myles are the biggest, so it should be easier from here on out.”
I looked around the room. Part of me was hoping he would be here when I arrived.
“He’s not here. He couldn’t wait any longer and had to go into a meeting with Ben before my hoax birthday party.”
Myles smiled at me. “You okay if i put your luggage in our closet for now. When this is all over with we will get you your own room.”
“That would be great, just be careful with the smaller one it has some my mom’s and dad’s stuff in it and pictures. “
“No problem, I’ll be gentle.”
Lily pulled me with her to their couch and plopped down, pulling me with her. She took both my hands into hers. Her voice was soft and genuine. “How are you doing with all of this?”
“It’s a lot. Mostly relieved, though. I felt so alone for so long. After it all sunk it, I got excited about the possibility of having a family again.”
She smiled brightly at me. “Well, you’re about to get a whole bunch. They’ll have your back till the end if you give them a chance. I’m just warning you, my best friend Amber, she’s a wild one. The complete opposite of me, actually. but we level each other out.”
I heard Myles yell from the closet. “More like you keep her in line.”
She smiled.”Yes, sometimes that too. She’s not scared of much. She threatened to slice Ben’s weiner off and called him a coward in front of the whole pack, and it was his welcome home party.”
Her eyes bulged out. “She didn’t?”
“Yeah, everyone seems to be on good terms now. We’ve all had a really rough time with everything. “
“Louise told me a little, but I would love for you to fill me in on the rest.”
I saw Lily’ eyes beam. I think she was enjoying this as much as I was.
I kept getting a small indulging scent of vanilla and sandalwood. I looked around, trying to figure out where it was coming from.
Lilly looked at me confused. “What’s wrong.”
“Oh, I was trying to figure out where the smell of vanilla and sandalwood was coming from. I love candles, so I was trying to see if that’s what it was.”
Lily looked shocked and concerned all in one. “Did you say vanilla and sandalwood?”
“Yeah, why? Is it not a candle?”
“No, it’s not a candle.”
Myles sat down in of the chairs by there fire place. I think they were linking each other because it was awkwardly quiet.
I looked between the two of them. “Everything okay?”
“Oh yes, sorry, we were just trying to figure something out.”
“Okay, is everything alright. “
“Yes, I just forgot about something I had to do real quick before I have to start getting ready for tonight. Are you okay with hanging out with Myles for a minute till Louise gets up here?”
“Yeah, I’m okay with that.” She was acting really odd.
She got up, and Myles kissed her forehead. “Good luck, baby.”
Now, I was even more confused.
Bens POV
I knew Landyn wanted to wait for Maureen to get here, and I tried to respect that, but I was getting anxious for him and our dad to speak.
We were running out of time, and in case something happened tonight, I wanted them to clear the air and have this moment for all of our sakes.
I walked back to Lily’s and Myles room. Lily answered the door in black wolf slippers. I couldn’t help but laugh at how adorable she was. “What the hell are you wearing?”
“Yeah, Amber gifted me these as a gag gift. She thinks she so funny, but I tried them on to be funny, and they are actually weirdly comfortable. Now don’t sham me.” She pointed her finger at me.
I just smiled and put my hands up in surrender. “I wouldn’t dare.”
“Come on in. Are you joining the Call of Duty game while we wait? I’m apparently not allowed to play anymore. “
I heard Landyn yell. “Yeah, because you cheat.”
She leaned in close. “I don’t cheat. I’m just weirdly good at the stupid game, and there are a bunch of babies. “
“I didn’t know you knew how to play.”
“Yeah, Myles, Conner, and Brody taught me how to play in high school as a distraction.”
“Distraction? Distraction from what?”
Her face reddened, and she put her head down.
“I’m sorry.”
“A distraction from me after i left?”
She nodded. My heart was aching. I hate myself for how much pain I caused her, and it killed me inside.
I brushed my thumb on her cheek. “Don’t be sorry. It’s okay. I was just curious.”
I walked over to Landyn. “We really need to go talk him we don’t have much time.”
Lily spoke. “I’ll wait here, Landyn. Just go, you should talk to him.”
Landyn shrugged his shoulders, not really wanting to leave. I don’t think he would have if it wasn’t for Lily
He followed me out, and we headed to our fathers office.
Landyns POV
Ben knocked, and he opened the door. He didn’t even wait for his response.
What i saw before my eyes was a broken man. He looked rough and like he hadn’t shaved in a week. His office smelled of stale alcohol and old cheese.
He seemed to beam when he saw me. “I’m happy that you’re back.”
Wait, what? This man wasn’t known for being nice. He gestured for me and Ben to sit, so we did.
He seemed nervous. “Landyn, after tonight, I would like to address the pack about you being my son. If that’s alright, by you? But before the battle tonight, I least wanted it to be in written form in case something were to happen to any of us. That way, the pack would know you would be next in line for the alpha position. “
I was stunned. “I wasn’t never meant to be an Alpha, and you certainly don’t have to put that out there for my sake. I’m really happy where I’m at.”
“I want to, Landyn. Also, because you can’t take over as Alpha without a Luna and Ben has decided not to take a chosen mate. This was his suggestion.”
I look over at Ben, who looked as rough as his dad. I didn’t realize he was hurting to the extent. I heard his thoughts earlier, but to purposely not take a mate and to not become Alpha was huge.
“So you’re asking me to be Alpha either way? I’m not sure how that will work with me being Lily’s guardian.”
Ben nodded. “I talked to Lily and Myles while you were gone. If things go right with the battle. Lily’s not sure if she wants to go to the palace, at least not anytime soon. If her dad is okay, she’s going to see if he will rule least for a while. She’s happy here, and she wants to stay with the family she’s created, and that’s here.”
I sat quiet for a moment, trying to process everything. “You’re saying Lily would rather give up her title to be a gamma female for a while?”
“That’s exactly what I’m saying. When have you ever known Lily to want power. She just wants to be happy, and she’s happy right now, even with all things considering. She and I got in a good place where she doesn’t feel like she has to leave now. But only if it’s safe for her to stay.”
“You’re both completely serious, aren’t you? Ben, your whole life, you wanted to be Alpha. Why not try to find a mate?”
He got tears in his eyes. ” I don’t deserve one. Not what after I did to Lily and even Louise. They are both happy, and I can live with that. I’m okay, being alone…. I just can’t see loving anyone but her. I’m not ever going to try to get in the way of her and Myles. I’m not a complete i***t. If being her friend is all I can have, then that’s enough for me in this life.”
I hadn’t realized how depressed he was. I don’t think anyone knew to the extent of how much he was beating himself up. Except maybe Amber, but she wasn’t saying anything. She just watched him with sadness and worry in her eyes. He did seem truly happy while talking and sitting by Lily. I guess all he could do was love her from a distance.
“Ben, I’m so sorry. If this is what you need from me, of course I’ll do it. But just know this is your title. I’ll step down whenever you want it or are ready.”
He nodded. “Thanks, do me a favor, and don’t tell anyone about any this just yet.”
“I understand, no problem.”
We signed the paperwork acknowledging my place now in the pack. Alpha Rodger kept looking nervous. “Landyn. before you go, I want you to know I do want some sort of relationship with you. I know I was stupid, not realizing you were my son, but I would like to try even if it’s just as a friend. Ben and I have been really working on our relationship and I would like to do the same with you. If you’re up for it?”
I’ve never really had a dad figure, and truthfully, I could never picture Alpha Rodger being a good one. Especially how distant and hard he was on Ben growing up. I could honestly see he was trying to change that. Maybe not directly for me and Ben, but least for Maddy.
“Okay, we can try hanging out and see how it goes. “
He beamed. “Great, that’s all I want.”
Ben became more tense. ” We have about eight hundred palace warriors hidden throughout the property. We can’t exactly tell our own without my mother finding out and tipping of the Rouge king. Remi said his numbers are around twelve hundred. So it’s going to be pretty close, but we still will have the advantage by at least a couple hundred. If Remis numbers are right.”
I handed them each a vile. It lasts forty-eight hours. Lily wants us all to take it before in case she tries something early on.
They downed it with a shot of whiskey. It didn’t go unnoticed that I saw Ben hesitate for a second.
I felt a link coming in, so I opened it to hear Lily. ” Landyn, when you’re done with Ben, we need to talk. Maureen is here, but we need to talk first.”
“Okay, I can meet you in my room to talk? ” I hated that I couldn’t go to Maureen right away, but by the sound of Lily’s voice. It seemed pretty urgent .
She was already at my door when I got down to our floor. We went inside, and she started to pace.
“Lily, you’re freaking me out. One, you should really sit down. I’m afraid you’re going to walk the pups out.”
She rolled her eyes at me. She sat down anyway. “Maureen picked up a scent of someone.”
“Okay?” I wasn’t sure where she was going with this.
“She picked up a specific scent of vanilla and sandalwood. I also once picked up that scent strongly.”
“She’s a witch. Maybe she could pick up on that easily.”
“She thinks it was a candle. We both know the only way someone would recognize a specific scent like that who isn’t a wolf is a fated mate of someone here in the pack.”
“She has a second chance beloved or mate, whatever it’s called?” I felt like my heart was going to shatter.
She nodded. “I think that she does.”
“Lily, who smells like that to you?”
Females smell men differently than how we smell them men. Otherwise, it would just be kind of weird. If there you’re fated mate, their scent becomes comes stronger and almost intoxicating, least that’s how it was described to me. That’s how Lily and Louise scent of Myles or Conner is different from how I scent them. I was having a hard time trying to figure out who smelt like that or if one of the girls ever mentioned a male smelling like that to them, and I was coming up blank.
Lily sat there quietly. Lily’s, whose scent is that?”
She gulped.
“Lily. who’s is it? I’ll go ask Amber if you don’t tell me.”
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