First Love Of The Alpha
Chapter 56

Lily’s POV

“Okay, it’s Ben’s, the scent is Bens.”

I saw his face pail. “Bens?”

“She’s Ben’s second chance, mate?”

“Yes, I think so.” I hated how hurt he looked.

“Am I being punished? The one girl I actually have feelings for, and she’s mated to my brother and her sisters, ex fated mate. This is just cruel.”

“Landyn, you have to understand. I’m just as shocked as you are. It’s weird for me, too. But I also don’t have feelings for Ben anymore like you clearly do for Maureen.”

“There clearly not real. It has to be the guardian pull.”

He started to form tears. “If it wasn’t real, you wouldn’t have tears in your eyes right now.”

“It just sucks. The one girl, the only one I end up liking, is mated to my brother.”

“I know it does. You just need to believe that the moon goddess knows what she’s doing. I mean, they both were rejected by their first beloved and mate. Maybe she knew they would need each other.”

His face relaxed some. “Lily, Ben’s not doing the best.”

I looked at him confused. I knew he was struggling with the rejection and pregnancy. But he honestly seemed better about it here lately. “What do you mean?”

“Lily, what im about to tell you can’t leave this room. Not even Myles. He will find out soon, but it can’t be tonight.”

“Landyn, you’re kind of scaring me.”

“The meeting with Ben and Alpha Rodger wasn’t just about him being my dad.”

I was even more confused now. What could they possibly be meeting about? That’s all Ben’s talking about and about me staying here, possibly. I didn’t know what else to say. So I just said, “Okay?”

“Ben has decided he won’t take a chosen mate. If he doesn’t take one to become Luna, then he can’t become Alpha. They both asked me to take over if and when I found my fated mate or a chosen one.”

“No, no, that doesn’t make any sense. Ben has always wanted to be Alpha. Why would he give that up?”

Landyn looked at me with the saddest eyes, and I knew where this conversation was going. “Because of me?”

He nodded. “He doesn’t think that he deserves to find love again. Lily, he can’t picture loving anyone but you. He’s basically punishing himself. He knows he wouldn’t ever cross a line with you again. He just wants you happy, and that’s enough for him.”

I gave him a guilty look. “I know, I knew he still loved me just how he acted and looked at me. I knew it didn’t go away. I was selfish. I was so relieved that we were talking and working things out and that we could actually be friends. So i think i just made myself believe that he was really okay. I don’t want to see him keep hurting every day. Part of me will always love and care for him.”

“Lily, you’re not selfish. I get it. I honestly thought with time he would slowly get better. But he’s actually getting worse. It’s almost like he’s getting depressed.”

“I kind of wondered. After you mentioned him stepping down from taking over as alpha.He’s put on such a good show for me. Amber’s been worried, though. She’s been acting strange, nicer, actually.”

Landyn put his hand up to cover his face. “What do I do? How do I pretend like I feel nothing. Do I just act like it’s just the guardian pull and let her be with Ben. It sucks, I like her. I do. I know it’s more than the pull. But I don’t think Ben would ever get over another rejection. This is why I never let myself get feelings towards any girl. I really wanted my fated mate, so nothing like this could happen. Yet here I am about to hand the girl I like over to my own brother.”

“Trust me, Im right there struggling with you. My sister is a second chance mate to my first love, my fated mate. None of this is easy. Like I said before, maybe the moon goddess felt like Ben needed Maureen. Maybe Ben needs her to help him pull through all of this. Maybe she is his destiny, his savior. I know it hurts. It seems to me that Ben was meant to be with a royal. This is the second chance for Ben to be happy.”

“I know that, and I understand that. I just want to be selfish for a minute, I guess. I’m not used to all these feelings. She’s really something though, isn’t she?”

“From what I can tell, she really is.”

“Do you think Ben is going to murder me for taking a shower with his second chance, mate?”

I slapped my head. “You didn’t?”

He gave a naughty grin. “Oh, but I did.”

“I think we might need to keep that a secret. We already have enough drama as is. He does need to know that you felt something for her. But if you’re going to support him in this, I think you should tell him that to.”

“You know how I feel about fated mates. Second chance or fated, I always believed in it deeply. I was angry at the moment, mostly just sad now. You know I would never come between that. It hurts. It hurts like hell. But I know Ben needs this.”

I rubbed his back. “You’re a good man, Landyn Black, and you will make an amazing Alpha if Ben decides he doesn’t want it.”

“I told him it was always his, and he could have it back whenever he wanted. I was never meant to be Alpha.”

“I think you have more qualities than you realize. Just know if you stay here, so will I. I’ve already been thinking about staying anyway. If it’s safe, I don’t want to leave. I’ve created a life and a family here.”

“Ben told me that. Whatever makes you happy, Lily. I know everyone will be pleased to keep you here. Especially Amber and Conner. Even Ben.”

I smiled. He always ended up comforting me when I was supposed to be the one comforting him. “So any more nakedness with maureen that’s going to have to be kept secret.”

He gave me a nervous smile and laugh. “Seruously Landyn, you were there like only three days. Ben is so going to kill you.”

“I couldn’t help it, Lil. I still haven’t figured out how I’m going to hide what I feel.”

“Well, I’m the queen of that, I’ll help you out. You should really talk to Maureen, though. I would encourage her to get to know Ben to. She might consider rejecting him if she feels as strongly for you as you do for her.”

His eyes saddened again. “Part of me wants her to reject him…. Yeah, I’ll talk to her.”

“I don’t want you to think that your happiness isn’t important. Just give her the option, a real option. Let her get to know Ben first.”

“I keep trying to repeat what you said in my head about the moon goddess and destiny. But you went against destiny. Most wolves do now.”

s**t, he has a point. “My situation is different. Ben betrayed me. I don’t need to repeat what he’s done to me. You already know. As far as everyone else, I can’t speak for them. I know most haven’t found their fated mates and they fell in love. Are you saying you are in love with Maureen after three days?”

“I don’t know, but I feel like I could have. I think it could have turned into something really great.”

“Just talk to her after she finds Ben. That’s all you can do. They are not going to be able to hide from each other. Ben will smell her.”

“I know you’re right. It just doesn’t make it any easier. I just feel like im being torn back and forth right now. I just hope the moon goddess knows what she’s doing. I’ll trust her in this. At least for now.”

Landyns phone started to ring, and he jumped up when he saw whoever it was.

I didn’t try to ease drop into his conversation till I heard, “How the hell did she get out? You told me it was nearly impossible. “

I couldn’t make out what was being said on the other end of the phone. Landyn was pacing, so I couldn’t get anything clear.

Landyn tossed his phone harshly at the wall. The screen shattered into pieces.

I couldn’t help but let my mind wonder. “Who was that?”

Landyn continued to pace and rubbed his hands down his face and behind his neck. “Brooke escaped. She’s been the perfect warrior. It honestly seemed like she was trying to make the best of this and trying to change. What the hell is she thinking?”

Part of me was shocked, but the other part had a feeling she would end up doing something like this. She has so much built-up rage towards me and this illusion that she should end up with Ben.

“Okay? Is she coming here? How long has she been gone?”

“No one has seen her since lunch. She used her free pass to skip training. She knew when the gaurds would have a small opening and she ran by foot. A wolf would make too much noise. She could have been gone for hours before they realized she was gone. I still don’t understand how this is even possible.”

“Well, I guess we just have to be prepared for one more thing.”

Landyn sat back down next to me and put his head on my shoulder, and I placed mine on top of his. His voice was just above a whisper. “I hope all of this ends tonight. How many awful things have to keep happening?”

“I’m not sure. But I’m sure it will all work out. I have to believe in that.”

Brooke POV

I skipped training today. We have three free passes to use during warrior camp. I finally used my first one today.

I couldn’t handle the guilt that was building up in me knowing what today was, knowing what would happen in just a few short hours.

How could I just sit here and do nothing when I had such a huge part in all of this.

Being here was forcing me to deal with my reality. There was no escaping it. Everyone hated me here. They knew how I treated people back home and wanted nothing to do with me. I was alone, and I’ve never felt something so awful.

I had a hard time sitting here and doing nothing about it. I could warn them or at least help. I knew way too much. I knew I was as good as dead as soon as I got out of here.

I should have told Landyn everything the day he took me here. I just couldn’t figure out how he knew what i had done.

What I did know is I couldn’t sit here any longer. I had to get out of here and go back to the pack tonight before everything went down.

I owed my brother that much. Especially because if he hadn’t sent me here, I probably would be already dead.

I gathered a small backpack and put a change of clothes, water and a few snacks in it. I knew if it was going to get out of here, I wouldn’t be able to do it in wolf form. It would be easier to detect.

I went down to the cafeteria and grabbed a lunch so I would least get seen in case anyone got suspicious of me using one of my free pass days.

I carried it out, acting like I was headed back to my room. Instead, I headed for the back door. Most people were eating at this time, and the others were still training in their session that wouldn’t get out for another thirty minutes. That was my only window to break out of this joint, and hopefully, it was enough time to put some distance between us.

Once, I made it to the tree lines. I checked my phone. i knew the warriors on guard would be on the other side in another five minutes and should be able to sneak past quickly.

I took a deep breath and started to run in the direction of my pack. I’m not sure how long I ran, but I knew it had to have been a while before I finally checked. I ran for almost an hour. I sat down again a tree and pulled out my water.

I heard the faint sound of an alarm, and I knew they knew I was gone. I stripped down and put my clothes in my bag. It was time to shift and run like hell home.

I had my brother on my mind. I wasn’t going to let anything happen to him, and I sure as hell wasn’t going to get caught, not now. I just hoped I made it in time.