First Love Of The Alpha
Chapter 72

Lily’s POV

I headed out to go find my mom while Myles and my grandparents stayed with the twins. My dad went to find Maureen.

I wish I understood the situation a little better before bringing Maureen with me. She had every right to meet our dad and grandparents just as much as I did.

Maybe I should have told my mom about her before now. I just wasn’t sure how she would have reacted, and it’s not like she told me she knew.

There are so many problems, all because of secrets.

I will admit that I didn’t know how serious my dad was about Maureens’ mom, and I don’t think anyone else did either. Well, at least till now.

I didn’t see my mom around the packhouse, so I headed to our house. I saw the door cracked, and I knew she was in there just by her scent.

She was sitting on the floor in front of our couch. “Lily, I really don’t want a lecture from my daughter right now.”

“I’m not going to lecture you, mom. I actually came to apologize.”

She took her hand and locked it into mine. “You don’t owe me anything. I know I’ve made you feel like you couldn’t tell me things here lately. Plus, there’s this awkward tension between us. I know you feel it. Everything is just so twisted up right now.”

I laid my head on her shoulder. “It will all get worked out. But I still do owe you an apology. Dad told me more about his relationship with Maureens’ mom. I really had no idea. Grandpa made out to be like it was more of a fling.”

“At first, that’s what I was under the impression to. Your dad made it out to be like it was nothing. But it wasn’t. He loved her. I felt that he was distant and unsure of me, and with time, I knew why. I just was too ashamed and didn’t want anyone to know. I’m not mad he fell for someone before me it happens all the time. I just got ahead of myself and bragged about your father to my old pack. I mean, I was an omega. I don’t think anyone saw it coming that I would be mated to a royal. I was lucky. I didn’t want to lose him. I felt that bond and connection instantly, and he was pulling away from it.”

I saw tears forming in her eyes. She seemed hesitant about talking with me about this. “Mom, it’s okay. I understand. I really do. I’m not a little kid anymore.”

“I was young and foolish then. I fell in love with a man who was in love with someone else. If I was brave enough or maybe strong enough, I should have let him go. If he had known about Maureen, you wouldn’t have been here, and I can’t stand the thought of that. You’re my whole world.”

“Everything happens the way it’s supposed to. Maureens is a good person, mom, and she’s lost so much. She needs me, and she needs dad. She needs a family. Plus, she has crazy ex Warlock, who’s obsessed with her. Her mom was brutally killed in front of her. Can you just try to get to know her eventually for me?”

“I’ll try. It’s just hard when she’s a spitting image of her mother…..She really is beautiful. “

“She really is……She’s Ben’s second chance, mate.”

My mom looked at me, shocked. “Really? Is that weird for you?”

“Kind of, but I just want the both of them to be happy. They deserve it. Ben and I got to a really good place. He’s in a coma because of me.”

My mom rubbed my back. “It’s not because of you. It’s because of Lexi. She’s the one that stabbed him not once but twice. Truthfully, most of this blame goes to Luna Meghan, but she’s

is still not the one that stabbed him. So if you need someone to blame, then blame Lexi. All of your friends would put their lives on the line for you, and we both know you would do the same.”

I sighed. “Things are so messed up.”

We sat in silence for a few minutes. “We really should head back. I’m sure the twins need me, and you haven’t had a chance to hold them yet.”

She shot up off the ground excitedly. “Oh my goodness. Yes, let’s go.”

She dragged me alone with her, and we headed back to the pack house.

Maureens POV

I walked out more hurt than anything. As soon as I heard Charles say my mother’s name, I felt my heart shatter.

I think what got to me the most was the pain I saw in his eyes when he looked into mine. I knew instantly it was more than some summer fling. He loved my mother.

I was ready to bolt right then and there. I would have to, but my feet felt frozen to the ground.

When Lily’s mom reacted the way that she did about seeing me, it basically confirmed my suspicions.

I hated that Charles just expected that I didn’t have a dad when I was growing up. I had an amazing dad. I didn’t want my dad to feel replaced even if he wasn’t alive.

My mind started spiraling. I couldn’t help but feel like my dad killed himself because he had nothing left. I technically I wasn’t his to love. Maybe he thought I would eventually find out the truth, which i guess I did.

The tears i didn’t know i was shedding had made stains on my shirt. I slid down one of the bookcases in the library. I felt my legs going weak the longer I stood.

I heard my name being called, but it wasn’t who I was expecting. I honestly thought it would have been Landyn or Lily that found me.

I slowly stood up and turned the corner. I looked directly into his big violet eyes. “Wasn’t who i was expecting to find me.”

“Lily gave me an idea of where to look for you. She’s talking to Raya, and I wanted to be the one to talk to you. I think there’s more to the situation than you should be aware of.”

I couldn’t help but blurt out. “I know you loved my mother.”

He gave me a small smile and sat down on one of the chairs next to a table. “Yeah, I really did.”

He cleared his throat louder than I’ve ever heard anyone do. I could tell he was still pretty weak. He took his time before he spoke again. “You have to forgive Raya. She still has a hard time over me, almost rejecting her to be with your mom.”

I sat down across from him. I wasn’t sure what to say or if I was supposed to say anything at all and just listen.

“I was really okay if I never found my mate. In the end, i was trying to do the right thing and stay true to the moon goddess. Besides, what were the odds of a witch and wolf working out that weren’t fated mates. It wasn’t very common back then, and if it did happen, it wasn’t really talked about.”

“Did my mother want you to choose her?”

“I’d like to think she did. She wasn’t the type of woman to beg me to stay with her if I didn’t want her. She was so strong. She told me if I didn’t see her as the only choice, then I wasn’t the one. She didn’t understand the pull I felt towards Raya. It wasn’t as strong as most, and I honestly think it was because I loved your mother so much, and so did my wolf. I think we were rejecting Raya without even realizing it.”

I listened carefully, not showing too much emotion. I definitely understood Rayas freak out a little more . I couldn’t help my voice coming out a higher pitch than it should have.”Why didn’t you choose my mom?”

“I was to be the next king. I made the choice to be there king. I didn’t think they would accept me with a witch on my arm. Especially one that wasn’t my fated mate. I didn’t have a case. I knew I would get asked to step down. I was worried about my position getting put in the wrong hands. So many wolves wanted to be king for the wrong reasons.”

“So it wasn’t a choice between my mom and your fated mate it was a choice between my mom and being King?”

He looked over at me, shocked. “I didn’t think of it that way. I did end up loving Raya. It just took some time, and when she got pregnant, I saw her in a new light…. I know I’m sounding like a huge a*s right now, but I’m trying to be honest, and I was young and foolish. I’m not perfect.”

“I know, either am I. I appreciate you telling me all of this. I can see why Raya would not like me. I really am the spitting image of my mother.”

“Maureen, I didn’t mean to suggest that you didn’t have a father. I’m grateful your mom’s beloved stepped up like that.”

We sat quiet for a moment. “I have to ask, and if you feel like you shouldn’t or can’t answer, I’ll drop it and never bring it up again. But if you knew about me, would you have picked my mom?”

I saw the sadness wash across his face. “Maureen, I shouldn’t….i can’t.”

I knew just by his eyes what the answer would be, and I was going to take it to the grave. That answer was for me and me only. “I understand.”

“Maureen, I would really like to get to know you and Lily better. Both of you are my daughters, and I would like a relationship with both of you if you’re up to it, that is?”

“I would really like to. I just need Raya to be okay with it first. I don’t want that guilt on me. I do understand her better, and it sounds like she never dealt with it, but my mom’s gone. She’s gone. She shouldn’t hate me just because of who my mother is.”

“She doesn’t hate you. I think it just startled her to see you and brought a lot of old s**t back up. I don’t even think she intended to hurt you. She’s not a bad person. Just try give her another chance. “

“Okay, I guess I can do that.”

“Is it okay if we head back to the conference room?”

I nodded. “Yeah, that’s fine.”

When we got back to the conference room, I wasn’t expecting Lily and Raya to get back already. I didn’t think me and Charles talked that long.

Raya looked nervous and stood from her seat. She walked directly up to me. I couldn’t tell if she was angry or happy or whatever emotion she was feeling, and I was feeling the urge to bolt again.

She grabbed onto both of my hands with hers and held onto them. “I’m so sorry you had to see me act like that. There’s so much more to our story, and I mean all of our story.” She pointed around the room.

“It’s okay. Charles explained a little to me.”

“I don’t hate you, and I certainly don’t hate your mother. You have to understand in my eyes that she was the other woman. The competition, the woman that I could never live up to. It broke me a lot back then.”

I looked over and watched Charles put his head down. I could tell he was ashamed. But he really shouldn’t be. Love is hard. Hell, even I have the figured out, and I’m not even as old as them. Being rejected made it easier to see all of that. Plus, hearing Lily’s story. Sometimes, you just can’t help who you love.

I wasn’t sure what to say. She pushed my hair behind me ear, something my mother used to do to me every day. “I’m not a fool. I know you can’t help who you fall in love with. Even if someone you never thought possible.”

She gave me a knowing look. I knew Lily must have told her about Ben. It was kind of weird that she basically read my mind. She was acting like Landyn for a moment.

I shook my head. “No, you really can’t.”

“I’m so sorry that we got off on the wrong foot. I do want to get to know you if you want to get to know me? I would love that very much.”

I thought about it for a moment and looked over at Lily, who was giving me a hopeful look. “I would really like that too.”

She literally jumped up and down and then pulled me in a tight hug. She whispered in my ear. “We got you now, sweetie. You won’t ever have to be alone again. Plus, Amber will forever annoy the s**t out of you and barge in even when you dont want her to. You are stuck with us all. Thick and thin, we will be there.”

I felt tears start to form, and my dumb a*s all could do was nod again. I will never be one good with words. I would much rather run and hide.