My Babies Father Is Alpha
Chapter 28

Jax pov

Did she think I don’t want her pups? Another man’s touch, I definitely won’t accept but it’s past now. I don’t care what happened in the past. I want her to live happily with me. That’s what I want. And for pups so her pups were mine too. She said about having our pups… So let me tell her what is in my mind. So she can rest assured that I’m not another wolf. I’m one only woman’s man. And that woman is her. ONLY HER.

“First of all, I’m not going to almond my pups. They are not just yours, they are mine too. Touched by another man, so no one tolerated that, but for me that was past. I have passed too. So I don’t want our past to ruin our present and future. And last but not the least, if you are insecure about my own pups, make your pups separate, then I promise to you I’ll never ask you to have pups with me. It’s fine for me to have only three pups in advance.” I told her that from the bottom of my heart. I mean it in every word. Just for her to make me happy.

“Jax…” She gaps in shock.

“Anything for you Baby Doll.” I k**s her forehead in full love.

“Jax, you don’t have to…”

“It’s decided Doll. I love you… The day I find out you are my Mate. I fall for you. You are my love of life… You are my last chance to become a happy man and father too. I do everything to make you happy and mine… And I’ll die without you… I can handle my first Mate’s death… But I can’t handle losing you… But still, I want you to choose me or him. I’m being selfish once this time I won’t you choose me. But still, you follow your heart. I’m here so you can give me an answer today, accept me or reject me…” I hope she can understand my situation.

“They are Carter’s pups, Jax… When he left me he never knew that our first time matting made me pregnant. Did you still want them? After knowing they are your Alpha’s babies?” She booming questions back to back.

I was taken back for a moment. She looked at me so she could see me getting angry and pissed off. But I give her a warm smile. I slid my hand in her waist and pulled her close to me. She won’t try to step away from me. She looked surprised.

“I know… I know they are Alpha’s pups. And I still want them, because they are not just his pups, they are yours too. So they will mine too, as you will be mine… If you want…” I feel sad about the last sentence.

“How did you know? Leo told you?” She looked up at me with surprised eyes.

“No. Leo didn’t tell me. It’s Eric finding out. He can feel Alpha aura around Ace. And anyone can see how Alpha and Ace look the same as a carbon copy. Ace is a mini vision of Carter. ” I chuckle at her cute reaction.

“It’s that obvious?” She murmured herself.

“You try your best to hide his look by colouring his hair. But you can’t hide his scent and the aura of Alpha. We are werewolves and can find that easily.” I said testing tone.

She pulled back and bit her lips in nervousness. I gave her a look.

“You didn’t don’t ‘Him’ right?” She asked nervously.

I know who she mentioned. She always tries to not say his name. Like she doesn’t want to take his name on her lips. Did she hate him that much? How can Alpha deal with this then?

I just leave her there and walk to her bed. I pat on my lamp for her to say sit on my lamp. This is going to be a long talk and I don’t want her legs to feel pain from standing too long.

She has a little heritage but she walks to me and sits on the bed beside me. I don’t like that but I respect her. So I let it be.

“Tell me, Jax… Did you…”

“He is in a coma Baby Doll. How can I tell him? And I can understand you have some reason to hide this from him. The choice is all you’re my love…” I picked her up and put on my lamp. I bury my head in her neck to take her intoxicated scents in my system. I need her so badly. Damn my hormones won’t listen to me.

“I don’t want him to find out about pups. He is not diverse at all. They are all mine. But I was scared of what if he found out and he snatched my babies from me. If that happens I’ll die without them.” She rubbed her head on my chest and said with a sad tone.

“Don’t say that… you will never die until I die… And I won’t die so easily. I won’t get you hurt, I will protect… So you have a long life, my dear Mate.” I hold her closer to me.

“Thank you, Jax… For caring for me… You and Leo just like each other.” She smiles warmly.

“Leo… I don’t think he loves you as I do. And can you please don’t mention him when we are alone. I appreciate what he does. But still, he marries to you was not good.” I said holding my anger. I don’t want to be angry at him. After knowing he saved Nora and her pups. But marrying her was too much. I mean he knows Nora’s pups, not his, why he married her.

“Are you jealous over Leo?” She can’t hide her smile behind her palm.

“Yes, I’m… You are mine… And I don’t want anyone touch you as I do.”

“Oh… Jax…” She still smile like that. Look so adorable.

“So… Now that I know you had pups from Alpha. But I’m still not going to give up on you… Nora, I swear to Moon goddess that I only love you… In my heart is beating only for you… I want you… your pups are mine pups… if you anything you want you to me do I’ll do that without a second thought.” I grab her chin and make her look up at me.

“Jax… please understand me… I can’t…” She look tens against me.

“It’s ok… I… I can understand. Then be quickly ok…” I put her on the bed and get up from ready for her rejection. I know she can’t accept me, so she heritage to rejected me. So I show her that I’m ready. On the inside, I feel hurt as think rejection. Eric tries to control. But I closed him inside so he won’t interrupt.

‘No… I don’t want to get rejected… I’ll never accept that…’ Eric cry in my head. Be getting broken the thought.

‘And I’m not too. She doesn’t know how important you are to us… Jax-Eric let me talk to her…’ Zoe’s voice ring in my mind. She look angry too.

‘Zoe, please… Don’t force her… let her take her own decisions.’ I said to her.

Zoe never answered me. Keep reminding quiet. I never feel her.

“Jax, what are you saying?” She asked me in confusion.

“I’m ready for rejection… Just make quick…” I said closing my eyes. Ready for her than words. But before thought, I feel warm arms wrap around my waist. Her tears making wet my t-shirt. I open my eyes and look down at her.

“Nora…” I called her by her name.

“I’m not ready to give you the pain I feel when I face rejection. It’s f**king hell for any wolf… It’s not your place to face that…” She said low wet tone.

I hate myself making her cry. But I have to push her to reject me. If still not had carriage so I’ll do that. I’ll reject her… I know it’s hurt her… But I have to.

“I’m more strong Baby Doll. Remember I lost my fist Mate… I survived from that pain… So I’ll take this pain too…” I assure her.

“But I’m not ready to lose you…” She hug me more tightly.

“Nora, you know what are you saying? You don’t want me as your Mate. But you still don’t want to leave me… Why making this difficult? Why you so confused?” I can’t help but feel frustrated.

I’m not confused at all, Jax… I love to have loving, caring and not to mention super sexy Mate. But the fact is that Carter is here… And he and James claim me as their Mate. If I accept you… Carter will harm you… I know how aggressive he can if he feel he going to lose… And I don’t want you to get hurt because of me…” She said looking at me. She look so helpless.

I sigh and push her back lightly. She doesn’t look happy to push by me suddenly. She steps forward to hug me. But not this time, I have to show her if she still got confused or scared of Alpha like that, she will lose one of us. I step back from her.

I’m happy to know you were worried about me… But I’m Beta of Blue Moon Pack. I had the power to protect myself… So don’t think Alpha hurt me… what is hurt me is you… But I can understand… Let me make it easy for you…” I said serious tone. I know it’s going to hurt her, but it’s best for her.

“Jax… You…” She look at me with tearful eyes. Two hand holding his sob.

“I… Jax… The Beta of Blue Moon pack… Re…” I never thought that words feel so heavy and painful than injury I got in war. I can’t hold my own tears from falling down.

I look at her face. She look shocked and hurt already. Tears wet her whole cheeks. She know what I going to say.

“No… Jax…” She yelled out of her lungs. She not ready to face rejection again.